Why would He

[25/08, 12:18 am] Richa Chaturvedi: I woke up from sleep , I am lying on a bed , and I see him , someone , a stranger , a stranger in a towel , walking one side of the room to the other , wet hair , wet body , he looks handsome in a familiar way

He turns to me and says "if you like it so much I could be in a towel forever" with a flirty voice but gentle eyes , I look into his eyes and I say " who " , he says I am your caretaker , and shef and nurse " , I move that sheet on my body and realise I can't walk

And then I remember the last night , and I said ," what happened after I stitched my wound last night , I need to talk to talk to my children,

He says " r and y are sleeping in the next room , he comes closer to mee , looks concerned and carefull and says " it's been 3 weeks since that night ." He sits down on his knees on the floor ,

" Girls are completely safe , they sleep with my sister in her room, they have started going to school from the last two weeks , I can't tell you how relieved I am that you're now awake , let me know of anything that you need "

I feel a bit drizzy and fall back to sleep .

Then I wake up again, I see it's daylight through the window in this room , and I see many people , there are doctors and nurses , and him , and a couple , probably his parents, and again I ask for my girls " where are my daughters ".

And he tells me to take medicine and give my blood for some medical tests

I see his eyes so focused and worried when they suck the blood out of my hand

He rushed to give me water , asks some people to get me some fresh juice

And then he goes out

I see his mom , I ask her why am I still here

She says , "you stay here till you heal completely"

He gets my daughters in his arms

I was worried sick for my children

He explains them to be careful around my leg

And they rush to mee and cuddle around mee

And everyone is now sitting , and playing w my daughters

They all look so comfortable around each other

And after an hour , he tells his sister to take the girls to their dance class

And tells everyone " now shee needs to rest " .

Now we're alone in the room

And I ask him , "what is your name"

He says "_"

And then I remember him , he has been in this movie for marvel as a special entry , and got very famous.

I said ' you , in that movie , it was you ?

He says ' yess '

I say , okay , I am "_"" ,I work for the Government of India as an administrative officer

He says 'i know , I have watched your interviews '

I said 'I remember last night , I walked in this backyard, when a bullet hit my leg in trying to follow a big Political scam'

He says ' when you got in my house , I thought , I really wished that interview girl walks in my door , but never like that, w a bullet in your leg bleeding , and you asked for the phone and called 5 people to inform for the location of who you were following, and assigning case to second in command officers and making calls to put a curfew and vehicle checking at 4 posts , and you did not let me call the doctor , you took the bullet out w a fork and a spoon , and stitched your wound , I was shivering, and then you tried to walk and leave back for home to your waiting daughters

As soon as you placed your leg on the floor , you fainted .

I got the gilrs home too

And you trained them well , he laughed, it took me 45 min to convince them to open the door for mee , and they took complete interrogation, and both were standing with hands folded back , with sharp knives .

I could have died

, I laugh too , my girls can really be so hard to handle.

" I need to catch up on that case , it's a mass murder of 25 people in a wedding, and

He cuts me off

" They will take care of it , you are only having rest "

He sounded like ordering mee

" I don't like that tone , I am going home " I said

I can be very short tempered and rushy

He immediately says sorry

" That will not ever happen again" he says in a very serious apologetic and fearful tone

" You can order me " , I am only a caretaker

I will be a good one"

I said "okay "

He serves mee dinner , it's a big tray of daliya and khichdi and all those patients options , I make a tensed yucky face , he looks and laughs and feeds me w a spoon .

And I fall back to sleep as I am sleeping 20+ hours these days due to those heavy medications .

The next that I wake up , it's a morning, and there are my girls playing a quiet board game w him, I see them and I say their names , they get to the bed , and he lifts them up to the bed , and we cuddle , and he sits on the floor , lifts up the bedsheet and looks at my wound and says we have a check-up lined up , when do you want me to schedule it

I said , after breakfast

And after some cleaning up , I feel like I stink

By now I am trying hard to think where have I seen him before

And my daughter says mom he is savior, I said what

She says the superhero, and now I remember, he was in the latest part of a very famous superhero series, he was there for barely 10 minutes and in a mask , so I couldn't remember , I do remember hearing a young actor got overnight fame due to Hollywood superhero production, but I was never a fan of superhero movies , my girls however are highly fascinated

So I look at him and say , you , why would you waste so much time looking after mee , you must be getting offers from accross the country, he says " world"

And now I can see why my girls let him enter our home , I said so you remember that "I asked youm never to let anyone enter , except for family, police , firemen , like all saviours you can let inn "

"Girls have school " , says his mom entering our room , she looks very elegant and classy , they do come from wealth and that shows , she has a very calm face , hopeful and happy , and she asks " are you feeling better" , I said yess , she takes the girls out .

