{CHIARA}
This fucking sucks.
It's been three days of agony where l've done nothing but feel sorry for myself, apart from last night when I took a breather from the agony of losing Killian and found the joy at the bottom of a tequila bottle.
Waking up this morning, I immediately regretted that decision, but at least I've been able to feel sorry for myself for a whole new reason, which has been refreshing.
These past three days have been miserable. I made this whole declaration about getting my life back on track, getting back to work, and making sure my college enrollment is still intact, and yet all l've done is hole up in my shitty apartment and stare at a blank wall. I'm really doing wonders with my newfound freedom. Killian should be so proud.
Tonight though, things change.
I'm not just going to talk about getting myself on track, I'm actually going to do it. I hope.
