My duffel bag feels heavier than it should as I stand on the front lawn, taking in Emily's home for the first time. The modest ranch-style house sits back from the curb, painted a soft blue with white trim that catches the late afternoon sun. It's nothing fancy, just a well-maintained home with trimmed hedges and a neat patch of green grass, but compared to the moldy shoebox I've been calling home, it might as well be a mansion.
"You've gone quiet," Emily says, her keys jingling in her hand as she watches me from beside her car. "Having second thoughts already?"
I shake my head, but my throat feels tight. Everything Important I own fits in one bag and a backpack. What the hell am I doing here?
Emily approaches me slowly, like I'm a spooked animal that might bolt. Her white braid swings gently against her back as she places her hand on my arm. "It's alright, okay? Just breathe."
I nod mechanically, sucking in air that smells like freshly cut grass instead of mildew and cigarettes. This neighborhood is quiet, no sirens, no shouting matches through paper-thin walls, no pawn neon flickering through the night. Just suburban silence punctuated by distant lawn mowers and birds.
"Come on," Emily says softly, tugging my arm toward the front door. "Let's get you settled in."
I follow her up the concrete path, my worn sneakers scuffing against the smooth surface. My heart pounds as she unlocks the door and gestures me inside. The entryway is cool and smells faintly of vanilla.
"Holly?" Emily calls out, setting her purse down on a small table by the door. "I'm home."
A muffled "Hey" floats from somewhere deeper in the house. The response sounds almost automatic.
Emily glances at me, a flicker of tension crossing her face. "Holly, can you come here for a minute? There's someone I'd like you to meet."
The name strikes a chord in my memory. Holly. I've heard that name before. Something about it feels familiar in a way I can't immediately place.
Footsteps approach from down the hallway, and a figure emerges from what I assume is a bedroom. She's wearing loose sweatpants and a university hoodie, her brown hair pulled back in a neat ponytail. Wire-rimmed glasses frame striking blue eyes that widen with recognition the moment they lock with mine.
The same recognition hits me like a freight train. "Oh shit," I mutter under my breath.
It's Holly Sampson. We shared AP English and Calculus senior year. She sat two rows ahead of me, always raising her hand with the right answer while I slouched in the back, trying to stay awake after working night shifts.
"Dan Anderson?" Holly says, her voice a blend of surprise and something I can't quite identify.
"What's up, Anderson?" Holly's voice turns from surprised to acidic in record time. "Why are you here?" Her eyes dart between me and Emily, her expression darkening with each passing second. "Wait, is my mom fucking high school dropouts now?"
The words hit like a slap. I feel Emily tense beside me, her hand finding my lower back.
"You dropped out of high school?" Emily asks softly, turning toward me.
"I mentioned it before," I say, my voice sounding smaller than I want it to. "When my mom got sick... I needed to cover her medical bills while she was still alive." The memory of those endless hospital corridors makes my throat tight. "Couldn't exactly balance AP classes with sixty-hour work weeks."
Emily's expression softens as she rubs gentle circles on my back. "Yes, that's right. I remember now," she says, her voice warm with understanding. She turns to Holly, straightening her shoulders. "Dan is my boyfriend, Holly."
Holly's laugh is sharp and humorless. She crosses her arms over her chest, her blue eyes, so much like her mother's, narrowing behind her glasses. "Boyfriend? Really?"
She looks directly at me, her lips curling into something between a smile and a sneer. "You do know what my mom does for a living, right? She's a prostitute. She fucks men... For money."
The silence that follows is so complete I can hear the clock ticking in another room. Emily's hand stops moving on my back, her entire body going rigid.
"I'm aware of Emily's profession," I say, meeting Holly's gaze.
Holly holds my gaze, her expression softening just a fraction. Something flickers across her face, recognition, maybe even a hint of pity.
"Dan," she says, her voice quieter now, "you weren't a bad kid in school. Smart, even. Why are you doing this to yourself?" She gestures vaguely between me and Emily. "You could find a nice girl our age. Someone without... complications. You don't have to settle for…"
I feel my face burning, anger rising in my chest as I realize where she's heading with this. But before I can respond, Emily steps forward, her posture rigid and her eyes flashing.
"No. You know what?" Emily cuts in, her voice controlled but trembling with emotion. "Not tonight, Holly. I'm not doing this tonight. You can figure out dinner for yourself." She turns to me, her expression softening. "Dan, come on."
