I will never understand
How you could just use me...
Your eyes were jet-black.
You were looking right through me...
Holding back,
You could never love truly...
Kept on leading me on,
Emotionally abusing...
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How could you look me in my eyes
And just pretend to love me?
Then
Run back to all your shitty habits
Back to all your toxic friends.
I could only see your potential,
Could never just let it end.
You were faking it all along.
You could never just let me in.
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How could you sleep soundly at night
While you were lying all along?
You are just a sunken shell,
You'd been hollowed out,
Never strong.
I was holding all of your sorrow,
To burn it off later on.
You were not planning to love me,
Made it seem like I was wrong.
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Whoa...
That gaslight you had
Burned brighter than ever
And I could not call it out...
Whoa...
But I was in love,
And you were too clever
It kept me from crashing out...
Whoa...
Manipulate me
Till my love couldn't breathe,
Yeah, you left me all full of doubt.
Whoa...
I couldn't shake it.
Or break it.
My heart couldn't take it,
I had to pull it out.
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She said:
"Maybe you should go find someone who can love you better..."
I was so lost in the thought of her, I'd fight in any weather...
I was so infatuated; I was so desperate to get her...
That I didn't see, it wasn't me, I wasn't meant to net her...
"You are all I ever wanted..."
I should have had somebody vet her...
Just like acid,
She would splash it,
Pour it on now,
Make it wetter...
I was so entangled by her
I was chained down
Like a fetter...
She would wrest from me
The best from me
Only because I let her...
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I never understood
How you could just look right through me...
How you ignored my heart daily,
How you could never love me truly...
I'll never get it,
Would you please explain it to me?
How to take and take and take and take,
How to live so unruly.