Then he asked me, "Tell me, how did you get fainted?"
I suddenly went silent for some time and didn't answer him.
"I am asking you something," he said in his little angry tone, the same tone he gets every time whenever I push him too much. But today I know I am on the side of mistake. I pushed myself too hard and ended up making him this worried.
"This is the third time I am asking you. Will you be able to tell me now?" he said.
"Yuan... it's something else. It's not related to my health," I said.
"Then what is it related to?" he asked.
"Actually... today I went on a blind date."
I said it in one go, in a single breath of mine, because I know how possessive and protective he is about me. Leaving all that aside also, which boyfriend would tolerate hearing that his girlfriend went on a blind date to meet another person? No one would tolerate it at all.
But Yuan's reaction was way too different from what I thought.
He didn't say anything.
Not even a single word.
He just went silent.
I put my hand on his hand that was resting on the steering wheel and said,
"Yuan, I am sorry. You can get angry at me if you want, but please don't stay silent like this. Your silence is killing me. Yuan please say something. I know I did wrong but it was for some specific reason. Otherwise you know that Zhao Shiza is only Xu Yuan's... my Yuan Yuan's. I don't have anything to prove myself to you, but you can punish me. I am really ready for whatever punishment you are going to give me. Just punish me, Yuan... please punish me."
I started crying.
But suddenly he hugged me and hid his face on my shoulder while closing his eyes tightly.
Then he said,
"Please don't say that... how could you even think that I would punish you? How could you think that your Yuan would punish you?"
I slowly broke the hug and looked at his face.
"Yuan... aren't you angry with me?" I asked.
He cupped my face with both of his hands and said,
"The first thing that came into my mind when you said you went on a blind date was... what if that person takes away my girlfriend from me? How could I even breathe then?"
"Yuan... you are really not angry with me?" I asked again.
"I am a very jealous person when it comes to my girlfriend. You know that too well. But this time, on this incident, I didn't feel jealous."
He looked into my eyes.
"The only emotion I can feel right now is fear... a fear of losing you, which I really can't afford no matter how much I try."
I got emotional hearing that.
I really never thought that my Yuan Yuan would ever love me this deeply.
Then suddenly he tapped my forehead and said,
"Where are you lost, you silly girl?"
I smiled.
"You already know the answer, then why are you asking?" I said.
He smiled.
"Of course I know, but I love hearing it from you."
I smiled again.
"I am always lost in you... always and always. Zhao Shiza is always lost in her Yuan Yuan."
"Now you are making me blush too much," he said.
"Is that really true? Did I make you blush that much?" I asked.
He smiled and looked away in his usual style.
Then I said,
"Yuan... Pa asked me to go on this blind date with his business partner's friend's son. I only went there because Pa asked me to. I really didn't want things to become worse for him. After all, by loving me too much since my birth, he already spoiled many other relationships. I don't want him to get his business involved in all this too because I know how much hard work he has done to make it reach this level."
I looked down at my hands.
"So I only wanted to settle this matter in my own way, maturely, without creating more problems. I didn't want you to get involved in it. So this is the whole story of me ending up on this blind date."
"So what did you tell that person?" he asked.
I smiled.
"What else could I say? I only said that I don't have anything to tell him about myself. My answers were too straightforward and he guessed by himself that I had a boyfriend."
He smiled.
"Indeed. I know that side of you too well. Whenever you don't want yourself to be pushed into a situation where you don't want to be, you become so cold and uninterested that no one dares to talk to you at that time."
"You know me more than myself sometimes, I think," I said.
"Of course. Aren't I your boyfriend?" he said.
"Of course you are, Yuan."
"But there is still something that you haven't told me yet," he said.
I got a little confused.
"Yuan, I didn't get it."
"You still didn't tell me how you ended up fainting there," he said.
I immediately started looking here and there because I knew that if I told him, he would become more worried and panicked.
So I crossed my fingers, my usual thing that I always do whenever I am about to lie.
Then I said,
"Maybe I didn't eat breakfast today."
But my bad luck...
He noticed it.
He took my hand in his and looked at my crossed fingers.
"Stop lying, you silly girl. Do you really think you can fool your boyfriend?"
"Of course not, I am not fooling you," I said immediately.
"Okay, now I understand that you didn't faint because of medical reasons. There is something else."
He looked straight at me.
"I can sense that."
"Yuan, you are forcing me to say it now, so it's totally upon you," I said.
"Okay, it's upon me," he replied.
"You need to hear it calmly. Don't react too much. It's just a normal thing, don't think too much about it."
"Zhao Shiza, stop giving me warnings and just say it."
I took a long deep breath before saying it because I knew very well how he was going to react.
Then I said in a very low voice,
"Yuan... you know that I only have you. So if someone else touches me, even if it's just a handshake, I don't feel good."
I lowered my head.
"Even if nothing is wrong in that and there are no bad intentions, I still don't feel good because I am only familiar with your touch."
"So if someone else just does a formal handshake with me... I start feeling uncomfortable, dizzy... and unconscious."
I slowly looked at him.
"That person only did a formal handshake before leaving the café. There was nothing wrong in it. It's just me who made it dramatic. There is really nothing to worry about. I am the one who creates problems every time and everywhere."
"So the problem is with me... not anyone else."
And finally...
I told him everything.
Then I looked at him.
But I saw that he was lost in some deep thought.
I really didn't know what was going on in his mind.
Then I softly called him,
"Yuan..."
He looked at me and said...