Now he comes to mee looks fearful and says , " please try to understand what I am going to say , you can ask for a nurse , but I would rather that I give you a sponge bath because I would be careful around all wounds"

"What all wounds, I have a wound in my leg " I said

He says , you had a few wounds on your back"

I said " how would you know "

The doctor knocks on the door

He says "get in"

A team of doctors get in

I shout " how would you know "

He says " please" joins his hands and says "the check-up"

I utter "asshole"

He says " mam I will explain, please the check-up"

I shout"youuu outtr"

And then I ask the doctors how much has he paid for my treatment

The doctor says " he gave me a blank check , and told me to heal you for everything that he has got "

He cried for weeks , he cleaned you after you would throw up because of high dose of medicine"

He wouldn't leave your side, he did not sleep for the two weeks you were in coma " and then doctor gave me anaesthesia and I fell asleep

I woke up and it was dark , the light from the window fell on the clock and it was radiating 2

He was sleeping sitting on the floor w his head on the bed beside mee

I shout his name , I said " I want my answers " and I want out of here"

He wakes up , rattled ,and begins with an apology "I am sorry , but I wouldn't dare think about anything wrong to do w the love of my life when she is in coma with a bullet in her leg" , I have had a huge crush on you , it's been 3 years , I have been thinking only about you , you check your social media , I texted you everywhere asking you for one chance one date one dinner, "

You entering that door was my dream come true and then when I saw you bleed , it was my worst nightmare, I was helpless , I have never felt so helpless, I cleaned you up whenever you vomit or " he stoped , I knew what he meant , " and I was too scared to let a nurse do all that " , I will be here naked on the floor everyday for however you want to punish me , please don't leave , stay for these three months that doctor says you need complete bedrest, I am begging " he puts his head down .

I said " I don't believe anything, there's some agenda to your talks "

He says " you work for the Government of India , you can punish mee right if that be true , so please, "

" I will obey every command, every word , whatever you say , whatever assurance you want, you want officers deployed at my home, any contract you want me to sign , whatever you need to give me this one chance , you ask "

I said " I will think and let you know , right now I want food"

He says " whatever madam wants to eat " with a smile of relief.

Although I am sceptical about this much love and crap from a stranger man , I have seen this obsession of men before many times , so I hope it's an obsession, better than an agenda

I said " I will eat Maggi and frappe and ice cream lastly for dessert"

He says " your blood sugar is high and you "

I said " madam have spoken "

He says " we can do atta noodles , stevia frappe , and ice cream , I need to ask the doctor if we're giving you cold "

I said " about that deep love crap , I am only here because I literally can not walk out "

He says " I am honoured and I will remember that , let me get your food"

He walks away , stops , turns and says "thankyou "

We eat food and I want to pee

So I ask him " how do I go to the washroom"

He says " you can do here , I will clean up "

I was stunned " nooo , I am using the washroom"

He says , " I really would rather clean up"

I said " arguments are not allowed if you want me to stay"

He comes close and ask "then may I pick you up and take you "

I nod and say "hmm" ( which is yess in Hindi )

He picks mee up , keeping my leg straight, takes me to the toilet, helps me lower my clothes and up my close and gets me back .

I ask what if I have to ...

He says " I have cleaned after you , I will do it "

I said noo , you rather take me to the washroom and help.

Next Morning, I wake up again, to him in a towel

, I said " I do like the view here " and laugh

He blushes

" I can make it better , he says w one hand on the towel "

And now that's enough to offend mee , I can flirt but I can't take flirt back

So I made that clear to him

," if you respond in that way again"

He immediately says " I am sorry , I will not "

I said " you would have to learn to behave "

And there's a knock on the door , and some girl says " I am annie "

He says in a very baseful voice , "wait outside"

I didn't know he could have that voice

And he says " would you be comfortable, she is the girl I have signed my next movie with" , " if you're okay for me to let her in " and he gets dressed up

A lower and a T ,

I said ," I would enjoy listening about a movie script"

So he then lets her inn , there's also a friend of hers and his sister

His sister tells mee that she is friends with her friend from school

Both girls look very well dressed and very well behaved

She hands him the script and doctor calls

He tells his sister to look after mee and the girls say that would rather wait for him and look after mee too .

