I was tossing and turning in bed. I had a strange uneasiness inside me, my heart was beating faster than normal. At that moment, I heard the door open slightly. My eyes opened.
Alp was there. As he approached me with silent steps, the determination in his eyes was both frightening and strangely took my breath away.
"What are you doing here?" I couldn't say. It was as if my tongue was stuck to my palate.
He leaned down and whispered into my ear:
"Your mind is stuck on me, admit it."
I got goosebumps. That sarcastic confidence in his voice clashed with all the resistance inside me. I wanted him to go, but at the same time I wanted him to stay...
Suddenly his face came very close. When he touched my lips, all the logical thoughts in my brain fell silent. The heat was so intense that it took my breath away. When I felt your hands in my hair, I thought my heart would come out of my chest.
As I disappeared into his arms, a voice inside me was screaming: Stop, this is wrong!
But my body was saying something else.
When Alp's lips touched mine, the spark that rose from within me quickly turned into a flame. The distances between me and him had Decayed.
My breathing quickened as his fingers slid from my cheeks to my neck, I closed my eyes. When his lips touched my skin, my body shuddered, as if fire was circulating in my veins.
"Tell me you don't want me, I'll go," he said in a hoarse voice.
I couldn't tell. My lips were parted, but no words came out. The fact that I couldn't answer was the most powerful confession for him.
He wrapped me in his arms without waiting even for a moment. We got lost between the sheets of the bed as the warmth of it Decamped over me. His touch, his gaze, the way his breath moved around my neck... everything was real. It's too real.
My heart felt like it was going to burst through my chest, my brain was blank. All I could hear was my own rapid heartbeat mixed with his wheezing breaths.
When I opened my eyes, the sun was shining on my face through the gap in the curtain. For a moment I did not understand where I was; it surprised me that I was alone in bed. Just now... yes, just now it was as if the Alp was here. I felt her skin, her breath, her voice so real that it still felt like my heart would jump out of my chest.
I reached out my hand to the pillow, as if I were going to find its warmth... but it was cold. I took a deep breath, my face was burning like fire. "It was a dream…" I said to myself, but the mark it left on me was as heavy as reality. There was still the dream of his touch on my lips.
I threw the blanket off me and straightened up, my eyes fixed pensively on the wall. "I... what did I see?" I whispered. My heart still hadn't slowed down. I woke up, but my body was still in a dream.
I had lost the concept of time. As if I could stay there in his arms until morning.
I was sitting on the edge of the bed, rubbing my forehead with my hand. Those scenes were still coming to life behind my eyelids. I sat like that for a while; then I took a deep breath and tried to pull myself together. "Don't be ridiculous, Ada," I said in a whisper. "It was just a dream."
I got up and headed for the kitchen. I couldn't even look at my own hands when I was putting water in the kettle; I was nervous, as if I had really touched it in a dream. I looked out the window and took a deep breath. My heart seemed to slow down, but the warmth of my face still hadn't passed.
My eye caught the empty coffee cup on the counter. "Maybe a coffee will help me recover," I muttered. While I was turning on the coffee machine, my eye fell on the garbage bag. There were a few things left over from the evening in it. I hesitated for a moment, then I took that bag in my hand as if looking for an excuse. Maybe some cool air would do me good.
I took the garbage bag and headed towards the door. As soon as I opened the door, the cold air hit my face and it felt good. But before I could even take a step outside, I heard the opposite door open. I froze. And there was Alp right in front of me…
He was wearing a gray T-shirt that showed the morning's lack of haste, and he was turning his keys in his hand. When we made eye contact, a faint smile appeared on the corner of his lips.
"It was an interesting encounter in the morning," he said in a slightly mischievous voice. Then he narrowed his eyes and looked at me. "Or did you... see me in your dream?"
I almost dropped the garbage bag in my hand. My heart stopped for a moment. My face started burning like fire, I felt like I really knew my dream.
"What?!" I said, my voice unintentionally coming out loud. Then I tried to compose myself and looked down at the ground. "Don't be ridiculous…"
But no matter how much I denied it, I could feel my cheeks turning red. While he was looking at me with his hands in his pockets, he wasn't hiding his confident smile either.
"no! Of course not!" I said, my voice trembling a little. "What dreams do you have, morning after morning?"
Alp took his hands out of his pockets, shrugged slightly. "What is it to me, I was just wondering. And that blush looks... quite convincing."
My face turned even redder, and I gripped the garbage bag tightly. "No, that's ridiculous! I'm throwing away the garbage, that's all!"
"Garbage, huh…" Alp looked at me with narrowed eyes. "So you went out under the pretext of garbage. Interesting. Very interesting."
"Very interesting? Is this fun for you now?" i growled, but I noticed that my voice was trembling slightly.
Alp took a step closer, the smile still on his face. "When I say fun... no, I didn't mean to scare. But the way you reacted like that, admit it, is a little... cute."
"Cute?!" I raised my voice, but my heart was pounding like crazy in my chest. He kept his eyes on me.
There was silence for a moment. There was only the sound of the wind and the slight noise in the apartment space. I put the garbage bag down, put my hands on my waist and bit my lips while looking at him.
"Okay… let's say it's cute. So why are you wandering around here in the morning? Are you checking the mail or…"
"Or what?" Alp asked, leaning slightly to the side. "Maybe I just wanted to look at you. Do you think that's such a bad idea?"
My face turned even redder and I looked away. "Don't make jokes like that... Otherwise I'll report you too!"
Alp chuckled, thrusting his hands into his pockets again. "A complaint? I'm counting on you, girl in pajamas. But admit it, weren't you a little curious?"
"Curiosity?!" I said, biting my lips. "You're really... you're very cocky, do you realize that?"
"Can I be cocky? Maybe... But I'm comfortable in front of you because I'm honest," Alp said.
So I took a deep breath, still flushed, but at the same time I realized that the moment was strangely... pleasant. My heart was still beating fast, my brain was confused.
"Okay Alp… I can't deal with you in the morning," I said, my lips still red, my voice a little angry but obviously with a sincere smile. "I'll throw away my garbage, you find yourself a job!"
Alp raised his eyebrows, that mischievous grin was still on the edge of his lips. "I understand... the garbage business is a serious matter, I can't object," he said and gave a light laugh.
I turned around and closed the door with my hands, my heart was still pounding like crazy, but I had a little bit of control over myself.
Silence fell behind the door. I stopped for a few seconds and took a deep breath, then I heard Pakize's murmur. Even his voice reminded me that I had returned to the real world.
But just when I thought the door was closing, that light laugh I heard from behind Alp was still in my ears. It was as if the whole apartment had become a little more alive with that mischievous face and that smile.
And I still hadn't fully recovered from the effect of the dream.