What
I regret the most? Not loving myself enough
Have
you ever felt like just laying down and perhaps wind up dead? Well, I have
Present time
Another
relationship going down the drain, why do girls overthink everything and blame
it on hormones. Sigh. Maybe she was telling the truth and I should
listen to her more
"Its two weeks and she hasn't returned my
calls or even picked up" God what have I done "she needs to know
I've blocked the woman she sees as a competition " he kept rolling on the bed
Beep, beep it was a text
Hi
Ib, you're cool? Been trying to reach you.
He
knew it was Alexa even though it was an unregistered number, two weeks he had
cut communication with his 1st love. Neche is the one I love now, my
feels for her is the kind of warmth I want to keep, but Alexa offers burns and
I'm not ready for it again, she's made it clear over and over all through my
12 relationships in 5 years, and I'm not about to lose Neche who has stayed
the longest.
"I have to go talk to her in person"
he made up his mind, grabbed his keys and left home.
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I keep thinking of how fast he chose
her, it hurts and everytime I wish he loved me as much. Neche wrapped her arms
around her neck, trying to strangle herself, she has done it before and knows
it doesn't work, trying not to cry memories of that night replayed again
"...….you've cried enough to sink a ship" she laughed, still tightening her
grip.
Beep,
beep, she grabbed her phone and sat up, as expected it was
from Ibrahim
I'm
outside
No
response
Come
out or I'd blast the whole floor with our favorite song.
I
dare you, she mouthed as she typed, allowing
herself to laugh away the past
And
just like that miles smiles stargazing began to play on loud speaker
Beep,
beep, she clicked open the text
Challenge
accepted obim
"And
I love you" Ibrahim shouted from outside and Neche laughed even more,
drying her tears and singing along
I lose my mind
When
I'm around you, how I come alive
...…,
I can't help but feel so lost
I
wanna give you all I've got
"baby
m, I'm sorry" Ibrahim tried to sound as igbotic as he could, he knew how
happy it made her feel
Blushing,
she typed on her phone
Go
home, its late and I'm still angry at you
I
know, just give me another chance to make it all right
Silence
You
know I'm going to stay out here until you come outside right?
And
that was all it took for her to slip into a gown and run out into his arms
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"what kind of husband
doesn't keep touch with his wife for over a month?" Alexa said over the phone
and listened to the person on the other end "There's nothing wrong with me and
Ibrahim, how does that answer my question?" she asked, pressing speaker phone
she dropped the phone on the counter and dished out her food
"I mean, you've never complained about
my trips, like never ever" the voice said "it's always oh don't worry I'd
just go out with Ibrahim or I'm meeting with Ibrahim anyways" the
voice continued, trying to sound like her "So yes, what is wrong?" He
questioned
"I don't know, he just stopped answering my
calls" she tattled, "But when are you coming back" she asked, trying
to sound as cold as she could
"by the end of the month and I'd be staying
for as long as you want me to" he replied "I got to run, meeting in 5" he
said and ended the call leaving her no chance to say anything.
I
have a feeling Neche has something to do with this.