Once upon a time there lived a girl who wanted to blah blah blah. This is no fairy tale, this will not guarantee a happy ending. This, this is life. My life.
I use to believe in fairy tales, that happy endings and prince charming exist. Not anymore. Life taught me that it was not all butterflies and rainbows. That the bad guys didn't always get defeated by the good guys. The problem was, I didn't realize at the time that life was not supposed to be like that. I thought my life was normal and that everyone dealt with similar problems but as I started to learn more about myself, I realized that was all a lie.
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"No don't, don't touch me…." Whimpering
"Please stop, I don't feel good, I just, I just want to sleep…PLEASE!…" Tossing and turning, crying, I feel sick.
I jolt up and rush to the bathroom. It happened again, I dreamt about him, my own personal boogie man. Someone I haven't seen in 8 years but still haunts my dreams. Will the nightmares ever end? I thought I was getting over them. Thought I was getting better. What is triggering them again? I sigh, trying to calm myself. No one can see me like this. My family has no idea what I went through as a kid, the only one who knows is my boyfriend, he's been the best at helping me overcome my trauma. When I first opened up to him he was shocked and angry, wanting to get revenge, that's how male wolves are. They are extremely protective and would rip the world apart to protect those they care about. Having him know and being so caring has definitely helped me over the past couple years. It's why I thought the nightmares were over, after a year of dating I didn't have one, so why are they back?