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'do I look strict' i thought to myself.
???
''My face look like rock or ice' that's what my mom said, about my face'. was she joking or just saying facts I don't know.
I did try to smile but everyone at office was scared when I did. I thought it was because I smiled they were so enthusiastic about work that usually takes them months where completed soon.
Till when one time I tried to see myself in in mirror smiling, that's when I realised the reason for their enthusiasm. They mostly i was in bad mood and giving them the your-dead smile. it had been a long since them I tried to smile in front of a mirror but I smile at my staffs.
I'm practiced to smile for my son. I think there is progress like about 5% out of 10. I can now do the smile but, it looks faked. so, now mostly i let them guess my mood.
Xia pov:
I had no other way, I was scared of thunder, so came to big dad.
mom acted weird, in morning he is very bad to everyone but at night he wake up sweaty maybe a bad dream then squeeze me and ask if im alright or whom am i or some weird question then faint again, that's only time dad is very nice to me. So I always stayed up late to get to see dad at night.
tears filled his eyes... 'I need to find a cure for dad and i know big dad doesn't care but i care. now, I was told to stay with big dad by grandma... '
[also at the same time, there was a big thunder! ]...
xia started crying.
"..." xiao in bed.
Meanwhile, his dad is having a mental crisis. He was so confused about what he do that made the little guy start crying.
xiao pov:
"Are you afraid of me ?" he blurts out what was on his mind.and Xia nodded his head
"is that yes or no tell me! I need words" I asked him.
"No ... " Xia said looking down 'obviously lying'.
"Okay then come here" I patted the bed, signalling to him 'you-can-come-here' not so scary as possible.
Xia came a little near the bed, more like he did a little jump. due to the sudden thunder. his eyes are tightly closed when there is thunder, too scared of the thunder.
he believes if he looks at the thunder he might become dust.
Xia tried to climb the bed two times but couldn't make it. seeing his son struggle he decides to help him after he accepts his defeat and asks for help from big dada.
Xia covered himself in the quilt, he looks like a small rabbit 'cute' and soon the tunders stopped and began to rain. Xia slowly drifted into sleep.
Once xia slept xiao carefully removed the blanket only from his son's face, looked at his son face which resembled him when he was younger. Then carefully hugged his son to sleep by not suffocating and disturbing him .
......
-bonus-
-small theatre with xia and the author:-
y/n: "Xia do you really hate thunder?"
xia: "well yes"
y/n: "do you want blindfolds or anything to help you! "
xia: " no need"
y/n: "really ?"
xia: "really"
y/n: "okay then Xia doesn't need my help !"
xia: " no, no-a I need your help !!"
y/n: "really"
xia: "yes"
y/n: "then tell me!!!" (y/n excited 'hope its something easy')
xia: "no- its a secret " (xia whispering in y/n ear)
y/n: " hmm I will try!"
xia: "I didn't say try! i said, you have to do it!" ( xia giving the puppy eyes)
y/n: ' something is wrong! ' (confused)