Hana.
She was a friend to me obviously, and I assume I was the same to her but I couldn't help but sense something was off as of late, ever since we visited that abandoned school She would always seem timid around me, even If it was just for tutoring.
But yesterday I seemed to somehow have the opposite effect, while talking about me or just anything about her in general. She would always look in my direction before answering in full confidence, and everyone else failed to notice that except me.
But what really stuck in my head was how she acted after Sasaki's question. Crushes were something I had experienced before in my childhood, but they were mainly towards stupid things like characters on tv shows or something like that.
But what about Hana?
When I thought about it I didn't really have a definitive answer to whether I did or whether I did not have any feelings towards her, I didn't really see her beyond a good friend, until now.
The name "Hana" means flower, flowers are something that most people tend to overlook during day to day life, but in most cultures flowers signify emotion, beauty, and romance.
So what is Hana to me?
I sat up and my bed it was 9:24 pm, Usually I would fall asleep by now but I was struggling to feel a wink of tiredness, of course when I go to bed I keep my phone on silent mode to stop it from bugging me while trying to hit the sack, but that usually didn't stop Hana from trying to text me.
Hana was someone that tended to sleep whenever they got tired, and didn't try to sleep at a particular time. I pulled my phone out of my pocket expecting to be met with a text from her and was greeted with exactly that.
Yamada Hana : [Masaichi.]
Sato Masaichi : [What?]
Yamada Hana : [Oh, you're awake?]
Sato Masaichi : [You texted me, fully thinking that I was asleep?]
Yamada Hana : [Shut up.]
Yamada Hana : [Any who, can I ask you a personal question?]
Sato Masaichi : [Sure, what's it about?]
Yamada Hana : [How often does your father visit?]
My father?
Well usually on holidays he would come over since we would be let off for longer at those times, but on weekends he would barely have any time to spend with my mother, let alone me.
Sato Masaichi : [He usually visits my home on holidays and such, why?]
Yamada Hana : [Just wondering, does it bother you all that much?]
I mean sure, it sucked that my father wasn't around on a daily basis, but what can I do, just ask him to quit his job and find a new one in an office cubicle?
Sato Masaichi : [Don't worry, I'm fine, he's around enough to where it's not a big deal.]
Yamada Hana : [I see.]
I looked around my room, my eyes could vaguely see the illuminated button that powered my computer, many memories were made between Me and Hana in the online world.
I looked back to the screen of my phone and it nearly slipped out of my hands after what I saw.
Yamada Hana : [Masaichi, what is your ideal woman?]
What?
Sato Masaichi : [You mean what's my kind of girl?]
Yamada Hana : [Yes, that is literally what I just said.]
Sato Masaichi : [I don't know, I haven't really had a relationship before so I have no idea what I really want from a partner.]
Yamada Hana : [Oh come on, I haven't had a relationship before but I know what kind of guy I want.]
She was really pressuring me to answer the question, and that was really stressing me out, but one way or another I had to answer.
Sato Masaichi : [Fine, I want a girl who's a generally ok person who can support me when I need some help.]
Yamada Hana : [Wow, really setting the bar low aren't you?]
Sato Masaichi : [Oh really, then what is your type of guy?]
I didn't receive a reply for quite a while after that, I don't know if she had to use the bathroom or do something important, but the wait was annoying me.
Yamada Hana : [It's a secret.]
Sato Masaichi : [Fine, I'm going to bed.]
Almost immediately after I sent that Hana sent a message of her own.
Yamada Hana : [Wait, can I tell you something?]
I looked back at my phone, it was nearly 9:50
Sato Masaichi : [Alright, just be quick about it.]
Yamada Hana : [Goodnight Masaichi, I can't wait to see you tomorrow.]
I was confused, usually she would just say something like "See you." or "M'kay" whenever I told her I was going to bed, not something of this caliber, like as if we were going to have an outing or something like that.
I shrugged it off as her just being full of energy, but it still stuck onto my mind, even as I lost consciousness.