Back on the street.
During challenging moments in my life I often seek refuge in Nature. It's been a while since I have visited the City's Central Park. It spans a very vast area of land.
While walking in the familiar part of the park Serenity has recalled that she has always carried the Invitation Letter received from the psychological rehabilitation facility "Today's Paradise" in her handbag.
Let's check that letter again and see what their main mission is about.
She takes the Invitation Letter out from her handbag and unfolds it.
Mind Integration and Soul Recovery is their mission. What does that even mean? Hmmm, could Disintegrated Mind and Fragmented Soul be the cause of my quasi-constant misperception and misidentification of the external world phenomena? Sounds like a vaguely plausible explanation and quite on a new level. Let me check the map included with the letter regarding the physical whereabouts of the facility. According to the map, the facility is located across the river flanking the park. I have never been to that area before. Let me check it out today. My life is too sad for me alone to handle it. Maybe they at "Today's Paradise" can help me?.. There is the Bridge and it has a name: "Ten Thousand Reasons to Exist". Only a bridge can have ten thousand reasons to exist after being trampled over day and night.
Serenity has reached the end of the Bridge but there were only wild trees, bushes and grass in the area. Nothing even remotely to the area being developed.
"This is clearly the area indicated by the map. Why there is only wilderness and no buildings?
I am so exhausted from these mood swings; from despair to hope and back... Oh, there is some bench over there. Since I am too tired to walk now I might as well rest on the bench for a while and read the very latest book that I bought: "Demonic Romance". "
In the book the famous Therapist recounts the causes that they observed behind the formation of very turbulent and tumultuous romantic relationships. They discussed family dysfunction; children who grow up into broken adults lacking self-esteem or embracing false self-esteem and not knowing their place in the world. Most of them become hyperfocused on forming romantic relationships of their own in order to soothe the Void Within. However, since the offspring shied away from understanding the causes behind parental relationship problems, they were bound to repeat them (parents' mistakes) in their relationships. There are thirty cases in the book detailing the scale of suffering in the romantic relationships. Some get stuck with the "wrong person" for life only to realize that when it's too late to change anything. Others keep passing from one unhappy relationship onto the next eventually turning either into Dispirited Bodies or Disembodied Spirits Roaming the World.
"Disembodied Spirit Roaming the World?.. I have heard that before."
While being absorbed in her newly acquired book Serenity hasn't noticed how the storm clouds have gathered over her head and intense hailstorm started very soon.
"Ouch! What is this thing hitting me?"
She didn't have time to look around. The rain and the hailstones were pouring down from the stormy clouds. Once under a tree.
"It's good that I can shelter under a dense foliage of these huge old trees because an umbrella would be of little help under such circumstances. Oh, where is my book?"
At that moment she noticed how her book left behind on the bench slowly melted and evaporated in the hailstorm.
"Perhaps, it was made from some novel and very ecofriendly material?"
Half an hour later the storm was over. Serenity had to hurry home and treat the hailstone impact areas on her thin skin before they turned into black and blue marks.
The fourth task in the Drawing Manual asked to draw a self-portrait of frontal profile. However, the use of a pencil was prohibited. Instead, a piece of charcoal and a rubber were employed. A piece of white paper had to be evenly covered in charcoal and the rubber was to be used in order to "carve the areas of light" in the dark background.
"What happened to the Divine Emotive Spirit of Lines? In my view, lines are good enough for expressing any form and emotion. What's the need for employing the "messy techniques" as if my life wasn't messy enough? The drawing tasks are certainly stretching the boundaries of my aesthetic beliefs. First of all, I had to draw a subject from an usual to my perspective angle. Next, I had to live-draw an "eyesore likeness" when I naturally prefer drawing all the cute and beautiful things only. Finally, I have to employ what I consider a "messy technique". By this time, "messy" has become a trigger word to me. But I am no longer a quitter!"
"In the beginning there was Darkness..."
"Who has spoken these words?"
"Allow me to introduce myself. I am the Disembodied Spirit Roaming the World."
