09.43 cycle six, Ba'seth, of calendar Moonrachia
It's been 6 days since the event that happened in that forest.
Day by day, my memory is scattered, it seems like I forget something, but also not at the same time, there's also a lot of memory surfacing, weirdly, it feels like they were mine since the beginning.
Was I transmigrated when I died? Or was I reincarnated, and that I could just recall my previous life memory few days ago? Honestly, I don't know.
But for one thing, I'm certain that the moon cycle was one of the reasons behind it, I just couldn't prove it for now.
As I walk outside of my house, this fantasy world somehow feels like they are greeting me with open arms.
Strolling around the capital city, while I was thinking how different this world is compared to the earth, the earth has a much simpler system of days/months, and years.
But within the memories from Kaleth, the days were separated by cycle, so Monday is cycle one, til Sunday is cycle 7, while there isn't date system, the day would be reset to 1 again after reach cycle 30, basically combining day and date.
For the years its also the same, its counted by cycle of the full month.
While the month is much harder, in this world, it seems there are more than 12 months a year, which is 24 months. A'ren is January, Ba'seth is February, Ca'thir is March, and so on... gladly, the first letter of each month is in the same order as the alphabet.
Given in Aron's memories, I graduated from one of the famous universities with a Bachelor of Education in Economics, which will probably benefit me a lot if I were one of the nobles instead of a commoner, or perhaps a teacher...
Given Kaleth's background in Magictology, as the best graduate in his class, I should be doing fine if I want to become a teacher.
Like how my body was thinking the same thing, without realizing it, my feet already brought me into Arnentiasis, the same academy that I just attended a few months ago before graduating.
Standing in front of the building just makes me realize how big it actually was, even bigger than university Aronn attending on earth, the design was like a grand library in the Middle Ages.
Setting my feet inside, with nothing but a completely deserted hall, while hearing a faint voice between the door, where the teacher was teaching something to their student.
Despite saying it's a academy, the system here is completely different than the one we had on Earth, where children should and will attend academy when they reach 13 years old.
The rest is pretty much the same as the earth, where they will choose their main major and their minor one, where the main major will be separated by a few classes, followed by the minor class, and they feel free to attend any other major class, regardless of whether it's not related to their own.
After a few minutes of walking, I'm now standing in front of the teacher's office. Honestly, standing here makes me insanely nervous...
After knocking on the door a few times, I heard a familiar, gentle voice confirming I could enter.
After stepping inside, there's only her alone in this spacious room, a room that has artificial light, which uses mana stone as its source, and a bunch of archive seats neatly in the cabinet.
There she is sitting around the corner of the room. The way she looked at me eased something inside me, yet I could feel how my heart beat so fast that its feel they could fall out of my chest.
A girl in her 30ish, yet still looking pretty young, given how the mana characteristic, where someone could wield them, will increase their life expectancy and age more slowly.
She has long dark brown hair that flows and frames her face gracefully, with black eyes that are like a blackhole that could devour every single person's attention toward her.
"What's happening? It's rare for you to come to me. Did you cause some trouble or something?" Rheya, it's her name, is one of the people Kaleth is close with, seeing her as his own older sister.
Could I manage to act normally? Like Kaleth? or Aronn?
Who is the real me?
"Rheya.. honestly, I still couldn't find a job at the moment, is there any empty teacher seat that I could fill with..?" while a small sweat was falling down from my forehead.
I feel bad asking her, given that she isn't even that high in position.
But she is just staring at me... did I fuck up acting as Kaleth?
...
After a few seconds.
"Do you even realize how dumb your question was..." as she leaned back into her chair with a surrender smile, as if I said something stupid.
"You just graduated a month ago... and now you want to fill a teacher seat...?" while she massaged her forehead.
Hearing that, I noticed how fucking stupid I was...
"Well... I don't really have much money left..." Remembering Aronn's life already sends a shiver down my spine, it is just explaining how important money was.
"Didn't you get scholarship pocket money before? Where did all that money go?" while analyzing from the top of my hair to the end of my feet.
"You did not buy anything new as far as I remember, didn't even cut your hair, still the same shoes as before," while she stared into my eyes.
What should I even say? The more I lied, the more she tried to dig it out...
"Uhh.. buying the usual things, the normal things where a man in his twenties would do?" Honestly, I don't even know what it is, even in Aronn's entire life, it's nothing but working his ass off.
"Do you think you could lie to me? I've been watching you since you were a little brat."
"Whatever, there's no way you could fill a teacher seat, but it should be fine becoming an assistant teacher, and later on, find the principal," while she was writing something on the paper.
