My name is Ark , I'm from Magentania family. And I'm wondering if I have been saved by someone. Is this person Cia? No it's a Fate miracle that here I'm thinking this. My family became rich because my father suddenly got interested in stock market with high accuracy and instantly made up a business.
My life would have been a lot darker if my dad wasn't rich and Cia haven't came to my life. It would be end. Why I'm talking like this? Well see my nature is like being unbothered but still getting triggered by some specific things. I was lazy from the bottom of my heart. My mom told me that she used to get really worried when I didn't kick in two days in her stomach since I was never really being active. I got my interests in indoor activities like drawing and other things. I was not very good at it though. My marks at school are all high and I'm considered as slow by body yet fast kid at brains. I was never a smart kid. I just did what needs to be done when mom told me so. But then I was becoming distant in a weird way that Noone would notice.
Gradually I would make my own philosophies to encounter my insecurities. My brain works fine with bad memory power but it's all would be fine to some point. Until my single use strategies works to pass with good grades and then I would have collapsed in higher grades. I know that father would have been noticed that part but wouldn't be able to do anything. And since my brain works fine, I would have made it to improve my overthinking abilities that I couldn't handled and needed to make more laws for my world. Just what heights my brain could have achieved? What would be the cost? Just what if Cia never came in my view and showed me a new interest just in time of fall of mind?
And why even a businessman like my dad have a lab? Nevermind , I never really thought about anyways.
(Now this is Universal Voice talking to itself while Ark is now going to have a sleep:) You will wonder all your life, Ark. You will never know the toll your mind could have gained because of overflowing knowledge of external world. You would crave the new and ancient ideas for the sakeof interest and could have fallen in sinister mind. A mind where all logic comes to an end. You would fear death and Immortality at the same time. In the era of science, you would try to find the solutions from the great history. The torture over your mind would be immeasurable. In any reality, these kind of people can be found. Who get distracted by themselves. Neither by the world nor by yourself but the ideas in sub conscious would drain you. The most horrible thing a being could imagine is the transformation of that being during the lifetime and even after. Ark in your school time you would have became a distant yet known to be happy. Favorite of the teachers who seeks genius or weird students. But it would have been no use to you. By graduation or even before it, you would either su!cided or became a really carefree being, who will try to find interest in everything knowing that it's not the actions that matters but the amount of regret comes with it. You would have always wondered over the phrase "whether it's you could or it's you should" in any time , I myself do not wanted to meet such a Fate because claming the mind and gaining new insights is the hardest and most important thing to do in that state. You are lucky that your parents became rich si you found few things to play with and a friend who tells you weird stuff everyday to the point it's normal to you.
You got saved by someone.
I just want to sleep in peace.