He comes close , checks my pulse , says " I'll be back in 15 minutes, please take care of your leg , and have breakfast, and today please eat the doctor recommended porrage and green juice " smiles at me and leaves

And both girls are shocked, she says " I have never seen him be that nice ,"

I say " I am an officer in the government of India, they gae to behave nice " in an arrogant joking way , they laugh w mee , and she says " I would really like you to come for our movie shoots and screenings , because he says he is not coming to work before you're completely healed and that could take months , so please if you would make it happen. "

I said " sure , I am anyways so bored"

We chat and I enjoy the company of these girls

We are becoming friends

We have breakfast together, they eat my patients meal w mee , boring porridge and milk and fruit crushed

He returns in an hour

And runs to mee , takes deep breaths and saya

" I am sorry , I was late because we had to verify the tests with other doctors, trust me I am not irresponsible, I wouldn't take this or anything related to you lightly , I am very responsible w everything related to you, it will not happen again "

I suddenly begin to shout , " shutup , you are irresponsible I want to go home , I am trapped , get out of here , I don't care " and I throw the glass water jug and it breaks , and then I try to throw the glucose water dispenser holder which was connected to my wrist this morning, he grabs it " please don't , I am sorry , I will get out of here , do not , it would hurt you , I am out " , he leaves

And all girls are staring at mee

I said " I don't know what happened to mee , I am never this hostile , I am never this impatient, and I did not even notice it's been an hour "

His sister says " it is the medication and hormonal imbalance, you are on a lot of heavy drugs and then high blood sugar "

Annie says " it's okay , he seems to take your anger so politely and it doesn't look like he took offense "

Her friend says " this is the Hollywood star , I can't believe, acts like a nurse to you "

I say " he did say he'll be a good nurse " and we all laugh in sign of relief.

The girls say that they have plans to meet the director and his sister is going to be interviewed for assisting the Director on a different project, so they'll all head towards the production house

I said " tell him to come inside , I am much more balanced now"

He enters with a slow walk , head down , looks at mee and says ,"I will never be later than I tell you , I am sorry "

I said " no , it was an overreaction on my side , maybe it's these medications"

He says " yess that is bound to happen, you have sugar at 300 , you're continuously on insulin " and it will be for the next 2 months "

I said " so I do not need to say sorry , as it is medications not mee " and I smile .

He says " never "

"Can I get that glass cleaned up"

I said "hmm"

I say " come sit " ,putting my hand on the bed

He says " I can't sit w the master " w a flirty smirk

I say " I command "

He sits near mee

And I said " I want to be fucked "

He says "what "

I said , " i don't know , I have never had this urge with this intensity, I can't believe I am asking a stranger to fuck mee , but fuck mee now "

He says " I don't know what to say or do " ," should I call the doctor "

I said " noo just fuck mee , take your clothes off "

He says " I would take my clothes off , but you will regret the sex later , " how about I take my clothes off and do a strip dance "

I said " no I want to feel it inside mee" , " you had a crush on mee , you never imagined fucking mee"

He says " I did , but not like this , your leg is wounded , I wouldn't, I can't , please"

I say " you are not taking your clothes off ? , I have seen you in a towel "

He says " I would take my clothes off , I would be naked for you ,in a minute , we can't risk hurting your leg "

And he takes his shirt off

Says " I am all yours , you can make me do whatever you want , I would dance naked , I will make it entertaining, let me give you a strip dance instead "

I said " no you come close , and kiss mee now "

He says " baby , please "

I say " kiss mee"

He leans and kisses mee very gently and moves away

I say " suck my lips"

And he does , and looks at mee w his lovely eyes so deep

I say " take my clothes off "

He takes off my T being very careful

I move a little to help me , he holds me and says " you don't move , let me "

I said " your voice is making me wet "

He says " baby , we can't hurt your leg , you also have wounds on your back "

I said " it's healed , you focus on pleasuring mee"

He says " thankyou for letting me come this close to youu" , but please let's stop "

I said " hold my nipples "

He moves his finger on my right nipple very gently and kisses mee

And keeps kissing mee

I take his hand and place it on my breast , he does not grab it , just placing his hand , keeps kissing me gently and moves his hand to my hair and gently strokes

He moves away ,looks at me and says " please, let's stop"

I said "nooo".