"Hello. Has the Ghostly Apparition already ghosted me?
"Yes, indeed, Ghostly Apparition has already completed their guidance and have been assigned a new mission. I will be taking over for today."
"Fine, suit yourself. By the way, why is your frequency so similar to one of the cases described in the "Demonic Romance" book?"
"Because that is or rather was my story."
"In that case, Demonic Romance has ended up consuming your life energy and made your Spirit part from your biological body?!"
"Correct, indeed. For so many years I kept roaming the Purgatory World in excruciating pain searching to understand what essentially happened to me and you helped me understand. You helped me heal. Now, that I've healed I have even received permission to incarnate again very soon."
"I don't know what to say... While I don't understand why you wish to return to the world that has caused you so much suffering, I am happy for you and hope that this time you won't have regrets."
"I am here in order to thank you for helping me heal and I am here to help you heal."
"Interesting. I am all ears."
"Not too sure how to communicate this information to you."
"Just share it openly. There is little that can surprise me after all that I have gone through by now."
"I was able to obtain some rather obscure information regarding the source of your misfortunes. This is a gradual process and this knowledge might not be useful right away but, perhaps, one day in the future. In one of your incarnations centuries ago you were born into the Lineage of Astrologers, Numerologists and Shamans. Tempted by the possibility of unlimited Earthly Power, Wealth and Influence promised by the Forces of Darkness they (ancestors) agreed to sell your Soul to the Demon of the Overworld. That's how your Soul became a Demonic Bride and started fragmenting.
Meanwhile, your power hungry ancestors were granted the Forbidden Knowledge that helped them overpower other families. All the thousands of female descendants from your bloodline had to become demonic brides unknowingly via the family rituals imposed by the Forbidden Knowledge including false timelines. Your ancestors had little knowledge about such entity as the Soul."
"I'm not surprised. I know there is a market for clothes, for bags, for beauty products, books, food and other material things but I have never would have thought that there is a market for elements of such nature. Even now, centuries later my understanding of different worlds is very limited."
"Once in the World of Spirits after your embodied life was over, you have learned about the Unspeakable Betrayal of your Soul by your ancestors and chose to leave that particular bloodline. The next time you chose to incarnate in the Lineage of Astronomers, Philosophers and Alchemists instead. Your centuries old ancestors have auctioned your Mind to the highest bidder in exchange for the unlimited Earthly Power, Wealth and Influence. Your Mind has become betrothed to the Demon of the Underworld this time. Since you have become a demonic bride once again your Mind started disintegrating. History repeated itself and all the female descendants (thousands of them) within this bloodline were automatically turned into demonic brides via the family rituals. Following the Forbidden Knowledge made all the descendants unable to see their True Reflection. They were only able to perceive the False Reflection of the Self that they believed to be their true one. In the meantime, all of the male descendants became Soul and Mind Slaves to the Forbidden Knowledge in both of your ancestral lineages."
"The tears started swelling in Serenity's eyes..." slowly stated the Narrator Voice 1.
" Narrator Voice 1, what tears are you talking about? Do not get carried away with literary tropes regarding what comes next in this story. Serenity can no longer cry. All her body fluids: blood, lymph, interstitial fluid have been filled with Demonic Poison, and tears can only be produced from a crystal clear body fluid. Try to focus on a more faithful representation of her earthly journey, alright? You may continue..." Narrator Voice 2 intervened.
Serenity has slowly lowered her head.
"That's why I have been having a feeling as if my destiny has been stolen in this lifetime."
"False timelines and inability to perceive one's true reflection are means via which generational curses propagate. They only allow for the formation of the most unbefitting and self-destructive romantic relationships, i.e., demonic romance.
My time for the next incarnation is approaching fast."
"Please, before you go, one last question. What is the psychological rehabilitation facility "Today's Paradise" and where is it actually located?"
The Disembodied Spirit Roaming the World replied in the process of volatilization.
"It's the world you currently inhabit."