- Yoshimi, you have cancer.
"All my life, I followed my rules. He always studied at home to become an employee, a good salary. And at school she talked to everyone and always helped. I do not show my self, I dress a mask. But now ... Why do I need all this? What is the point in the future if I do not have it. What is the point of living? I don't know what to do." - Eh, oh well. "Five days have passed since I was told this news. Nobody still knows, except for my family. And I still pretend that nothing had happened."
- Don't worry. - someone told me behind me. "I was in the roof, I am not there. But I knew that there is no one there either. Therefore, he came here to be alone. But it seems not to happen to this."
I turned back. - Who are you? - I said, not understanding who he was?
- I? Didn't you guess?
- No.
- I'm Asuka. Asuka Kazuo I study in grade 1-2.
- Oh…
- Remembered?
- Yes.
- …Cool.
- ...
- Um... you don't want to walk around?
- What? For what? The lessons will begin now.
- I want to repay you.
- For what?
- For the fact that you saved me.
- Saved? When was it?
- Three days ago, at night, when you returned home from the hospital.
- ...mm, I don't remember?
- You defended the girl from the bandits, right?
- …Oh.
- Again? Well, I understand? But you did not wait for the girl to save that she would find you and repay?
- N-no.
- So you really waited? Sorry, I did not live up to your expectations. - said with a crying look.
- Y... I did not wait.
- Come on, I'm applying.
- Don't do that.
- Okay, Okay. - He took my hand. - Let's go! And then the lessons will begin now. - And dragged me behind him.
- Uh... stand! I will not!
- Why? You don't want to relax?! Do you want to live like that?! But now why?! You will die!
- ...what? How do you know?
- I became interested.
- Did you get into me?! You know, I'm not one of those! And if I knew that it was then you, I would never help! And let go of my hand!
- I'm sorry. I just wanted to repay. ...But know this will help you. - With these words he went to the door.
- Uh... hey! Sorry. - I whisper in my tray.
- What?
- I'm sorry.
- I... forgive. But only one conditions.
- And what?
- We'll walk around?
- Your forgiveness surrendered to me.
- Hey, hey, don't think about it as about me. Think about it as relaxation.
- ...
- ...
- ... Well?
- ? - He look at me to totally not understanding.
- Where will we go?
After this word, he smiled joyfully
"I feel strange now. I'm driving by bus, in the midst of a full day. With a strange guys who dresses like a girl. This does not really bother me. And if he does not speak, he looks like a girl. But I am not familiar with a walk like that."
We stopped at a stop in the park. The largest central park. We went there and he immediately dragged me into the attractions. "Let's go there! And let's go there! Now there!" So he dragged me there to back and forth.
- Hey, let's rest. I said.
- Um... Okay. Let's go there?
- Yeah.
We sat on silence. "I always, when I started a conversation with people whom I never spoke, came up with a topic in advance, which is interesting to him. But what to talk to him? About... Come on, it's still one day." At that moment, he leaned toward me, taking it by the shoulder and photographed
The next day.
Today I pretended again. He returned to his life. That walk did not change anything. But I must admit that yesterday was joyful.
After that day, the days passed and passed. And I did not meet him, not to mention the conversation.
Today I am not at school, but to the hospital.
- Yoshimi Masayuki can come in. - said some nurse.
- Yoshimi come tomorrow with your parents. And for today everything is over.
I drove into my throat, so as soon as I left the office I went to the machine. There was a girl... and duty. He looked that there and saw that her water was stuck. - Let me help. - I said. And she nodded her head a little moved away from the machine gun. I pushed Leva by force to the rights and the water fell. I took and gave it. But the first I saw her face, or rather his face. I was shock, he was too. He quickly ran away, I followed him. And he found him sitting in the seat. I got hooked next to him, and started the conversation.
- Hello.
- Hel-lo.
- What are you doing here?
- Well... as it were... I also have cancer. And do not regret these, you understand words.
- Ah, yes. Certainly.
- I knew that you would understand me.
- What?
- At the end of the secondary school, I found out that I have cancer. And that period to high school, I have changed a lot. I did not really go out into the street. I thought it was pointless. Why go somewhere without any purpose. But I thought, but if the meaning is in my life? Therefore, I began to go somewhere every day. He began to dress as a girl as well. Though because of this, they started a bullet at school. But I will do what I want. Whether they like it or not. But... it hurts. No matter how I want not to pay attention to them. I can't. It hurts me to go school every day. And it is painful that I can't communicate with anyone. After all, my mother is a prostitute. And my father left when I was only born. But there are no brothers and sisters. Given that my mother is a prostitute, this is strange, right?
