I think about my life and we're it's heading as my dad drives us to his house.. I gotta do
Something different I got a little time left active duty and then I have to find something different. I don't like my life anymore.
PRESENT
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Am I?
LUCAS
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I have been in love with Thea for 4 years maybe longer maybe deep down I loved her since we was kids going to church and vacation Bible school together.. but her brothers they was my best friends and she was there sister, they always got mad when I tried to hangout with her when I was over to their house, and when she was older they made it clear I was never gonna be good enough, they had seen me be a man whore they had seen me smock and drink and party but I still loved her every time I seen her my heart just leaped I took every opportunity to spend time with her I loved everything about her she would the most beautiful women and just perfect in every way. Frick. And now she has a new hot neighbor who she obviously was interested in taking her perfect little self next door to meet him and bake him her special brownies the brownies me and Thom and everybody fought over, my girls brownies except she's not my girl. Shot.
All night long was torture tonight hanging out and having tacos and hearing her joke and laugh with us my freaking heart man. I just wanna tell her how I feel so bad, I already had to watch her have a relationship with that shit bag Lee and that about killed me I can't watch her date another guy possible get married. Frick!
Saying goodbye and leaving Thea's house I see her stupid new neighbor out taking his trash out and it just pisses me off he's around our age probably single and is Thea's next door neighbor. Great. I nod to him with a look trying to convey watch yourself and he just nods his head up back at me. I let out a long breath through my nose and Thom slaps a firm hand on my shoulder from the driver seat. "You ok man? U seemed odd tonight". Thom says.
I didn't get a good vibe from Thea's new neighbor Patrick or whatever did you? I hope he doesn't bother her.
Thom just laughs heartily and says "I know man but our little girl is growing up she will be ok I'm gonna help her install some security cameras and stuff soon and that guy seemed ok and normal he didn't seem odd to me". Thom says. Then he starts chatting about the gym and stuff but I just kinda say yeah and then get out my phone hoping to end the conversation I can't really think anyways my mind is on Thea and how I wish things was different.