"Oh, I woke up again late; this happens plenty the last weeks because I played chess for so long, I should maybe get up and go to school."
"I just did it in time only 2 minutes before the teacher came, if I think about it in a few weeks school is again over because of summer break; everyone makes their plans for summer but if you ask me I find it useless or more its hard to understand for me why they want to make plans with others, especially if I look around in my classroom who wants to do something with them or what I wonder even more how the fuck do they have fun in school with friends?"
"In this school I don't have a single friend or outside but why should I? If you ask me humans are just, I have difficulties describing it but why are humans like they are? Why do they lie, why do they make fun of people, why do they insult people and make them feel bad? Its not as if I couldn't get friends, actually some people in school tried to become friends but I declined them all by making indirect signals without really saying it, what is for me the easiest way for me that I have my peace, everyone also thinks being alone is bad or feels bad but actually its very nice not having anyone who bothers you in any way maybe its only being a bit hyperactive or even worse judging people those are the worst because you never know what judging does with someone or insulting them; it could be that is very much influence on them not only making them feel bad but repeating the scenario for days or even weeks in their heads, anyways If I would tell that someone they wouldn't understand it."
"Oh, the teacher instructs a new student now in the end of the school year that's weird, it's a girl, in my unconventional taste she looks very good, I even thought for less than a second to maybe talk to her and she also has the seat right next to me; what am I thinking she is probably like all the other humans."
"School is finally over, we also have no homework means I can play chess the whole night also because tomorrow is no school, I am kind of excited…"
"Hello, you seat right next to me right in chemistry class right, C-can I get you number by any chance?"
"Y-Yeah sure your can get my number!"
"What the fuck happened right now, no, no, no, it happens the whole way home I am thinking about it, even I don't see I reason to treat woman different than males because in the and we are all only humans b-but when something like that happens from a girl I need to think about it the whole time; actually I wanted to decline but it felt like I had no control."
"I-I don't trust it maybe she wants something different or so, one year ago still in middle school there was a girl that made me a compliment and I know myself how it ended
"HU, she calls me right now I am in the middle of a chess game shit!"
"H-hello how are you?"
"I-I am good, have you time right now?"
"Yeah sure its ok right now"
"HAHAHA, you really thought she like you, HAHAHA!!!" Hangs up
Julian just stared at the screen for a whole hour like I an abyss but the abyss was already staring at him; he continued sitting and staring at his phone until he fell asleep.
"I wonder how long I stared at my phone, you know what, I am never spontaneous, but I'll do it."
"If there is someone, I call someone my friend it is my dad, and he offered me something."
"Hey dad do you have time now?"
"Sure I have, what can I help you
"You said that because you go in Japan after summer break for a year, I could come with you and go to school there, is there might a chance I still come with you?" he said with a bit shyness and with shame in his voice
"Really? I did not expect that but yeah sure I request in Japan if there is still possible, but I know I principle at a school, it is a private school but with your grades you will still maybe get a place, I will call him soon ok?"
"Thanks dad, I would go now for a walk, ok?"
"You never were going on a walk in your life but ok sure go out!"
"Ok see you then!"
"Ok good that thing is done, this school can fuck themselves, but I knew I can count on my dad, but still, I need a plan for the last 3 weeks of school, how can I survive them? What am I talking about it isn't that bad I can lose nothing there anyways also don't care; I should go home it starts raining!"
"I hear dad talking with someone on the phone maybe it is the principle he knows in Japan maybe I listen a bit what they are talking about."
"Thanks that you still have a place left in school, oh, about my son, so he never does any problems, he has extremely good grades but he is very antisocial, he only stays at home mostly and no friends but he is never a trouble maker or something, ha-ha yeah it is a bit funny, right!"
"Dad?"
This was the moment that something happened in Julian that he couldn't knew that impact on him and his life.
"I don't have single friend, this exactly what I hate the most, masks on humans, it doesn't matter how you turn it, if my farther really means what he said I don't think I need to explain but also if he doesn't, I think it is a mask and and…"
He still spends half an hour outside in the rain breaking down and after the call ended he goes in saying nothing about was his father said."