She takes my hand firmly in hers, leading me past Holly, whose mouth hangs slightly open, words apparently frozen on her lips. Emily's grip is tight as she pulls me down the hallway, her white braid swinging with each determined step. I follow without resistance, too stunned by the sudden shift to do anything else.
We reach what must be her bedroom, a spacious room with a queen-sized bed and tasteful decorations. I barely register as Emily pulls me inside and shuts the door firmly behind us. The click of the lock sounds final, definitive.
For a moment, she just stands there with her back against the door, eyes closed, breathing deeply. Then she looks at me, her expression a complex mix of anger, embarrassment, and something that might be fear.
"I'm sorry," she whispers. "I should have prepared you better for that."
"It's okay," I say automatically, though it definitely doesn't feel okay. My head is still spinning from the realization that Holly, sarcastic, brilliant Holly from AP classes, is Emily's daughter. The daughter of the woman I've been paying to fuck me.
Emily pushes away from the door, crossing to another door on the far side of the room. She opens it, revealing a sleek bathroom with a glass-walled shower large enough for two.
"Let's take a shower," she says, her voice low and intimate now. "Wash away this whole mess of a day."
"A shower sounds amazing right now," I say, my voice coming out huskier than intended. The thought of hot water washing away the tension of this disastrous introduction is too tempting to resist.
Emily's smile returns, small but genuine, as she begins unbuttoning her blouse. "I figured you might appreciate that."
I set my duffel bag down on the plush carpet, still trying to process everything that just happened. Holly Sampson.
"You're still thinking about her," Emily observes as she slips her blouse from her shoulders, revealing a cream-colored bra that makes my mouth go dry despite the circumstances.
"It's just... weird," I admit, pulling my own shirt over my head. "We went to school together. She was always so... intense. Top of the class, debate team captain, that whole thing."
Emily's hands pause at the clasp of her skirt. "You never mentioned knowing her."
"I didn't know she was your daughter," I explain, kicking off my shoes. "We weren't friends or anything. Just classmates. I was barely there my senior year anyway."
The skirt drops to the floor, and Emily steps out of it with practiced grace. Standing in just her matching underwear, she looks both vulnerable and powerful at the same time.
She reaches behind her back, unhooking her bra in one fluid motion. As it falls away, her breasts spill free, full and inviting with soft pink nipples that instantly harden in the cool air. I've seen her naked countless times before, even today, but the sight still makes my breath catch in my throat. She slides her panties down her thighs and steps out of them, standing completely bare before me.
"Come here," she whispers, opening her arms.
I step forward, still half-dressed, and she wraps me in a warm embrace. Her soft skin presses against my chest, and I feel the tension begin to melt from my shoulders.
"You're safe now, Danny," she murmurs against my ear, her voice taking on that nurturing tone that makes something deep inside me unravel. "Let Mommy take care of you."
I collapse against her, burying my face in the crook of her neck. The familiar scent of her perfume mixed with her natural warmth envelops me, and I feel myself surrendering completely. It's like putting down a weight I didn't realize I was carrying.
My mind drifts back to that first appointment nearly a year ago. I was nervous, fidgeting on the edge of the hotel bed, when I finally worked up the courage to ask for what I really wanted, "mommy play." Instead of judgment, her eyes had lit up with genuine interest. "I've always wanted to try that," she'd admitted with a smile that seemed genuine.
Emily pulls back slightly now, her hands working to unfasten my jeans. "Let's get you cleaned up, baby," she says, helping me undress completely.
We step into the shower together, and she turns on the water, adjusting the temperature until steam begins to rise around us. As the hot spray cascades over our bodies, washing away the day's tension, a question bubbles up from my insecurities.
"Is this okay?" I ask, my voice barely audible over the running water. "The mommy thing, I mean. Now that we're dating for real?"
Emily's eyes find mine through the steam, her smile spreading wide across her face as she reaches for the shampoo.
"But I love being your Mommy," she says, squeezing a dollop into her palm before working it into my hair. Her fingers massage my scalp with gentle pressure that makes my eyelids flutter. "It was never just an act for me, Danny. It filled something I didn't know was empty."
I lean into her touch, letting her wash my hair like I'm precious to her. "Even with Holly just down the hall?" I whisper.
Her hands pause momentarily before continuing their ministrations. "What happens between us is none of her business," she says firmly.
"Okay."