And with just that, she forcefully sent me outside the teacher's office, standing outside the room like an idiot with a recommendation letter in my hand...
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After a few hours of strolling around the academy and asking other teachers here and there, I just realized the principal at the moment is already out of the kingdom.
"She could just tell me right away..." Now I've wasted my precious time, learning Aronn life, time is the second most important thing, while money is the first.
...
Time has passed just like that, the sun has already vanished within the skies, and the world is showered in the pale moonlight.
19:55 cycle six, Ba'seth, of calendar Moonrachia
It's been six days since I got Aronn's memory, or seven days since I got Kaleth's body and its memory.
The more days passed, the more I realized the memories of both of them were scattered, I couldn't fully remember much of it, I couldn't remember Kaleth's childhood, yet I could remember Aronn's childhood.
Honestly, it's not bothering me anymore. I am Aronn? Kaleth? Who cares? Who decided I am any of them? I could just become myself, neither of them.
I lied.
Walking in this city with how crowded people come and go is much more bothering me than losing my own identity. Honestly, it's not like I want to walk around this busy time, but rather I need to.
I need to go to the forest.
The bustling voice fades bit by bit, while the gentle breeze feels like welcoming me to entering the forest, followed by a soft river flow lullaby.
It's been my routine every night, going outside of the city into the forest, and I've been experimenting with my own ability. Honestly, it's much more curse than blessing for me.
The first time I tried to kill myself, I realized I had some weird ability, which honestly makes Kaleth nerd characteristic want to know more about it, but the more I tried it the more I need to used its in caution.
After a few minutes of walking, I arrived at the first time the ability was activated.
This part of the forest always looks much brighter than the rest of the forest, because of how big the lake is, the moonlight reflection on its water is enough to lighten the surroundings.
The scenery looks insanely eerie, like the uncanny valley.
I walk closer, my feet are submerged in the lake, looking down and seeing my own reflection in it.
Before I stab my own neck with a knife, as it's the most normal thing to do.
But instead of piercing my neck, the knife was driven into my skin, as if I were made of liquid.
And the fish that were swimming near my own reflection had died, the moment the knife drowned into my skin, as if they were teleported to the things I see.
The knife was stuck between my neck, and then the fish slowly floated away, like a corpse.
Squatting down, I held the fish with my hand and carefully opened it with both of my hands, just to realize the knife wasn't teleported to them, but rather only the damage, given that the lungs of the fish were severed.
I've been experimenting with this ability, from just inflicting a small wound to a fatal one.
Nothing's happened to me, but rather the damages are always sent elsewhere, either into living beings or things.
Even if I closed both of my eyes and ears, the damage still transferred to somewhere between my surroundings, either targeting the nearest living beings or just damaging an inanimate object.
There's a system or pattern for this ability, it's targeting the things I 'see' or 'hear', detecting the surroundings based on mana frequency, once there isn't any, it's targeting some inanimate things, stone, sand, and such.
It's actually interesting, given the ability is still working around the mana characteristic, meaning, it's not some weird power.
I let the fish corpse float away, within the lake, slowly and surely, it's moving far and far away, then I pull out the knife that's still stuck on my neck.
"As usual..." there isn't any wound or scar.
Kaleth doesn't have this ability, nor even Aronn, whose ability is this? Is this the gift transmigator/reincarnator usually gets?
I can't die.
That's for sure, for now, with only minimal memory, as Kaleth and Aronn, how should I live my life?
Who am I? The lake reflection showing Kaleth's appearance, with Aronn of modern knowledge... and an ability that appears out of nowhere.
Seeing how beautiful the night skies are and how bright the moon was just made me much more anxious.
Was the cycle of the rebirth of the moon really the cause of all of this?
I'm scared.
It's like I was playing as a pawn of something that I couldn't see... why is this happening to me?
"Oh Moon, tell me, could I even be living with an identity crisis mind...?" stares blankly at the night sky
The world feels so peaceful, the breeze that's touching my skin softly, and the gentle hum of the waves of the lakes, calming my mind.
"I probably shouldn't be entering the forest again, doing it continuously day by day could raise a suspicion."
As I stood up and left the forest, I could do nothing but worry about my money situation, given I hadn't died yet...
"Can I fill the assistant teacher spot with Rheya's recommendation?"
With a heavy sigh, I leave the forest...
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A floating corpse of fish... swaying here and there without any destination.
Slowly and surely, the corpse eroded, scattered into a white dust and disappeared...