But if he were the one to leave first, he feared there would be no one to take care of her. He worried that she would not live well without him…
No matter which ending it was, he could not accept either.
He even found himself resenting the world—resenting the very existence of death. Why must people die? Why can't they live forever, stay with the ones they love, and remain happy for all eternity?
While waiting for the dishes to be served, Bert's mind kept circling around these chaotic thoughts. When the waiter knocked and entered with the food, he finally snapped back to reality. Realizing what he had been thinking, he gave a helpless, self-mocking smile. He really was losing his mind.
Yet he also knew—it was because he cared too much that he kept thinking such foolish things.