I move my finger from his chest to his abs and down till his pants

I said " open it "

He does

I hold it in my hand , and I say " you like it " " now fuck mee"

He says " I love you , I am not risking hurting you "

He holds my cheek and says " please understand "

I said " noo"

He kisses my cheek and repeats " please understand "

I said " nooo" I said it angrily and I look at him angry

He says " okay what do you want me to do now "

I said " put your hand inside my skirt "

He does , I say " you know what I want next"

He takes his hand upside, puts his finger inside me

And begins to finger mee

I said " wow "

He says " whenever you want , tell me to stop"

I say " I want you to keep going "

He says " we don't know what an orgasm can do to your body , we should ask a doctor , please "

I say " it would heal mee , and you are not stopping "

He takes my other hand in his hand and kisses it

And I see teary eyes , all red all wet

I said " okay stop ,"

He removes his hand

I asked " what happened "

He kisses my cheek moves away and buttons up his pants

I asked louder " what happened"

He said "I imagined our first meeting a million times , I prayed to accidently meet you somewhere"

Had I known it would happen this way I wouldn't have asked for it "

And I really did want to get intimate w you , and do all this and pleasure you and I would imagine you saying " wow , don't stop"

But it would happen like this , I don't "

I say " look at me , I am not hurt at all , I enjoyed it "

He says " I have given you no rights , no dates , no tags , I did not want to do this as a stranger, I never thought I would use your medical condition to use your body "

I wanted intimacy being the boyfriend and the husband and after I have given you all the love "

" Not when you can't even move your legs , I would"

" I know you would regret it later , and I will always be the guy who you'll get disgusted from "

I said " see , you are the guy who did what I said , I would always see you as the guy who took all my illegitimate tantrums , I will be greatful , and look at you here so hott , I would not feel disgusted , I will always get wet when I see you " I laugh

He smiles " I hope "

I said " now sleep holding mee "

He says " where's your tshirt "

I said , " shutup and sleep holding mee "

" I am feeling deficiency "

He says " of what"

I said " touch "

He holds me , his hand around my belly , his head on the bed close to my belly

I stroke his hair , we sleep

Next Morning I wake up , angry

I see him all ready in a suit , w the breakfast tray

He says " are you angry w mee "

I said " what do you think pervert"

He says " I am sorry , I am a jerk , I am sorry "

I say " noo , I don't know , I am having confusions and mood swings and I am angry at everything "

He says " you can be angry at me , how do you want mee to apologise "

I said " kiss mee and say sorry "

He kisses mee and says " sorry , I am very sorry "

I said " again "

He kisses me again and says " I am sorry , he went down on his knees and holds my legs below my knees and says I am sorry and kisses my leg "

He asks " more ? "

I said " yess"

He kisses my legs and says sorry

I said " now get the breakfast, and I am not eating patient food "

He says " we have tomato soup and vages in sour creme and avacado nacho salad " you'll enjoy today's meal and now all meals , I have hired a new shef who specialises in tasty patients meals"

And because today is Sunday , the girls will join us for breakfast

I became so happy , and minutes later the girls came in

We 4 had breakfast together which was surprisingly very tasty .

He said " any compliments to the shef "

I said " I could marry this shef"

He bends closer to mee and says " I will learn it all in a month " with his flirty smirk .

I smile.

[25/08, 12:19 am] Richa Chaturvedi: He says " I don't know what that is , you check it "

I said " my children are here"

Children are busy eating, he puts on a movie on the TV

Quickly and girls start watching TV

I again opens his phone with his finger and says the pw is your birthdate and month

I click on the notification which came from snapchat

It's a random girl , who texted "hey , I would fullfill all your desires"

I check there's no history, I said " you can go for ,...you also have needs and we're not anything"

He says " nooo I have not been w anyone in the last 3 years since I first saw you , your interview on the news "

" Please confirm that I am not doing any of these things , I do get nudes on my Instagram dms , I never respond, I block and delete as much as I can , please check all these apps and pictures on my phone and everything to your satisfaction"

" You keep my phone for today the whole day "

I said " I have no rights here but I do want to see "

He says " you have all the rights , on everything I own and mee "

" I wouldn't dare loosing face infront of you for some misunderstanding "

I said " okay "

He says " thankyou for letting me sleep so close to you last night , and I lost all my senses when you stroked my hair "

I said " and you did not loose senses seeing me half naked and touching my vagina ?? "

He smiled and blushed and said " but please not again for the next 3 months "

I said " after that maybe I would never wanna do that w you , being off the medications , so you see you only have these chances "

He said " I will be hotter , you wouldn't be able to resist " in his flirty smirk.

