I was barely sitting upright with the support of a wall behind me. I took desperate breaths, my voice was dead, damaged with all the blood vomiting I've been doing for the past minute or so.
I could barely focus over my heartbeat,
my heart drummed so loudly I thought it would come out tearing my chest open. It was pointless to try to move. It already hurt like hell, I didn't want to make it worse.
I looked down with half closed eyelids.
I saw the knife stuck in my belly, all the blood gushing out, staining my ragged shirt a disgusting shade of brown. It was blazing hot.
Too hot! Too fucking hot! I'm gonna burn up!
Blood foamed around the ends of my mouth as I vomited it out.
The heat felt unbearable.
Even a little flinch made me feel like there were a thousand small heated up iron needles in my stomach. Relentlessly burning and pricking my flesh from the inside.
My abdomen was so excruciatingly hot – I thought I'd burn up any moment, while my fingers–almost devoid of sensation–were tingling with an unbearable cold. As if I was in the middle of a blizzard freezing up.
Why did I have to be stabbed? Why me? I just wanted to help someone.
I thought.
Even though I couldn't really do anything except cause trouble for myself.
I was just walking by as I heard noises in a small alley. Two men, surrounding one girl in an alley corner. What do you expect an earnest man like me to do?
I stepped in to help her, only to be stabbed by one of the men for supposedly pissing him off. Both the men realized what they did and ran away in fear. Pussies…
The girl.. she stood there cowering in fear. She could've at least called the police or an ambulance. But she ran away too.
Leaving me to die alone.
A 19 year old young man, still with much to do in life; dying in an obscure corner of an alleyway no one would come through for any sensible reason. Fate holds such cruel outcomes for some unfavoured souls.
I felt my vision fading away.
Ah, I wish I at least lived my life more selfishly..
I closed my eyes, hoping for some final moments of peace. I felt all my sensations slowly draining away… the hot and cold turning into a void of neutrality.
I felt my body heat seeping out.
My life leaked out.