Hearing the voices of my sister and fiancee my heart shattered into pieces after three years this is what I get, I came here happily to tell him that I just wrote my final exam and since our wedding is tomorrow I'm ready to give myself to him but what do I get, I stand there quietly with silent tears running down my face I, I listened to their conversation, "ah James faster"i hear Vivian moan, after they both came down from the high they laid down in each other's embrace "what if your sister comes in"Vivian asks in a coy voice "So "he replies"I don't give a f*ck about what that ugly duckling thinks "James says ruthlessly not even sparing me one bit, I could only stand there like an immovable statue, when I heard them about to start another round I quickly and silently stormed out of the house,ran to my car and drove to my best and only friend's house Emily. When I got to Emily's house she was already heading out so I came out of my car and ran to her "ohmigod luci what's wrong with you why are you crying"Emily asks in a worried tone "J-James"I stutter "what did that bastard do"Emily asks anger slowly taking form on her face, I look at her and she quickly takes me into her house,sits me down and hands me a tissue. After I successfully calmed myself down I looked up to see her starting at me patiently waiting for me to tell her what happened "he cheated on me"I chocked the words out of my throat "that a*shole how dare he"Emily says trembling with anger ready to go break his balls I quickly held her hand to calm her down "wait we need a plan"I say calmly, she settles back and takes a few calming breaths "you are right since tomorrow is your wedding so what's the plan"she asks after successfully calming herself "I'm going to crash my wedding"I say calmly "I like it tell me more"Emily says enthusiasticly. We talk about the plan for hours before we both decided to sleep I bid her good night and went to my room and lay down on my bed thinking about the plan for tomorrow, I wish I never fell for that bastard but it's all my fault I was desperate and naive I wanted to know how it would feel like to be loved, nobody has ever loved me so the first person to show me that emotion I clung to that person yet I still got tossed away. Funny enough all the signs where there but as the lovestruck fool that I was I didn't see. I always knew my parents didn't want me to be with James I'm sure they will be happy to see their precious daughter together with James. I always wondered why they didn't love me I always do what I'm told to do I'm never disobedient and I never complain yet they always look at me with disgust "why"I always ask myself but I know that's a question I'll never get the answer too. I close my eyes the only thing I could feel at that moment is regret and heartbreak i cried marking it the last time I'll shed tears for that bastard and slowly sleep lulled me in