I said ," I have to inform my friends and family about all this "

He said " I don't know your friends, but I have informed your parents through the kids , that you're doing night shifts and can't talk , I didn't know if I should have told them "

I said ". Nice work "

Let me tell my friends about it

Where is my phone

He says " I wouldn't know , you came in and you said you lost your phone so you called a few work people from my dad's "

I said yeaah

He says " give me your number, I'll get the sim recovery and buy a phone for you "

I said " acha tarika h number maangne ka ",( in hindi it means good way of asking for my number indirectly ) in a flirt.

He says " I will be honoured to have your number ,can I please have it , I will never bother you "

I give him my number written on a paper , as I was going to keep his phone w mee

He keeps it , and says " thankyou so much "

I'll go and get your phone and meet the doctor and get new reports

I will be back in half an hour , and you can trust me on time completely

I'll have my mom be here w you

Is that okay ?'"

I said " yess"

When he got back , ii got the phone , but I carried on his lie about work so they do not worry , however I told three of of my girlfriends to come visit mee , without immediately telling them about the bullet ,I made it to be some leg injury so they don't freak out .

In the evening he got to me w a bundle of papers

And told me " it's a script I have been offered , so here "

I said " what do I do w it "

He said " now that you are here I would like to take your permission to proceed"

I laughed

I took the script and we began reading random pages

At one page there was a dramatic entry of the hero

I said " that is so cool"

At another page there was a kiss

He immediately said " I am getting that cut " or no contract "

I said " yess "

He smiled

I said " what"

He said " I like when you exercise this right on mee , it's special, it's intimate, it soothes mee"

I am never this horny and I can't believe what I said next

" Then let mee use you , your body to my wish "

He says " baby , mam , I am all yours , I am and always will be present to get used by you , it's only about your health , you can do anything you want to do to mee "

I said " kiss mee"

He comes very close and says "I can't tell you want it means to mee , hearing you say that"

He kisses me , harder this time than the last time , but still softly .

I said " uk what , I am into bdsm "

He looks stunned and says " I am too , but I am really working on it , for you "

I said " nooo , I love it , why would you change your thing "

He says " bdsm is sick , it's sadistic"

I said "noo it's not"

He said " it , I have been told , it is because of issues and the pleasure I get from inflicting pain"

I said " noo , if I am also enjoying it , you're getting pleasure from giving pleasure right"

He says " why would you wanna get hurt , I would never"

I said , " it's not real hurt ,it's that adreline rush , it is that feeling of rollercoaster, we don't do it cause we're depressed and we wanna die so we simulate dying, it is because it's thrilling and we know inside it's safe "

" In BDSM also , I would only do it w the person I feel insanely safe w , and I would want thrill , like bungee jumping , sky diving "

He says " it's time for your medicine and I would need sometime to wrap my head around that "

And says " btw , am I a good kisser ?"

I said " what do you think , a bdsm freak and a gentle soft kiss "

He says " I will try harder " bends his head and goes out to get food and medicine

We sleep , he sleeps very far away but keeps an eye on mee smiling

Next Morning, I wake up to him reading the script and looking so hot

He says " you're up ? " " Should I get the breakfast done or coffee"

I said "coffee and walnuts "

He gets me my coffe and walnuts

Says " whenever you get time , I would like to discuss parts of my script, to know my limits and what all you allow , ofcourse anything sexual and romantic is out"

I said " what else then"

He says " there is physical touch or lift in a saviour kinda way , if you say no , I would then end being a part of this series "

I said " why the fuck are you so obsessed w mee , STOPP"

He says " I am sorry , I will get the breakfast "

And then I felt so much love towards him suddenly but I controlled.

