Minato glared at Shimizu looking down. As a punishment Minato tells him to sit on his knees in the land. Shimizu looked up with puppy eyes full of tears, trying his best to act pity. His neck was covered with sweat.
"I really don't know."
Shimizu whined again, He is fixated on the same thing—his worst lie. He averted his eyes, avoiding Minato's glare, who was glaring at his soul directly. Minato sighed in frustration and stroked his hair roughly. He sat in the bed and crossed his legs in front of the whining puppy.
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Five minutes ago;
Shimizu looked at Minato, dramatically. He stood up concernedly, moving his hands toward Minato's face. He's fine, right? Shimizu's face was pale.
When it was near Minato's face, he slapped it. Minato glared at Shimizu. Now you are weird things, stop coming near me!
"Go into your knees."
Minato shouted and left no room for communication, "But." Shimizu tried to talk again but by the glaring 'hmph' He fell into his knees obediently. His hand was trembling. His face was red. His mind was full of guilt and confusion. He knows he does something but what. He shut himself in his world again.
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Shimizu lowered his face again. I don't have any idea how I can get out of this, but yeah I can't tell why he is angry and I don't even remember it clearly anyway. Ahem! But I can still feel the warmth in my touch, when it touches it. I feel like I am going to drought in the warmth. There is no word against it, the kiss was amazing. He smiled.
His head was still down, he casually covered his red face with his hand. He did it when he was in the mood…; Ahem! Sorry when he had that kind of thought. If I can grab those waist again but at this chance. I make it more comfortable. He squeezed his thigh clothes—firmly. Then I am gonna lay him on the bed, grab his hand above his head. After gazing at his beautiful face with a panicked expression. My eyes moved looking at his frail body.
Finally my eyes lend on his soft lips. I lean dramatically wanting to tear his lip on my own. Touching his body until I got enough.
Then… He pervertly smiled, which gave Minato a chill right down to his spine. Minato looked at his arms. Why am I getting goosebumps for no reason. I really hate it. He looked at Shimizu which worsened the mood. Wow! He was smiling.
"HEY!"
Minato shouted in rage. How dare he laugh at me in a situation like this. I am going to kill him. He stood quickly, took a few steps closer and grabbed Shimizu's collar.
"Look at me."
Minato shakes Shimizu brutally. Shimizu is shocked; he doesn't know why Minato is doing that kind of thing to him when he hasn't done anything yet... Shimizu looked up, trembling in fear while his face was saying another thing. His gaze met Minato's piercing eyes which was looking at his soul like it was going to pierce in real life also.
Shimizu face was glowing red, he trembled and said;
"What h-happened?"
"Again why are you acting dumb? What's the cause of your smiling? You can't see what the situation we are in. Tell me." Minato stopped in the middle and nervously asked, "Ahem! why do you do that?"
Minato covered his face half with his palm, picking from the gap with a dull voice. Stopping himself from shuttering. Hm… I am getting curious plus confused. I think it is an illusion or if it really happened then it would be a mistake so then after that… he still kisses me but then that lick… let's not talk about that. It's so embarrassing. His ear's tip becomes red while his thoughts go insane. He doesn't even remember when he kissed his own husband after that… event.
Shimizu looked up in panic—sensing tension. His eyes moved directly toward the angered face who was glaring at me while it's not feel like it. Then his eyes fixed on the ear which was pit red. Instantly his face also becomes redder replying to the moment again. So he was talking about that.
That moment he was fantasizing a minute ago, shameful on you means me. AHHH!! Shimizu internally screamed inside. On the outside trying his best to not make the situation worse. His rest of the body was trembling.
"I—I don' t know why I do that."
"So you don't know him… suspicious. Now you're acting weird, Shimizu. Let's forget about that."
Minato fluttered out without any hesitation. Those few words 'let's forget' pierce into his heart. Making his heart ache. 'Just forgot about that' he thinks it is easy to forget for me. For me. Never. This is my first kiss.
He becomes paler with sadness, his tears start flooding out. When Minato was seeing the other side. He doesn't even watch me. Only that feeling is left in him.
Minato averted his eyes, peeking at the kneeled man.
But when he saw him, he rushed toward Shimizi—grabbed his face into his cold hand which was still soft. Why is he crying now? I don't even say anything hurtful.
