The wood creaks under my hands.
The rope is slipping.
My arms are trembling.
I have to get out of here
– she can't just live like everyone else
I will whisper
But I'm going up.
The wind was hitting me full force.
The snow cut my skin.
My frozen fingers slipped, but I held on tight.
Again and again.
Damn
I pause for a second to catch my breath.
Just one
Breathe-
CLAK! .
My hand slips and almost lets go.
I'll get right back to it.
No choice.
Down below… the village.
How shameful it would be to fall after having insisted so much.
They're still looking at me.
They are waiting.
- ha…
I climb faster.
The blood is returning to my fingers, it hurts.
A sharp pain.
Good.
The cabin is close now.
I hold out my hand.
Grab the edge.
Je me hisse.
BAM.
I fall inside.
– phew
I'm breathing heavily.
The wood vibrates under my weight.
Silence.
Then…
– What are you doing here…?
His voice.
I raise my head.
She's here.
Standing.
Calm.
Arms crossed.
She's not helping me.
She doesn't even move.
I turn onto my side.
– Let's talk… Let's talk… I'm here to talk with you
Then I slowly straighten up.
My legs are still trembling but I hold on, sit down and bend them against myself
Didn't they tell you to stay in bed?
– It's not important.
Silence.
She stares at me.
A long time.
Then she breathes.
– speak… do it quickly
I look her straight in the eyes without hesitation.
– Let's get back to the game.
Silence.
The wind is hitting the cabin.
One second.
Two.
Then-
– …You're stupid.
Sec.
Sharp.
I was expecting it a little
She takes a step forward.
– Do you even understand where you are?
I'm not answering.
She gets angry.
– The first time I ignored you, probably because of the three days you were in a coma. You almost died because you were breastfeeding, and this time you have the nerve to come and tell me to my face.
She points at my hands.
My feet.
– Look at yourself!
Pause.
You're already dying, there's no point in dragging us into your suicide and giving us false hope. If you want to die, do it yourself.
I stare at my hands.
- And
It's blocked.
- And ?
– I'm going to throw you into the void.
Silence.
I don't take my eyes off her
– You prefer this illusion? How long did it last? I know I'm being intrusive, but this village is already finished. You don't have to be a genius to notice that; you're just waiting for the end.
His eyes hardened.
– You're really selfish.
I smile slightly.
– For a good cause.
She moves forward again.
– You just arrived here. You haven't seen anything. You haven't understood anything. And you already want to drag everyone into your mess?
I cut it.
– I'm not coaching you.
Pause.
– It's up to you to choose, to die or to survive, I have nothing to gain from it, I'll die soon.
She snickers.
– a choice?
She points to the village below, a sad look rising on her face.
– Do you know how many there were before?
I stare at her.
– Hundreds.
Silence.
– They all thought like you, we were all like that.
She stares at me.
- All.
The wind is whistling.
– You always blame yourself, don't you?
I move closer and put an arm around her.
A handful.
No more.
– LET GO OF ME.
she ordered, moving away from me
Silence.
I turn towards her.
– Because they played by the rules.
She frowns.
– and you might know more about everything
She said bitterly
I take a step towards her
Resuming the maneuver
– They tried.
– They tried to survive.
– But prefers to obey.
Pause.
I stroked his back
– If we can't win by following the rules…
I stare at her.
– Then we will win according to our own.
– finish the game and the solution
Silence
Nothing.
No reaction.
She is right.
– OH YEAH?
approached suddenly.
– A brilliant idea!
In a purely sarcastic tone.
– How come we never thought of that?
She's pushing me away.
It is more stable than expected
– "We're going to break the game"
she continued
– "We're going to change the rules"
– "We'll win in a different way"
She grabbed my collar.
– You think you're the first?
It happens.
She smiled coldly.
– You're not special.
– You're just next.
I look at her.
Continue .
– No.
She frowned, red with anger.
– No ?
– I will succeed.
I added, like a pinch of salt
The wind is hitting harder.
She stares at me.
A long time.
Look for.
Something in my gaze
It's good
– You think so?
Simple.
Direct.
I answer without thinking.
– Yes, because I have nothing to lose.
She breathes a sigh of relief.
– Very well, I understand why you ended up here
I now squeeze his handle.
Hate me even more
I smile.
– I can save you.
She looks at me.
More calmly.
But still tough.
– And you think finishing the game will set you free?
- Yes.
– I did finish it, though.
she murmured.
– You're a kid.
Then she sighs, pushes me away and turns away.
Look outside.
– You really want to go back there…
Not a question.
A finding.
– Yeah, just the way
– Even if you have a one in a thousand chance?
– I only need one.
She closes her eyes for a second.
Think about it.
And
- All right.
I frown.
I just wanted the road
– …hein ?
She turns around.
Calm.
– Let's keep it simple.
She approaches.
– If you manage to win and get back into the game…
Silence.
– Then… we'll follow you.
I remain motionless.
– hein ?
- Serious.
Pause is even better.
"You'll die anyway," she added.
– proves that it is possible.
The wind is howling.
I smile.
– That works for me.
– And how do I recover?
She smiled slightly.
Something cold.
– You are confident.
Pause.
– When you win, you will know.
The wind has almost stopped.
I nod.
– Perfect, I'll leave tomorrow
And I turn back towards the exit.
She doesn't stop me.
Just
– Ki-Moon.
I turn around.
TACK!
– oh..
Pause.
"Have a good trip," she added.
I grab the roll and jump.
No going back