RIVER
It's been three days since Ryker rejected and broke up with me. Three days of me slipping off balance and roaming the streets like a lost puppy or rather an idiot.
I have never known his rejection can hit me this hard. I thought I'd be able to control it and here I am, obviously keeping every pain under control.
I drag my feet against the floor, deeply in tears. My vision blurs as my tears slip away uncontrollably.
That son of a gun! How dare he break my heart this way!
Now I feel less of myself. I feel like I've only been used by him; he only used me as a bait to take out his frustration whenever he feels down.
Did the Moon Goddess really write out fate this way? Are we only meant to be for a while and break apart like we'd never crossed part?
Like everything we'd shared is nothing?
I take the bottle of Hennessy to my mouth and gulp down a mouthful.
The hot liquid burns my throat but I chug it down and grin like the fool I am.
I have hoped it'd help me forget about the pathetic heartbreak I am going through but it doesn't help a bit, yet I hold unto it and keep drinking like my life depends on it.
My phone rings and I fumble with my purse as I try to take it out.
It's Blue calling. I let out a dry laugh when I see the caller ID — Lucky Angel.
Now, I feel so unworthy to be her friend. We're both outrightly different people, Blue is a goddess and keeps getting attraction from nice guys while I'm the unfortunate one who always ends up being a chum bucket for some guy.
I've never been lucky with any guy even before I found out Ryker is my mate.
They always seem to have a reason to leave me and it really hurts.
I'm unable to pick up the call as the hang up or answer button keeps flashing right before my eyes like a mirage.
The call ends before I can finally muster up some sense to predict which one is to make the call connect.
Then, her text pops up on my phone and my heart pricks with guilt as I read her message.
Lucky Angel ~ I'm damn worried, where the hell are you, River? That motherfucker isn't worth to make you lose your mental health!
I chuckle and slip my phone back into my purse.
My best friend will never understand. Blue can never understand.
She knows how much I'm in love with Ryker yet she speaks like this?
I gulp down more alcohol and a crazy loud shrill follows.
My legs wobble as I stagger off as I sing Justin Bieber and Sean Kingston's Eenie Meenie.
The song really tastes bad on my tongue. I've never been good at singing. Even everything, also keeping my mate too.
I have been doing everything to make our relationship work and one night he breaks the bond between us and discards me like trash.
"Heaven! This is fucking ridiculous!" I laugh out loud like a mad lady and grab my head as the scene flashes on my mind for the hundredth time.
Then I sing.
Don't leave me out here dancing alone. Can't make up your mind, mind, mind, mind. Not trying to rewind, wind, wind, wind, wind.
I wish our hearts could come together as one…..
I sniff back my tears as I sing on. I really wish Ryker could change his mind and reconsider.
Even though I told him I'd never take him back, I doubt if I wouldn't it he comes begging.
It feels so hard to stop loving him even when he's broken my heart completely and every time, my wolf whimpers in pain and thud restless, craving for his presence.
If only he hadn't broken the bond between us, I'd have spoken to him through the mind link— to beg and promise him that I'd be a better girlfriend.
I don't care if he piles all the blame on me again, after all I'm used to it.
All I want is his love but I guess our love story has come to an end our love ship which had always seemed to be sinking had capsized finally and is sunken beneath the raging sea.
I am completely drunk and can't see a thing. Everything and everyone shows before me like double and my legs fail me, almost losing its balance.
I don't keep moving, I don't stop even though I had no idea what I'm heading to.
I have a house which I shared with my best friend but I don't wanna go home and bother her with my nonstop tears or keep herl worried by showing my pathetic self before her.
I don't have to fix my broken life into her perfect one, maybe I should give her some space to breathe new air and find a solution to my sickly self and wolf.
I stop walking when a bike approaches me. My purse which I am holding carelessly falls off and I don't notice or hear my phone ringing.
I stagger backwards as the bike approaches me but then I realise it isn't only one but others surround me too.
They all stop and I'm caught in their middle. I don't recognise any of the bikers but they really seemed creepy.
They all get off their bikes and move closer to me, a smirk tugging at their lips.
"Finally, we found a lone wolf to satisfy our urge tonight." The tall one says and I'm left speechless.
My brows widen in fear as I inhale their scent. They're not wolves but rouges!