"Why are you crying? Did I say something bad? You can tell me."
The thick layers of seriousness fading from the frame, it was replaced with light with glory and softness.
"Tell me."
He wiped his tears with his fingers. Shimizu looks at Minato with blurry vision. It's not easy to hold back my feelings for too long.
"Y-you told me… to forget."
Shimizu shuttered; Minato's gaze became more gentle, he politely said, "So what. Is there any problem with that?"
"Ya I have. It was my first kiss plus—" He softly mumbled into his mind, 'with my love.' Why would I not be angry? Telling me to forget which i was longing for years.
"It was your first kiss. Aw!"
Minato teasing pinched his cheeks making it more redder. Shimizu yanked his face behind.
"Why are you making fun of me? You are too rude. I know you kiss so many times that's not meant to mock someone with that. It hurts."
Shimizu pouted, pursing his lips tightly. He turned his face looking disappointed, his tears still spilling. I don't know how much time it will take to stop his crying again. Minato shakes his face and starts laughing like crazy.
Shimizu peeks at Minato from his corner of eyes—wanting to see his worried look but it makes it more disappointing for him.
"Why are you laughing at me? You are too rude."
"First stop calling me rude in every sentence. When you are the real pain in the ass. You are not answering me when I ask you. You were ignoring me."
"When I ignore you... When you are calling me I am the one who caused everything. I don't do anything." Shimizu eyes gaze lower in sadness. Suddenly his mind clicked and he whispered, "You are also hiding things for me. That doctor. Depression. Health. You know I care about you more than anything. I am always here for you to share the biggest, even smallest things. I know you are struggling but I am avoiding it. That's not mean I don't know. Don't feel like you are alone."
Minato is stunned, he surprisingly sits on his back—don't know what he needs to do.
"Why don't you try to understand? I am here for you. Can you not try to act normal? Be yourself, no hiding, no fakeness… just be yourself."
He grabbed Minato's shoulder—not tight but firm.
"It hurts that I am closest to you but also at times like this, I feel like I know nothing. Why do you always think you are alone? Like you are the only one you can solve this. Don't take on someone who you also know you can't hold."
It feels like Shimizu is another person when he starts talking like mature… Minato thought. He was feeling a pang of pain in his heart. A heaviness. I can't tell you it's just too much even if I tell you… you are going to be angry, sad, guilty, everything. That's something I don't want to say. Depression is another thing but a disease. Two months. If i even tell him that my love which i fight for. brave for. I love him more than anything. Die for him. Anything possible. Even if I had to sacrifice myself it's nothing. That love betrayed me like I was nothing in his life. It is not easy to be the one I am. I also want to show my emotion but I just can't show it on my face. I feel nervous to show my emotion to someone else, even anyone.
Minato's mind becomes messed up. He closed his ears in anxiety. I don't want to hear anymore. To hear more words that I want to but can't. He shook his head.
"You don't even know me completely."
Minato shouted in denial. He stood up in anger—wanted to escape from reality.
"W–What??? I don't know you. I know you better than myself. Why are you acting like that,"
Shimizu shouted, becoming impatient. Now he's saying I don't know him. What happened to you, Minato, why are you acting like that?
"Y–Y—You can't understand me. If i tell you. You will be angry."
"If you don't tell me how I am going to understand it. First tell me then I am going to judge if it is an angry matter or what. Don't think of me, just think for yourself not for others."
"No. I can't be myself. Because I am. Right now. Why are you thinking that I am hiding something?"
"Because you are!!" Shimizu sighed, lowering his voice, touching his chest, "You can tell me. How many times I have to repeat. If you want it a million times I am going to say it. You are not alone."
"I know I am not alone."
"If you know then why."
Shimizu looked at him with his red eyes. Minato lowered his gaze. He don't have anything to say;
"I just don't want… that's all. I don't want to talk about those matters. So stop it."
"But…"
"I SAID SHUT UP."
Shimizu shut his mouth in frustration. Okay don't tell me. From one way or another I am going to find it anyway.
Minato turned and started walking without saying anything. Shimizu shouted from behind, "where are you going?"
Minato sighed—making himself calm.
"Washroom. Stupid!"
TO BE CONTINUED.