I didn't want that, I can't even think about being his friend anymore, if Luca had been alive and we were together maybe I could've thought about talking to him, but with Luca no more, even the thought of it is scary.
All I wanted was to change the plot of the novel, change the story line, fight the fate that was already written.
And for that I only had to change certain things, and I had started to do so.
I was no longer living in Miller estate, I was no longer the brat of the Miller family, I had started working, I had shifted in my own home, Laurel Miller, I, was no longer the simp chasing Cassian down.
I was successful, every thing I did in lrder to change the plot was a huge success and I was close to fight it, I was ready to win the fight.
It was just marriage with Luca, and it was over, I could've lived a happy life with him.
But no this wasn't how the things went, instead the tables were turned with such a force that even after days I couldn't grab a hold of it.
Despite my hard tries, I was failing, I could feel myself close to my demise...
"Hey! what are you doing here?"
I heard a faint bubbly voice of someone from just outside the room.
Someone was talking Infront of my room, a very similar voice.
"Hmm, just some work what are you doing here?"
It was Cassian who replied.
He was here? I thought he left, what is he still doing here?
"You don't go to hospital just because you have some work?"
The fake innocence filled voice with a hint of cheery whine...oh guess where I had last heard this person.
The very dearest Elodie West is here.
My whole mood was spoiled within a few seconds of realizing who it was.
It wasn't her talking to Cassian, it was the way she TALKED to Cassian and it was a clear and big sign that spelled 'pick me'.
"Is Cecily inside? Let me go and meet her!"
I heard the door knob clink, as the door was opened.
"Wait Elodie stop-" Cassian pleas stopped midway as the door was opened fully and Elodie stood in the doorway.
"Oh! So it's you? Cassian what are you doing here with her?"
Batting her eyes at Cassian she acted all surprised.
"It's none of your business to what I am doing here with her!"
He sounded rough and I was astonished by the way he had replied to her, and not just me even she herself was take back by the response she had gotten to her.
Her eyes widened looking at Cassian as if ahe had seen a ghost.
"W-why are you talking to me like that?"
Her eyes were filled with tears while I sat on the bed staring at both of them, wide eyed.
"Elodie leave!"
His tone remained the same but Elodie, she looked like she was ready to kill anyone behind his gruff behaviour.
She turned to me, giving me a death glare.
"You did it! You are the one who turned him against me didn't you?"
She cried marching towards me totally furious, when Cassian held her hand.
"For god sake Elodie! Snap out of it and go home!"
"Why? so she can manipulate you against me?"
I stared at her wide eyed, staring at them with shock.
Listening the whole ruckus some staff members rushed in.alomg with a few doctors who were most probably roaming in the hall.
"Sir, ma'am, please calm down!"
A nurse stepped up as she tried taking Elodie out, but she pushed the nurse away.
"Yeah now pretend like you are some innocent woman! Do you think no one knows about your reality? Firstly you kept chasing after him but when je didn't reciprocate your feelings you went after Mr. Black! And then killed him later on and now you are again after him?"
All the staff members stood surprised at her statement, while I could see Cassian's face changing colour to bright red full of anger.
"Elodie you better go back home before I call Mr. West and inform him about your behaviour!"
Cassian's threat seemed to work, as she backed away still glaring at me and left the room stomping on the ground with every step she took out of the ward.
My mind still couldn't process everything that had happened just within a few minutes, the nurses, the doctors all of them were giving me weird glances.
As if for them Elodie's words was a bunch of truth stitched up together for her to throw on everyone's faces later on.
I was exasperated, getting tensed feeling them judge me.
My head remained lowered, feeling ashamed eventhough I was innocent, I wasoa murderer, but I had became one...
And it was just a matter of few seconds for Elodie to make me a joke, to declare me as a killer.
Cassian had gotten the hint of what I was feeling as he rushed the staff outside, and came to me.
"Here drink this!"
Handing me a glass filled with water he waited until I had held it.
I took the glass from him, my lips coming in contact with it as I slowly drank it.
My image was tarnished within just a few seconds, all the good things I had done in order to change everyone's perspective about me, everything went in vain.
I gasped while drinking causing me to choke on it.
"Hey! Drink slowly!"
No way! The scene! I had read about today... The scene in which Cassian takes Elodie to the hospital because she is sick and Laurel...she ruins her image just like Elodie did to mine...
No! This ain't making any sense, how can this? Just the characters were swapped but other than that, the scene was exactly the same as described in the novel.
I had calmed down, but my mind had not, until now everything was going on it's own way, just the party was a bit similar to a scene, but that wasn't this clear either...not just the characters, infact everything, had changed but now most of the things were same.
Cassian stood by me for at least 5 more minutes before he was about to walk away.
I have to do it! I need help, and this I think might be the only way.
"Cassian wait!"
I called him out making him stop on his tracks, and turn around.
"Yes?"
"Where would Kalix be right now? Like you did call him to know about me, right?"
Cassian nodded.
I need Kalix, and his support.
"Yeah, he said he was at home today, so probably he would be at your home!"
"Can you drop me there then? I want to talk to Kalix."
"Sure!"
"Then the IV might probably take an hour at least, so can we leave as soon as it is finished?"
"Okay, let's wait till it's done, and yeah are you hungry? Or like do you need anything?"
"No, thank you."
Nodding his head he left the room, leaving me alone again, while I was back to thinking about everything.
It was as if I just needed to give it a time and things would reveal themselves slowly, but what I wanted to do was to fix things right before I lose something else, something important like I had lost Luca.
After I had gotten the complete dosage of the IV, Cassian had gotten my discharge papers signed and then took me to Miller estate.
"Are you not coming?"
I asked as I got down off the car while he remained seated in his place.
"I wish I could, but I have a meeting scheduled and it's really important so I need to attend it, you take care okay?"
I nodded, I wanted to say thank you but couldn't muster up the courage to do so.
And soon he drove away, I walked to the porch as the guards there opened the door for me and I stepped inside the house, from where I could hear loud and clear screams.
It was Katherine, screaming at someone I don't know who.
As I walked in the living area, I saw Katherine sitting on one of the couches, talking to someone on the phone, while she screamed at the cook standing Infront of her, scared and afraid oh her.
Taking in a deep breath I walked towards the stairs, the sole of my shoes clicking against the floor and I walked past by her as if she was not there, gladly she didn't call me out either, eventhough she did got quiet when she spotted me.
At the first floor, I went Infront of Kalix's room and knocked on the door as I heard a small come in and walked inside.
"I do love her, but I don't know-"