Hello! This is the author speaking!
I am here to bring unfortunate news that from April 27th and onward.
I'll be going on an indefinite hiatus.
Well you see recently I've practically lost all motivation and passion for my project and I've been disciplining myself to keep writing.
Because of that, writing became more like a job rather than something I actually enjoy.
And if you know anything about writing is that if you keep doing it without any passion, the work will turn out awful with weak storytelling and rushed storylines and all of that.
I don't even know what to even write for the next chapters as well!
Like I have a very rough outline of the whole story like character arc and conclusions, key moements and plot points but never the in between moments.
That's why the last chapter was so weak and short or at least that's how I felt.
And it's really all of my fault.
Ever since I've gone back to writing since my first hiatus, I've been incredibly lazy.
Like previously I was writing 200-400 words per day and now I'm just writing the whole chapter which is around 1000 words in just one day in both friday and sunday.
And this pretty much became a bad habit of mine. Writing the chapter at the last minute before release and the stress even though literally NO ONE reads it.
To be honest I have always been worried for nothing.
Not just in writing but my life really. I have social anxiety and socializing with people has not always been my strong suit. Especially my constant anxiety of meeting peoples expectation.
Even though I am trying to grow out of my shell, I still carry it despite it and this carried over to my novel as I keep stressing about expectations.
I always try to put extra care into my story and characters, especially the female cast as I always try to put extra care into them and the thought of being called misogynistic simply because the female character follow some sort of trope and stereotypes or some other shit has definitely been hindering my project. Or rather my entire life.
I just wish writing was easier.
I just wish EVERYTHING in life was easier but if you know anything about life.
It is and never will be easy.
The only way it can is the earlier you accept that, the better it will be. But never easier.
I've considered abandoning this project as well to work on another novel I really want to work on as I realize when I wrote this is that I enjoy more grand epic and high fantasy stories rather than this.
Something alikes of mistborn, stormlight archive, lord of the rings, etc.
Anyways, I am sorry if I am getting too ahead of myself, I just wanna let you know my situation I am in.
Besides there is going to be another shooting sports competition happening in may 1st.
Now the question you want to ask if when will I come back?
If I have to give a rough estimate.
Probably between May and June.
I thank the few people who has read my novel and I wish all of you a happy life!