He gets breakfast, I pick up a piece of papaya andtake it to his mouth " eat"

He eats

I said " sorry "

He says " you don't , you never have to " , this " you feeding me w your hands , this is beyond what I could have ever ever asked for "

I said " make me your girlfriend "

I said " I mean , I hereby propose you ,would you be my boyfriend "

He goes on knees ,hold my hand and says " yess please yess , thankyou, thankyou so much "and kisses my repeatedly , I see him crying , his tears on my hands and dripping down his cheeks , he puts his head on my feet and he kept crying ,

I said " baby , come to my arms "

He keeps on crying

He says " you will never regret giving mee this chance , I promise "

I say " please baby , come on the bed , just do it "

He comes on the bed , keeps staring at my face ,I touch his face, I said , " you are literally a superstar , stop w the , what is happening, why and how so much love for mee , from over the screen "

He says " I don't know , I would hear you talk and , every word would , it felt like you were talking to me , I have imagined a million times talking to you , I still can't believe it's happening, I am , I was about to suicide when , 3 years ago , and I heard you , and you are the reason of my life , I felt , I just want to see her happy , this bullet in your leg , it kills me everyday "" it has been for three years like you're already a part of mee , I have felt like you've been here , staying by my side through thick and thin, and I have lived these 3 years talking to you , sharing w you , every moment , I have imagined it to be us , us and not mee" , it's now my life to imagine it to be us and not mee, and even if I gave had never met you , I would still be w you all the time in my head "

I kiss his hair

I say " don't let go of mee for 10 minutes " keep holding mee"

I hugged him

He hugged me " I would never ", " I am so grateful, you don't know what it means to mee , I don't know what have I ever done to deserve this , to have my love of my life in my arms , I am indebted to you for life " " mat chhod k jaana mujhe " " bhot pyar karuga "

We slept hugging , he kept waking up and kissing mee every hour the whole night .

Next Morning , I wake up , he is ready to go somewhere he asks , " stop staring , just rip mee off and take mee for yourself "

I laugh

He says he is making it a brunch date for us , in his dining room

He gets a lovely purple and blue decorated wheelchair , with a basket full of fresh flowers and fur coated feet holders and cushions , I laugh at that

He says "let's go for a ride "

He picks me up puts me in that chair

We goo so fast , I got so much thrill after so long

I said " wait , I wanna be dressed too , you dress me up"

[25/08, 12:19 am] Richa Chaturvedi: I am lying on bed and he comes close and says " why are you being so stubborn" and then raises his voice and says " answer mee"

I am shocked at that and I feel someone shaking mee

, I see it's him and I slap him , not realising it was a dream and he shook me and woke me up

He is just looking at mee

I said " move away" , he moves a little away , I shout " move away from mee "

He moves away

He says " I am sorry , what do you want me to doo"

I said " I have wild mood swings, I am diabetic"

He says " okay , whatever you need , please tell mee "

I said " come closer "

He comes closer , I touch his cheek , I said " sorry"

He says " please don't say that "

I said " you're excusing my behaviour in sympathy, "

He says " you can hit mee after you're recovered and check that fact " smiles in his flirty way

I smile too

I say " I can not guarantee I wouldn't repeat that but I will try "

And then he gets me medication and food , it was midnight , I tasted the upma he made and again I felt so much anger at the taste and I shout " you are keeping mee here hostage feeding me this crap " I throw the plate on the floor , it breaks

He says , " I am so sorry , what do you wanna eat "

I said " shutup , want can you get , why would you serve me that , get out of this room "

He says " please let me just stay in the room, please, I will get the cook prepare whatever you want to eat"

I shout " your face , I can't tolerate this face , get out , don't make mee say it again and again " and I throw the water jug to the floor

He says " I am going out , I am so sorry "

He walks out of the door

And I sleep

When I woke up it was morning , I was alone in the room

I said "aei "

He says from the door "yess" and walks in

His eyes are puffy and red , he looks down and stands there still

And then I remember what I did last night

I said " I am sorry , I do that again and again , I am so frustrated"

He says " I understand, you're stuck here , and all those medications and all that pain , ofcourse"

I said " you have done so much for me and you have to bear my tantrums too "

He says " me kutta hu aapka , aap samjho , you can do anything and say anything , I am so greatful that you woke up and called my name "

I said " don't say that , don't embarass mee"

He says " can I get that glass cleaned up "

I nod

He calls for help , they clean up and leave and he sits there on the bed w mee holding my hand

Next ,the doctors came and i took the first few steps after two months of being in bed or in wheelchair

We ate sugar free ice cream

I said " I would put it on you and eat it "

He says " please I am dying"

I put some on his lip and lick it

He closes his eyes and waits for more

I laugh , he laughs

Then we go in for an afternoon nap

I said "I might dream again"