- …No.
- Ah, okay. In short, I wanted a friend... or a person with whom you can chat. So I chose you. You were one of those who did not touch me. There are still a different those who were spinning directly. But I will no longer say your friends. And I will not ask you to become my friend or chat with me. You already have a good life.
- Asuka... I want to walk around. Leave this place. Go somewhere.
- Now?
- Yes.
- Certainly. Let's go where you want.
Hospital.
- Yoshimi you did not come for 3 days after our conversation, so I asked your parents. Do not be offended. But, I have good news. You have cancer cured.
- What will you do now? - asked Asuka.
- Don't know.
- We will not have fun anymore?
- …Don't know.
- Was you fun?
- Yes.
- Would you like to live like the past.
- No.
- Then let's go! Let's have fun!
- But…
He dragged me behind him, not having time to say anything. I wanted,.. but did not say.
School.
- Hey Yoshimi, are you walking with Asuka from the second?
"I always knew that this question would once be. But I always put it off. But now... Now what? What can I tell me?"
- Who is this at all?
- That... outcast.
- Why should I walk with him?
- Don't know. But you were seen.
- I think you are mistaken. I did not walk with him.
- So I'm a ghost for you? - asked Asuka.
- What?
- At school.
- Oh, do not find fault.
- Okay, okay just wanted to make fun.
The days passed and everything was like now. ...But this has not happened for a long time. After all...
- H-hey, Asuka.
I see what happened to me. I could not resist. Thus, breaking the connection that he built from high school.
- What did he do to you!
"They... they always didn't admire me a little. They always walked in two, and I was the fifth."
- I never liked all this! Basketball, still train for nothing! Go to Karaoke, sing, fight, hang out all night! I do not like all this!
- In elementary grades, I was not like that. He did not wear a mask. And he was himself like you. I was then a complete homebody. And like all the homebody, I had a lot of time. And because of nothing, I began to watch a movie, a series. At school, of course, there were anime lovers. But I did not watch them a lot. And there was no movie lovers. And in schools we have no clubs. And I was not very talkative. And the same thing on the Internet. And then I was left alone. I did not help anyone, did not talk to anyone. Just lived. And it looks like someone will not like it. And they started a bullet. Then my parents gave me the advice "pretend". What kind of advice is this! But at that time, I obeyed them.
I was left alone again. ...But no. I stayed with Asuka. Then all the fun ended. We have already tried everything. Then the Asuka came an idea.
- Let's find a hobby for you. You are not interested in anything except films and TV shows?
- Yes.
- Then let's find a new hobby to engage in death!
- Ahaha.
- Why are you laughing?!
- It sounded cool.
From that day, we began to try all the hobbies in the world. And we started with sports. Football, basketball, volleyball, running.And we began to play the shifts of the year in hockey, skates, but winter sports or there were many additional things or were simply not very much. Therefore, we switched to another hobby. Namely the home. Or creative? In short, everything that came to mind. I even once said to study….. Yes. We drove. And if we did not come up with what to do. We called each other and watched the movie place. But I saw many, and the Asuka was on everything with it began interesting and did not give a damn about everything. It was not possible to find out if he liked it or not. So we switched to a new one. Namely anime. And it pulled me. We watched anime at night. Then he said...
- Do you want to create your anime, cinema?
- Certainly! But how will we do it?
- Well, we can make not a movie or anime, but a manga or a book. I can draw.
"And the idea is good." I thought, and a long think about our choice fell on the manga. But he said, - we cannot just start like that! We need a story and understand how to make a manga! - Because we now started reading the manga. And after many weeks, thinking about history, we began the creation of manga-a-a-a!
- Yoshimi. YOSHIMI! We need to talk.
- About what? I have nothing to say
- But I have. I am your mother listen to me.
- Why? But why don't you want to get aged? You have always been good. But why are you now?!
- I just changed.
- But why? You don't want to live?
- I... I want to be happy.
- You can then longer.
- ...
- What was silent? Eh, maybe it's all because of her? Which you bring home every day. She influenced you, right?!
- No!
- And then what?
- Yes, enough! Enough my life to count for some experiment! I'm not a doll! I have my feelings!
- Yes, oh what...
- Enough! You know. You gave me that advice to pretend! From that day, there has never been a joyful day in my life. And in general there was nothing good in my life. As a child, I was sad because I had no friends. And when the bullying began, I was bad at all. I had no rest with average. He talked himself to talk normally. He taught all the lessons for five. I read the news for conversation every hour. I invented stories how I ran away the police, how I went somewhere with my friends from another school. So that I don't be left alone. ...But it was not a joy to me. I did not have any free time. And now I have it full. But the future I will be left again. Fortunately, I will die faster, which will finish this school.
