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Chapter 7 - Chapter7

London was drenched in rain that refused to fall cleanly; instead it drifted sideways, staining coats, umbrellas, and bare faces alike. Hana walked down Whitechapel Road with her hair plastered to her cheeks, the suitcase wheels catching on cobblestones, her reflection fractured in every puddle. She had followed Ah Qiang here without ever saying yes, the way one follows a thought that refuses to leave, and now his shadow moved just ahead of her, silent but solid. London was colder than Tokyo or Shanghai, and yet the exposure here felt sharper, as if the damp streets themselves demanded she confess something she had never said aloud. They entered a narrow lodging house near Brick Lane where the wallpaper peeled away in tired strips, and when Hana closed the door of her room she felt as though she had stepped not into safety but into another test of endurance. Ah Qiang stood across from her, watching not hungrily but with a depth that made her skin prickle, as though he could peel away the layers she had spent years constructing. His silence asked more questions than his words ever could, and Hana found herself both terrified and drawn to the possibility of answering them.

In New York, Sophia stood once again before a window, but this time the glass was covered not in neon but in condensation from her own breath. The room behind her was dim, a single lamp casting long shadows across the floor, and she pressed her forehead against the glass as though the city lights could seep into her veins. She thought of Amsterdam, of the nights when strangers catalogued her body like merchandise, and she realized how deeply those moments had carved themselves into her bones. Every time she entered a room now, she expected eyes to strip her, voices to dissect her. In this small apartment, rented weekly in cash, there were no watchers, yet she felt more naked than ever. She lit a cigarette she would not finish, watched the smoke coil and vanish, and whispered to herself in French though her accent fractured the words. It was not a prayer and not a confession but something in between: a plea to remain visible without being consumed, to be seen without being broken.

Mika stood on a London film set, transported there for a co-production that promised prestige but demanded more exposure than she had imagined. The director circled her like a sculptor around marble, adjusting the light so that it grazed the thin fabric of her dress, making her silhouette glow against the backdrop. She obeyed, because obedience meant survival, but inside she questioned how many layers she could shed before there was nothing left. Her co-actor touched her shoulder in rehearsed intimacy, and the cameras closed in, lenses magnifying every tremor of her skin. She remembered Berlin, the club where lights had turned her into a strobe-lit apparition, and now the camera did the same: disassembling her body into fragments, exposing her not to strangers in the dark but to an audience that would one day sit in cinema seats, judging and desiring in equal measure. When the director finally called cut, Mika exhaled with the relief of someone who had run a race barefoot across broken glass, her body intact but her sense of self bleeding invisibly.

Ji-eun returned to her family's apartment in Seoul for the first time in months. Her mother's questions were sharp but coated in feigned innocence: Where have you been? Why so much money, and yet nothing to show for it? Ji-eun answered with half-truths, her hands shaking as she poured tea into chipped cups. The exposure here was not of skin but of history, of secrets pressed against her chest like weights. She wanted to scream, to tell them everything, to strip the silence bare and let them see the survival hidden in her shame. But instead she smiled faintly, bowed her head, and carried the burden deeper inside. Later, alone in her childhood room, she undressed mechanically, folded her clothes with precision, and stared at the body that had earned their suspicion and their bread alike. She touched her collarbone, her ribs, as though mapping the places where her life had written itself into flesh, and wondered if she could ever reveal the truth without losing them forever.

Across Paris, Camila found herself on a stage she had not chosen. A friend had lured her to a private gathering, promising music and laughter, but what she found was a room of strangers whose eyes devoured her before she had spoken a word. The lights were too bright, the air too thin, and when they asked her to sing she realized it was not her voice they wanted. She complied anyway, her voice trembling as she let Spanish syllables fill the air, her coat slipping from her shoulders as though in surrender. The applause was polite but hollow, the smiles too sharp, and Camila understood that survival here meant turning every humiliation into performance. When she left, the night air hit her like water, washing her shame into the Seine below. She paused on the bridge, clutching the railing, exposed not to strangers now but to herself, and the reflection in the river asked questions she dared not answer.

In London, Hana and Ah Qiang sat opposite each other in silence, the peeling wallpaper around them bearing witness. He finally spoke, his words low, asking why she continued, why she chose cities that swallowed her whole. Hana wanted to laugh, to tell him choice was a luxury she never possessed, but instead she met his gaze and let the silence answer. His hand reached for hers, tentative, almost fragile, and when their fingers touched she felt not desire but revelation. It was as though the last mask she wore cracked beneath his touch, leaving her exposed in a way no transaction had ever managed. The danger of it made her want to run, but she stayed, because in this exposure there was also the faint possibility of being known.

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