Ju-Ju:
Jeez its like 3 in the afternoon why the hell am I even getting coffee now of all times! I probably look like a creep oh god why why why did I even think of this who the hell gets a coffee at 3 in the afternoon!
Ugh that door chime, always putting me on freaking edge... Whatever I don't have to talk to anyone here just be around take in the space, sip my coffee for 15 minutes and then I'm home. No more people no more nothin just me..... alone.....
Oh she's still talking to that barista? she shoulda ordered something by now but she still talking to her why hasn't she ordered anything yet? Just order and go that's all you need to do, oh a paper she's probably filling out an application then. Just don't, oh god no no no no don't sit near me! there's like 5 other tables go sit at them you don't need to sit anywhere near me. Great yeah just sit across from me yep totally fine, just play it cool man just play it cool act normal don't be weird. Don't. Be. Weird.
Why is she here? does she want to talk to me? I definitely don't wanna talk to her let alone anyone. She's still just sitting there? Start filling out the application so you can leave already..... WHY IS SHE STILL JUST STITTI- wait a pen she doesn't have a pen does she. simple fix just go up and ask for a pen from the barista. Go on get up.... GET UP JUST GO ASK HER FOR A PEN ALREADY.
...This is what Dr. Kaz was talking about, I gotta make progress somehow just visiting a coffee shop wont do anything. Maybe I got a pen on me? some where..... yes! left pocket just grab it a- and a-nd... ugh stop shaking you can do it man just get the pen out of you p-pocket and, and, and.... NO NOPE NOPE NOPE NOPE I CANT I CANT CRAP CRAP I NEED TO LEAVE MOVE IT MOVE IT DONT LOOK AT ME LEAVING JUST PLEASE PLEASE DONT LOOK IM JUST LEAVING! ...
... I'm out ... I'm safe, back.... home, ok I'm just gonna make myself some ramen then and watch a sho- my pen! ... where is it!? shit musta dropped it outta my pocket while trying to give it to that girl ... whatever they can keep it, I just.... I cant go back.... not today.