I immediately left the house.
- Ding-Dong. - They called to the house. I went to open the door. - Who is there?
- I'm Yoshimi.
After the words, I immediately opened the door. - What are you doing here?
- Well... I... I don't know. Are you free now?
- Yeah.
- Then can we..?
- Yes. Certainly. Wait, I'll change clothes right now.
- Yeah.
- At night, everything is so strange here. Like another place.
- Yes. At night I was not very much. So we are a novelty too.
- Hey... Yoshimi. I have almost finished the entire drawing. And... forgive me. Sorry. But we will not communicate with today.
- Why?
- I... harm your life.
- Someone told you to do this?! I am his...
- No! Once your mother said so. But I did not listen. But I understand that I ruined your life. Because of me, you lost your friends. And I wanted it. I did not want mine to each other with people whom I hate. But no matter how they treat me. They treated you well. Maybe they will not help you in the cases where I will help. But I will do it simply because I have anything to do, and this is my task! Make friends with you. And yet, you have a future. You can defeat this cancer. But I don't. But I want to... live. But because I can't live. I take you with me. I want to have fun. Therefore, I always endowed and expressed you to have fun. But you have to live. Life is unfair, but I believe that after a black strip, one will once go white. If I was in your place, I would try to live. Do not die. Live, please. And ask for forgiveness from your friends, okay? Otherwise, you will be left alone when you die.
- ...
"Why? Why did he do that? Why am I ... was left alone? Yes, now I definitely remained alone. I don't know why I can continue to live? He thinks that he helped me? Not really! He even made worse! I don't want to live now! "
From that day, I lived a meaningless life. I did not go to school. For days I walked in the street. He returned home at night to sleep.
- Hey, Mr. Can you bribe a cigarette?
He took the money, bought it and gave me a cigarette. I took one from him and... "Do I want it? Will I be pleased if I do it? Or will I finally lose a chance for life? ..... I... ...tomorrow, tomorrow I will pronounce a speech."
After that day, the days passed and passed. And I always put off. But once, I decided. I went to the hospital to find out what are my chances of life?
I stood outside the hospital door. My hands trembled. I could not decide what decision I should make. But as soon as I looked at the door, I immediately entered. After all, there I saw Asuka on a bunk, quickly knitting... for an operation.
- So he was here for a long time. And his time has almost passed, right?
- Yeah.
- Thank you for saying.
- Thank you for you for being his friend. He does not tell me anything. Maybe I'm to blame that we have never had a long conversation. Am I a bad mother?
- Do not blame yourself.
- Oh, sorry. I would not want to tell you it. Sorry.
So you pushed me like this. But why? For…what?
- Hey. Yoshimi.
- What?
- Already night, go home. Rest, and we will be here, we are his family.
Getting up in the morning, I immediately went to the hospital. ...But he was gone.
- Excuse me, do you know where the patient is in this room?
- No.
"No? No? What does this mean not? Why? How?" Then this nurse continued her speech.
- You can ask her. She can know.
I immediately went to her.
- Do you know where Asuka.
"Wait. Stop. I. I. I am not ready to hear the answer! Is it good or not. Please. Please."
- Yes. He is on the roof.
He sighed with relief.
Roof
- Asuka
-? Yoshimi? What are you doing here?
- So, the words that then said, were to push me away?
- Well... you are partially right. But also all that I said is true. And so I wanted to punish myself for what I did.
- But you are not guilty of you.
- And yet I will. And you will fulfill my words.
- Will I live?
- Do you want to live? Or do you want to go into the unknown by losing everything?
- …No. I want to... live.
- That's glorious. Then let's go?
- Will you come with me?
- And you yourself can handle it?
- No.
- Let's go together?
- Yeah... thanks.
- Hey... and... or maybe you still don't need to?
- What did you want to die?
- N-n-no.
- Then come in?
- ...
- Eh, okay. he said. And dragged me by the hand in the room.
- Oh, sorry. Um... yes? What did you want?
- He... wants to live. You may already know that he is cured of cancer. AND…
- Yes. I understand you. And thanks for having come. But you yourself want?
- Well, yes. He told you.
- I want to hear it from you.
- Ah, yes. I... I want to... live. I want to live!
- You still haven't done any of them, right?
- In the way. I'll do it tomorrow.
- No.
- No?
- Yes. I disagree for tomorrow? Today you will make them. Or never. I already carry you to all complicated, sick things. I will support you, always. Always. But do not drag. I will die the near time. No matter how you want to hear it. But this is true. So do not be addicted to me. Do not rely on me. Your life is your life. No one can be visible. It all depends on you.
