Would you like it when your life will feel....a...bit....colourless?
The quite life of mine up until this October had been a very quitely good one.
Just those laughters of my Mom, Dad mistakenly throwing up the pan and spilling the whole dinner, my younger sister running up and down with her energetic smile.
Quite a good life isn't it!?
Well seemed to be like that, but can you imagine that a single cause can end it all.
Two weeks ago...
"Im sorry but we couldn't save her"
Who knew such words could leave a heavy scar on my heart.
I wish I was the one to be riding the car you know.
Not her.
I wish I could turn back time, but would it change anything!? I don't think so.
*The picture of Mom hanging on the wall as I looked up*
"You left me too soon, you know Mom" I said as I looked up and stared as my eyes filled u with tears I didn't wanted to spill.
2 mins later.....
"You really don't wanna come, Ezekiel!?" Dad asked as he got into the car.
"Nah Dad, I don't wanna leave any of what's left of Mom" I said as he looked out og the window to me.
Yes, my Dad and my sister both moved out of the house cause there was no point left in staying in here without Mom.
But I insisted on staying, I didn't wanted to leave what's left of Mom. And plus I can't go to another city and search up for universities during this cold winter.
Nobody would take me if I would've done that. Now that I was alone, what I needed was not alone time inside but instead outside, the cold wind and the snowfalls would really be refreshing to see you know.
Just as that I headed out seeking for part time jobs in-between too. I was glad that I managed to find a part time job that was nearby our house.
As I was walking, I came across a park I didn't remember there was a park this close to our house, I guess my memories are a bit dull.
The wind was cold and refreshing as I thought. Unfortunately, there were just few people around this park. Such a beautiful place and only few knows about it.
Just saw a boy and his mother making a snowman, but what I saw was my own Mom calling me to make a snowman too.
At that point my eyes filled up with tears. It rolled down my face, I breathed out warm breaths. Not being able to hold any longer.
I cried, cried as hard as I can, not letting anyone notice that I was crying.
"Why God!? Why her!? Could've been me too!!?! Aaahhhh!!!!"
But little did I knew that someone noticed.
"You shouldn't cry like that you know, its not worth saying that it should've been you instead" As I looked up all I saw was a girl in an brown overcoat,her hair a little black-brownish.
Those words coming from a soft spoken voice were like a warm fireplace in the middle of an outburst of fast winds and snowfalls.
They were drifting me apart, falling on me, yet still that fireplace was keeping me warm.
Then the voice continued.....
"You look like you'll get cold, here take my scarf"
She slipped off her scarf and wrapped it around me. And all I could do was watch and say this one line,"Thank you miss but I wasn't crying"
She smiled and said, "Well don't thank me and yeah you were crying, im sorry but I need to go now!!!"
Saying that she rushed off that bench where she was sitting beside me. And as she ran I haf to shout it,
"MISSS!!! WHAT ABOUT YOUR SCARFFFF!!!???"
She didn't heard what I said and disappeared into the crowd.
This red scarf was really comforting though, still I have to give it back to her someday or so.
I headed back to my house after it all happened, well all I did was went out for some fresh air but now I have a scarf of a stranger I don't even know abt.
I could do nothing that evening, just made myself food, ate it and studied a bit and went to sleep.
I wish I could just know her name you know. I am curious about that girl. She was cute and beautiful. She had those Oceanic Eyes.
I wonder if I'll ever meet her again.
Words to be neglected I guess.
To be continue.....