Eros' Pov:
I must fall in love but I don't want to.
I must try to be a better person but I like me the way i am now.
If the world needs me to change so badly I'll watch it's desperate plea and try to change the world just so I can keep being my true unfiltered self.
A person like me should have NEVER been born a cupid.
I like doing evil things.
I get a kick out of it.
A dopamine rush.
It feels so good when I'm doing evil.
So if I ever fall in love with anything it would be the idea of evil.
I don't know why I'm like this but I never really cared much until I met Hudson and then something shifted in me I saw someone who was like a mirror of everything that I could never be and it's not like I want to be anything like him. I don't, but sometimes when I see how good he is I get so upset that I feel like destroying him to stop myself from wondering what it would be like if I too were good.
I despise the thought.
I HATE him more everyday.
" Venus, I've been secretly working on a way to remove my powers from Hudson." I told my servant and she furrowed her brows.
" Why would you do that now when he's a good person and he's proven to be loyal to you ?" Venus said and I tried to calm myself down after acknowledging her ignorance.
"I need my power back because he's weak and I don't want him to corrupt my power with his weakness. He should have never gotten it in the first place. I never intended for him to get it and I don't want some crybaby using my powers.I thoughtbI made this clear before." I stated as I sat on a large red chair in my room in base one.
Venus sat on the floor in front of me , wearing a plain white dress.
" Ok so tell me just how you'll remove it from him."She asked , her face bent in anger.
" Since the game wants me to be matched up with a strong woman, Enmei is so close to being that and I want my powers back from Hudson. The game suggested to create a potion to get Enmei to take my powers from Hudson.He'll probably die in the process but I just want to be free from him." I stated then I smiled wickedly.
" If Enmei took all his powers I will no longer be connected to him. He won't be able to read my thoughts and I won't have to deal with him nagging me about being a better person ever again.Unfortunately some kind of spirit sabotaged the plan and now I'm just thinking about killing him." I scowled.
" You can't be serious. Hudson deserves your power. He's very responsible and he saved you ! " Venus got up and walked off angrily but stopped suddenly, frozen in place.
" I can't move." She said then her expression saddened.
" I think you need to remember that I can just kill you instead if you want him to live so badly. "
" Ok you had multiple chances to take back your power but apparently nothing works right ? You didn't choose him you're hatred did so maybe If you want him to stop having your power you'll have to start hating him a little less." Venus said , standing stiff with her back turned to me and I thought of just killing them both.
What nonsense is she saying ? Hate him less ? I don't even think that's possible. He's the most despicable human I know.
He's such a nice boy for nothing. A gentleman who thinks we should be kind and caring and all that bullshit. Can I really hate him less ? No . I feel sick at the thought.
He's the only one that has been worthy enough to have my hatred and I think he's the perfect vessel for this hate I feel .
Everyday my hate grows bigger and he just absorbs it all and turns it into more power but still remains weak because he's too busy believing in the power of love to realize what true hatred can do.
A waste of my hate but the only one who can take it and the only one I'm willing to give it to.
" Are you ok ? You seem to be having a panic attack. " Venus said and I remembered she was right there .
" Leave ! " I shouted at her immediately and I released her from my control.
She left the room bitching like I owed her something and I tried to forget the things she said.
I don't need to hate Hudson less he just need to finally acknowledge and accept my hatred but deep down he's holding out for something weak and easily broken like a piece of peace between us or maybe something even more fragile like ....friendship.