He laughs " keep a knife "

I did dream again

He came over mee and began kissing mee

I was resisting

He said " let me "

I wake up and I see him sleeping

He wakes up

He asks " what "

I am unable to trust him in that moment

I said " please don't touch mee, please move away"

He says" listen to mee"

I shout " noo"

He says " do you want me to call the police , get me arrested"

I look at his hair , which were grey in my dream

I said " noo , your hair , I was dreaming, it was grey"

He says " you don't need to fear mee "

He says " you look at me angry and my hands shiver , you don't have to fear mee , I wouldn't dare hurt you, my body wouldn't work w mee "

I said " please hug me and forget this"

He hugs me

He says " all I ever wanted in my life was to meet you once and impress you enough that you remember mee

I have spent every day of my life planning for when I would meet you , I will never hurt you , I can't "

I said " I don't understand anything anymore, I can't understand what's a dream and what is reality, I can't understand sometimes suddenly I feel scared and sometimes angry , I don't know "

He hugs me tighter " it will be okay in sometime , it's only about a few days , I will do everything to make you feel better "

He says " so would you want to have soup?"

I said " yess"

He says let me have our chef make it , any instructions mam

I nod for noo.

After soup , he gives me a tablet

He says " watch all shows you ever wanted to watch , use this time as a binge vacation "

He says " btw , there's also a movie that I am in , if ever you would wantt to , I really wished so hard when it launched that you would have been w mee , and then I wished so much that somewhere sometime you'd watch something that I am in "

I said " okay play it now "

He says " thankyou so much , any feedback any criticism any complaints any suggestions please "

" And also there are many scripts coming my way if you'd like me to read them to you , now I wouldn't ever wanna do anything that you wouldn't enjoy watching "

I said " why are you so obsessed w mee "

[25/08, 12:20 am] Richa Chaturvedi: We reach the screening of his movie

I am watching his fame for the first time

He is very careful of my leg not getting hurt

We get inside and he introduces me to his directors and co actors , the actress compliments him " you look so handsome, I am very excited, you know they're all shipping us together "

He says " let's get inside "

We have his parents , his sister and her friends along w us

We sit and begin watching the movie

Director makes his actress sit beside him on the other side

I said to him " you will have to apologise to me when we get home"

He looks at me and sits down on his knees infront of mee and says " I am sorry , what did I do wrong"

I was just teasing him about his actress flirting, but seeing him apologizing in public shook mee

I said " sit in your seat "

He kisses my hand says " I am really sorry"

And sits on his seat and whispers in my ear " we can go home now , or we can talk about it in the office upstairs in private "

I said " I was just teasing you , it's nothing serious"

He says " okay , let me know if anything"

I put my head on his shoulder and I said " you're adorable, and so fucking famous , what is that "

He said " thankyou, you don't know how much this closeness means to mee , I am shivering inside whenever you come close , and I get so scared when you look at me angry "

I said " I would kiss you if we were home "

He says "let's go home "

We laugh

I said " you would apologise in public , no shame ?"

He said " I wouldn't risk you getting angry , I wouldn't make you wait for a sorry , it's nothing, for you being by my side , this was my biggest dream to take you to my movie launch someday , every release I thought, wish she were here , wish she watches me somewhere, wish she saw how great I was in that action scene , hope she is okay w my romantic scenes , I would get it reduced and reduced so much , that now they don't offer mee romantic movies , I am now an action hero " he laughs

I laugh

[25/08, 12:20 am] Richa Chaturvedi: I spilled water on my tshirt , his tshirt , that he gave me Yesterday, I was taking it off and I saw him standing outside the window in the balcony looking at the opposite side , so he saw me changing and turned , I called him in , I said ar , he sais "yess"

I said come in

He walks in , looks at mee and then down

I said " take off your clothes "

He looks at mee and then looking downs unbuttons his shirt,

I said " you watch me change , I watch you change "

He says " I didn't know , I am sorry , I should have informed you I'll be in the balcony "

He unbuttons his jeans and zips down

I said " stop"

He says " you can make me do whatever you want to watch me do "

He looked sincere , so I let it go

I was watching his body , it was ripped and built like an athelete, the body that got him that superhero movie

I kept looking , and I said " you look so fit "

He smiles , he said " should I keep going " holding his zip

I said " shutup " and I laughed

I said " can I touch "

He comes close , he closes his eyes , he says " please do"