- Oh, what people. - said Daiji.
- Hello. - I said.
- So why are we going here? - Aoi.
- They wanted to report on marriage?!
- Enough Daiji. We are not a joke here.
- Yes. Enough Daiji.
- OK.
- So what did you want?
- Um... well... uh...
- Speak. - said Asuka in a whisper.
- Liiiike, I have cancer. And he too.
- What?
- Do you listen to moms?
- Yes, what is it?
- I... I'm sorry. In short, forgive. For everything that I said... and... for everything.
- Do not apologise.
- I chose to live. I will live, mom! I'll go for treatment and everything. But... then I will follow the rules.
- And you.
- What?
- Excuse me with dad. We were very young when you were born. We did not understand how to be parents. If you made a mistake, the second time they tried not to do it. So we studied. ...But we ourselves, too, did not want you to do so. Do you remember what I said then?
- Prepare.
- Yes, pretend. Forgive me for these words. But if you did not do this, do not do it, do not do it. We do not force you. You yourself came up with your rules. And if you do not want to follow them. Do not follow. We will always support you.
"I…
- Yes... forgive me guys. But to be honest, I never wondered what interests you. But this does not mean that I felt bad there. Although we are different, I was not bad with you. Fine. Yes, it is more suitable. After all, I always feel bad there. So forgive me. And I hope that we will make friends? Or leave me and his rest.
- ...
- ...Do you really think so? All this time you pretended to be a mask. And now what, when your mask flew from your face, do you want to put pressure on pity?! You are the drawing of two personal bastards! I don't believe you. Do you agree?
- ...
- Yes. Remember when we first met? In the school gate. Then you despised me with your gaze. You didn't even want to talk to me when I started talking. After all, the first glance shows that I'm not rich. But you obviously did not think that I was friends with everyone in the classroom. So? I always didn't like you. I was friends with you because you were friends with my friends. You evaluate people. I'm leaving.
- Do you also agree?
- No.
- (shook his head).
- It's clear. See you.
- Yoshimi...
- Ah, thank you...
- No, listen. Thanks for saying that. Thank you for trusting us. Thank you for opening. I knew that you were wearing a mask. But this did not harm our friendship. ...And how are your business? And how is yours? We never talked, right?
- Liiiike without reading when you are the banners, yes.
- Ah, I'm sorry. I was... for the majority.
- Well, yes. He too. But this did not harm our friendship.
- Yes...
"As assumed, Arata did not agree. But I didn't know that Daiji to hate me. It was unexpected."
- Um... Can you help us with one thing?
- About what?
- ...Manga.
- ALL!
- What? Have you finished?
- Yes! Yes! Finished the last drawing!
- Cool! Then I will send it to the publishers tomorrow.
- Why not now?
- Well, firstly it got dark.
- Well, stop being like that, a nerd!
- What?! I am not!
- Yes, do not give a damn, let's give it back.
- But... I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO SEND HIM!
- You don't know? How much time has passed since the creation of manga has begun, and during this time you have never looked for?
- Yes. I have not thought about it.
- Ah, and when?
- What?
- Search?
- Now. I will find it until the morning.
- Mm…
- Do not look me so that I am some kind of...
- BZZZ. (Phone call)
- Now. ...ALO?
- Alo? Are you Yoshimi?
- Yes.
- Are you friends with Asuka?
- Yes.
- So...
Hospital.
- What's happened?! Tell me!
- Yoshimi?
"Asuka's mom?"
- What's happened?
- Calm down. Everything is order. He lost his mind on the street. But they say that everything is in order. He will wake up soon.
"The next day I immediately go to the hospital. But if I do so, I will miss the school. And if I miss, this is equivalent to the fact that I do not want to live. And he will be upset. And I don't want to upset him. Especially in this time. So I will go to school."
But immediately as the school will end, I quickly ran to the hospital.
- Hello.
- Hello.
- How are you? Alive?
- Well, as you can see.
- Are you in order?
- Yes. Fine.
- Great. ...And after a few days, will you look at the fireworks festival? Let's see together!
- ... Yeah.
- No! Promise!
- Okay, I promise.
"For what? So why did not fulfill his promise! Wake up! Wake up, from this eternal sleep! Come on! Come on! Please! ... You're not won? So? ..."
Asuka Kazuo died at 17 years old from cancer.
"As a result, I may not be famous for Mangaka. But I lived this life in full. Thanks for this to you Asuka. What a strange dating we had. But I'm glad of this, because it... no, you have embarrassed my life. "
Yoshimi Masayuki died at 74 years old from age.
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