What is this?
Oh that's true, I died
I cannot die
No no no no no no
My mum, no no no
This isn't fair
Please whoever is up there, give me one more chance
SYSTEM AWAKENED BY THE INTENSE URGE TO LIVE
System?
Ah yes that's true, I've read about things like this.
Please let me be reincarnated.
Though my only regret would be not saying goodbye to my mother.
My name is Austin, yes I know it's a boring name but that's exactly what I am, a boring 42 year old male.
I live with my mum and I'm an only child from my father or should I say was.
We are not rich but we are comfortable.
Me, my mum, my younger brother Reilly and his daughter Grace.
Grace was born into our lives by the reckless drunk action of my brother, her mother dumped the baby on us and disappeared after because my mum would absolutely not want an abortion and Grace's mother wouldn't want her so after delivery she dumped Grace on us and disappeared.
The only male figure I've had in my life was my neighbour Greg who I'm pretty sure was cheating on his wife with my mum but I really couldn't care less.
They moved when I was entering college.
My dad you ask?
He left when I was four months old, mum says he left to chase his stupid dreams because "he was still too young and this baby would hold him down".
I don't really blame him tho.
It's understandable.
My mum made me swear off women till I was ready to marry them and love them but love is a huge word, I don't think I've felt that way towards anyone.
I work as an intern in a theatre company, you wouldn't believe how much these people pay you to rehearse with the actors. Not crazy much though just enough to get you by plus I only work at night.
Friends?
I've only had 3, Tim from science class in high school, Lara from work here and our neighbour Greg, yes I know but he really was a nice man he just couldn't control his d!ck.
"You look empty like you pretend to be alive" Lara says to me while cleaning up. She always does this, say some profound sh!t. "I don't know, maybe I am empty, what does it mean to be filled, to be fulfilled I just feel that is a personal feeling, if it's a personal thing does that mean even those who are fulfilled are pretenders. So we strive all our lives just to pretend?" Quietness fills the room, then we both burst into laughter. We both have a sick sense of humour that's why we are friends.
Plus it helps we are both high me more than her because today is my birthday.
Yup I clock 41 today, what a life I've lived. I'm still a virgin, who lives with his mother and I have no accomplishments in this life, of course I get high.
We closed by 3 am and were talking about how b!tchy life is, you know like usual. Lara has had two divorces, the first husband was on impulse, she was young, in college and drunk but still decided to stay because he was apparently "cute". Well, it wasn't only her who found him cute and he found someone else cute and it wasn't cute what happened when she found out. Her second husband was perfect, a little too perfect and he was "boring" she found a thrill in her ex-husband and went back to him to cheat on her husband and made her first husband cheat on his new wife, bottom line they are both single now.
"What is that" Lara said then I noticed rain began to fall. "I am wet" I said then I noticed Lara began to laugh and I laughed, it did help we were still kinda high. Then everywhere scattered, everyone started running to look for the nearest shelter.
I bent down to tie my shoe lace, I thought I was at the sidewalk then I saw him, the infamous "truck kun". I was hit and bleeding, I could see my blood, Lara was crying trying to call an ambulance, everywhere was still, quite, fading and becoming blurry. For the first time I did it, I felt something. I didn't want to die, I thought of my mother. What will happen to her, she would have one less mouth to feed. Would she be missing me, no she will be with my brother Reilly, his daughter Grace and my other brother James. I know I didn't mention him before and that's because I don't like him because I blame him for making Greg move, he's Greg's son. Reilly why am I thinking of you in my final moment. I whisper to crying Lara delete my browsing history. She laughed while crying. I didn't know it was possible to do so but at least I saw it before I died.
No no no, I still have a lot to live for, what am I saying I don't want to die
I feel my eye lids become heavy then they opened when I heard a voice
SYSTEM AWAKENED BY THE INTENSE URGE TO LIVE.