Do you know how harsh the society is nowadays for teenage girls? Well the adults will say " Ahaaa! You are sooo annoying. Can you even do a single work properly? We have also gone through those days but we were not dramatic like you. I think only for you guys the psychiatrist or psychologist's salary has increased."
Well, yeah it has.
We have spent our childhood days like a flower buds on the way to bloom waiting to become ripened fruits. When we were children we also used to question ourself "When will we grow up? Can I become the person I really wanna be?" How amusing right! We used to play with our friends, gossip about what happened that day or this day and on many other topics. We did not use to have malicious thoughts or competitive behaviour that will lead us to become strangers for each other forever.
Well I will too never say that I did not have that intent. I had but something made me stop having that intent. I am socially-introverted person. I feel anxiety whenever I am in public or whenever I am talking to a stranger or someone new to me. But that does not mean I do not talk to anyone. Instead I feel my heart calming down when I talk to them as if like a feeling that I can make new friends or manage everything all on my own. Well, many says this character is somewhat a sign of being an Ambivert. I didn't even know the meaning until I was 15.
I used to have many friends when I was in upper nursery but that was temporary though. I had to change school and leave my old friends. For me, it was like completion of volume 1 of my life story. We used to contact each other but eventually that bonding faded away, we stopped contacting each other; sometimes, very rarely we did, maybe, once in two years. I forgot their faces, voice and even some names just like walking away or like moved on. Sometimes, we meet each other on our way but still their faces changed a lot too making me feel like I am talking to a stranger. Well coming to the new school not only made me miss my old friends but also made me excited about making new friends. In my school, I started studying from Class I skipping KG as I was already advanced my knowledge that time under strict tutoring of my mother.
Well, it was my first day in my new school. I thought that I would be welcoming for them. However it looked like I was an idiot. I was ignored, bullied. I do not know why falling in love at school is a disgrace for our parents or teachers. But you know what, I hardly cared about that because I know I would never fall in love for anyone in my school days. Thus, free from talks of society about this topic. But some spread a rumour about me passing a love letter to a boy whose name I did not even knew, then. And about that love letter don't worry I never wrote that but written by someone else. How funny right! I got scolded by my teachers and my parents for something I didn't do. I could easily tell them the truth. But I was scared. Nobody tried to even listen to me. Who will after all listen to a five-year old kid!
After many days passed, I made a new friend whose name was Amolik, my first ever friend in my section and my class in my new school. We shared our tiffins and, gossiped with each other or even helped each other in studies. But can you tell me how does that mean that we love each other or we think each other as husband and wife? Can a boy and a girl never be friends? Well, except everything else, I always knew my classmates are given a duty to ship others or overthink or make a whole different story about an individual who is or who might be innocent, by any officials . Sometimes, I thought in future they even could become better story-writer or novel-writer or even a detective than anyone else in this world after watching their efforts of making stories about us and their knack to collect information about others. They didn't even leave the teachers out of it. However that friendship was for temporary too. He got transferred to another school in Ranchi because of his father's job in 4th grade. I was lonely again.
(To be continued)