*Chapter 1: The Crash That changed
The rain poured with an intensity that felt personal, like the sky itself grieved for something lost. Droplets sliced through the air like needles, soaking through my hoodie and trickling down my spine. I clutched the crumpled hospital discharge papers tightly in my numb fingers, the ink beginning to smudge from the rain. I stood alone just beyond the gate of the hospital, its red neon sign flickering behind me like a heartbeat I no longer recognized.
My name—or the one they gave me—was *Anita*.
The name tasted foreign, like a borrowed coat that didn't quite fit. Nurse Mara, the kind woman who had cared for me during the past two weeks, was the one who chose it. She had found me lying unconscious on the roadside, my body broken, my memories scattered like shards of glass. No ID. No phone. Nothing. Just a silver bracelet on my wrist engraved with the word "Forever."
But forever had apparently forgotten me.I turned my face slightly upward. Rain tapped against my eyelashes as I tried to breathe past the knot in my chest. The world felt unfamiliar. The streets stretched ahead like an unsolvable maze, each path a question with no answer. Where do I go? Who do I call? Who *am* I?
I had asked that question every morning since I opened my eyes in the hospital bed—surrounded by machines and strangers. The doctors called it traumatic amnesia. They said it might pass. Or not. Nobody could say for sure. But deep down, I knew something had been erased. Not just a name, not just a face—something *important*.
I stepped away from the hospital gate, each footfall slow, uncertain. Nurse Mara had offered to let me stay with her until I figured things out, but I'd turned her down. I didn't want to burden anyone. Besides, a voice inside me whispered that this was something I had to face alone.
As I walked, I noticed how people passed by me without a glance—umbrellas shielding them from the storm, faces buried in scarves and screens. I was invisible. Just another soaked girl in the rain. A stranger in her own skin.
A sudden honk snapped me out of my thoughts. I looked up just in time to see a black SUV splash through a puddle, narrowly avoiding the curb—and me. My breath caught in my throat.The vehicle slowed. The window rolled down.
"Are you alright?" A man's voice. Deep. Steady. Concerned.
I nodded quickly, stepping back. "Yes. Sorry."
He stared at me for a beat too long. There was something in his eyes—hesitation? Recognition? But just as quickly, it was gone.
"Be careful. The streets are slippery," he said before driving off.
I stood frozen for a moment, watching the red taillights fade into the fog. My heart raced for reasons I didn't understand. There was something about his voice. The way he looked at me. Like he'd seen a ghost.
Or maybe I was the ghost.
A tremor passed through me. I needed shelter. Warmth. A plan. My fingers instinctively brushed against the bracelet again. *Forever.*
I found a bench beneath a dim streetlamp and sat down. Rain still trickled through the thin roof of the shelter, but it was enough to catch my breath. I pulled my knees to my chest and closed my eyes, trying—once again—to remember something. *Anything.*
Screeching tires. A scream.
My scream? Someone else's?
Pain. Then silence.
That was all I had. A flash of panic buried in the dark.The doctors had told me it was a miracle I survived. I had suffered a head injury, broken ribs, and bruises all over my body. But what about my soul? The bruises there were worse. Unseen. Unnamed.
I didn't know if I had a family looking for me. A home. A job. A past. Or if maybe… I was running from something. The thought chilled me more than the rain ever could.
Eventually, I forced myself up and wandered until I found a women's shelter tucked between a pharmacy and an old bookstore. A soft bell chimed as I stepped in. The woman at the front desk looked up, her expression turning gentle when she saw the state I was in.
"Rough night?"
I gave a weak nod. "I don't have anywhere else to go."
She didn't press. She just handed me a towel and led me to a small room with a cot, a heater, and the faint smell of lavender.
That night, as I lay under a borrowed blanket, the hum of the city outside the only reminder that life continued, I whispered the name Nurse Mara had given me.
"Anita…"
It still didn't feel right.
But maybe, just maybe, it would one day.