I'm sorry to drop this announcement, but I've decided to pause all of my active projects for now, except Daughter of Two Bloods, Heir of Two Graves.
As some of you already know, I started translating simply because I wanted to share stories I enjoyed. It was never about anything else. I genuinely had fun doing it, and through that process, I learned a lot. Little by little, I found my own voice and started refining my writing style.
This Harry Potter AU fanfiction is actually my first real step into creating something of my own. I've always loved reading, and I've been interested in writing since middle school, but I never really had the courage to start an original project until now.
In my mind, the plan was to keep building experience first. Maybe write another fanfic after this, then eventually move on to an original work. Kind of building a portfolio, improving step by step, before going all in.
But reality is… a bit more complicated.
I've been doing translations purely out of passion. I'm not contracted on Webnovel, and over almost a year, the total support I've received from Patreon and donations hasn't even reached 30 dollars.
On a more personal note, my parents are divorced now, and I live with my father. He's getting close to retirement, and there's been subtle increasing pressure on me to find a job.
The problem is… I don't feel ready.
My mental state hasn't been great for most of time. I know it shouldn't be used as an excuse, but the truth is, I feel tired. Not just physically, but mentally. I don't have the energy to push myself into something demanding right now.
I did work before, just a simple admin job, mostly data entry and printing documents. It wasn't difficult, and I truly enjoy it. But it only a year until the contract end, that project is only for a year, so... yeah. I also mentioned before that I had a chance at a government position, but up until now, there's been no follow-up.
Part of me really does want to work, to earn my own money, to be independent. But another part of me resists it strongly, especially if it feels too overwhelming. My health isn't great either. I get sick easily, and when my mental state drops, it can get pretty bad.
I'm honestly afraid that if I force myself too hard, I'll spiral again, and think to end it for good. To be honest, I still often to think about it, but not as bad as before. And I don't want to go back to that state again, especially in my lowest state.
That's why, for now, I'm choosing to hold on to the things that still make me feel okay. Writing is one of them.
So I'm sorry if this announcement comes across the wrong way.
If you want me to continue translating a specific novel, you can support me through Ko-fi or Patreon and leave a note about which one you'd like me to continue.
https://patreon.com/rikhi
https://ko-fi.com/rikhi
If not, I'll probably pick translation back up only when I feel like it again.
And if you just want to support me in general, I truly appreciate it. It means more than I can properly express.
I don't know yet if writing will ever become something sustainable for me, or if I'm just spending time on something uncertain. But I am trying, in my own way.
Thank you to those of you who have stayed, who keep reading, and who still ask for updates. I really am sorry for the delays.
And thank you for being here.
—Reiya