Volume 1: First Love Section Chapter 1 Part 2 (18+)
She'd been drugged once her innocence, her first time, stolen by a boy she barely knew, barely remembered, barely wanted. But since then, her body had changed, had learned, had adapted had become a creature that thrived on shame, on humiliation, on the sheer, forbidden thrill of being penetrated, used, abused, soiled by men who cared nothing for her, who could never feel what Chen Yi felt, never see her as Chen Yi saw her, never touch her, kiss her, hold her, love her with the purity and sweetness Chen Yi was feeling here, now, as he typed, as he imagined, as he dreamed.
And yet, somehow, when another man's cock was inside her, when another man's groans and grunts filled her ears, when her tender, youthful flesh yielded to the demands of a stranger's lust, Lin Qingrou felt something a spark, a shiver, a pulse that was stronger, feral, wilder, and far more addictive than any affection Chen Yi could have offered.
She despised herself for this; she understood, with the clarity of the truly corrupted, what she was, what she'd become, what she could never, ever hope to deserve. But desire was stronger than shame, stronger than guilt, stronger than regret or repentance or reason or hope. And so, as the man slammed his thick, pulsing member into her for the last time, as he buried himself to the hilt, as his cum flooded her, dripping, leaking, overflowing, as he pulled out and left, grunting, swaggering, victorious Lin Qingrou was left, alone, trembling, teary-eyed, aching, dripping, the aftertaste of semen in her mouth, the ache of spent lust in her muscles, the crushing, bone-deep guilt in her soul, and the long, slow realization that she had, for the thousandth time, betrayed her dearest friend, the boy she loved.
Her fingers, her lips, her breath, her every sense, were still tingling, still buzzing, still remembering the pleasure of that brutal, savage, wonderful cock. And now now she would have to face Chen Yi, would have to lie, again, to the boy she longed for, would have to conceal, forever, what she'd just done, what she did, what she would always do, out of weakness, out of addiction, out of something dark and shameful that lived inside her, and would never, ever go away.
Her phone buzzed. Messages from Chen Yi.
"You accepted?"
"So we're together, right?"
"Is it too much for you? Do you want to keep it secret?"
"How about… we go out tomorrow?"
After quite a while, Lin Qingrou finally came out of her inner torment, lifting her somewhat limp arms to look at the message Chen Yi had sent on her phone. Her heart ached, but she still managed a small, charming smile…
"Yeah~ Alright~ ❤️"
On the other side, staring at the message window for ages with no reply, Chen Yi's mind was running wild again was he being too hasty, did Xiao Rou actually not like him, did she agree just to make him feel better, or had she started to dislike him?
Just as he was growing restless and anxious, at last he saw Lin Qingrou's reply. Especially that bright red heart at the end it made Chen Yi's heart jump so violently that all of his earlier worries vanished in an instant, and he suddenly felt that everything was wonderful…
Of course, Chen Yi had no idea that right at the moment he was nervously confessing his feelings, his eternally familiar childhood sweetheart, his heart-thumping first love, was in fact being ravaged, penetrated, and brought to repeated orgasms by a total stranger… and Chen Yi remained completely ignorant of it.
The next day, for once, Chen Yi managed to get up early after a lifetime of struggling to wake up, he spent the entire morning full of excitement, getting ready, constantly checking the time and watching as the hour for his planned date with Lin Qingrou drew closer. Gradually, nerves began to build up inside him.
"I'm going out to play!"
"Going out again! Did you finish your homework?"
"I'll be fine, Mom…"
Finally it was time to head out; Chen Yi, impatient to silence his mother's nagging, burst out the door, and soon saw Lin Qingrou waiting for him by the road…
"You're… so early~"
"Hehe~ Actually, I just got here too~"
"..."
When the two met, after just one exchange, the atmosphere turned awkward. Chen Yi really couldn't understand why this was normally, when they went out together, there was never any weird tension, but with last night's confession, having laid their feelings bare, Chen Yi found it hard to interact with her as he used to. "Um… I ran out of some things, maybe… let's go to the mall?"
It was Lin Qingrou who broke the awkward silence, having impulsively arranged the date without a concrete plan, and Chen Yi, his mind still spinning, did not object it was a relief to finally have a concrete goal.
He had originally imagined they might wander into some clothing shops or look at girls' accessories and trinkets, the sort of romantic scenes he'd only seen in idol dramas. But when they entered the stationery section, Chen Yi looked dumbfounded: for him, writing was writing a piece of paper and a pen sufficed. Why so many shapes, sizes, and pointless variety?
And yet, though he had no particular interest in stationery, watching Lin Qingrou earnestly scan each item with those big, adorable eyes gave him a satisfaction he hadn't felt in ages. Every time she bent down, every subtle motion of her eye, every time she tucked her bangs away, it sent ripples through his heart… The way she looked after meeting him today that pure white shirt above a light blue, knee-length skirt, and those lively open-toe sandals he suddenly realized she'd grown up, somehow, into a true and lovable young woman. He'd taken her presence for granted for years.
"Here~ For you~"
Lin Qingrou's voice snapped Chen Yi back to reality and he found that his adorable childhood friend was holding out a pen to him. Chen Yi, still disoriented, accepted it then saw that Lin Qingrou's other hand held the same type of pen, just in a different color. "Ah… uh… thanks~"
In truth, Chen Yi had never cared what pen he used, but the one she'd handed him now seemed particularly precious.
As the two spent time together despite initial awkwardness they naturally slipped into the old rhythm, and, to everyone else, looked just like any ordinary pair of lovers. No wonder classmates were always teasing them for seeming so intimate…
At lunchtime, the two of them ate at a fast-food place in the mall. Though they'd eaten out together plenty before, this was the first time since officially becoming a couple, and the realization made Chen Yi awkward and stilted. He felt a peculiar self-consciousness even just eating, while Lin Qingrou, always the picture of composure, seemed completely normal. "Hahaha~ You're so weird today! Even eating, you're pretending to be all formal~"
She'd seen right through him. It made him awkward, and that in turn made her giggle. Suddenly, Chen Yi felt a light touch on his leg when he looked down, he saw Lin Qingrou's petite foot in that fancy sandal jostling his. Chen Yi's eyes went wide; the truth was, he had a bit of a foot fetish often more captivated by a pretty foot than a pretty face. Now, for the first time, he realized that his own childhood sweetheart had such beautiful, delicate feet.
Enclosed in the dainty sandal, the revealed arch and toes were like flawless white silk, with a hint of pink. The toes were neat, round, and plump, the nails trimmed perfectly smooth, shining like polished shells…
His heart thudded; he tried to pretend he hadn't noticed, tried to act casual, but that enchanting foot kept drawing his gaze. To think, the owner of those feet was now his girlfriend he was too excited, too rattled to think straight.
"What are you thinking?"
Lin Qingrou waved her hand in Chen Yi's face, snapping him back. The truth was, ever since becoming a couple, he couldn't help losing focus today, it had reached the point where he simply stared dumbly at the table, preoccupied with the image of her foot. She saw nothing on the table; no wonder. Even as he looked away, he was, in fact, peeking at those alluring feet, fighting to control his expression.
Red-faced, Chen Yi looked up, took a deep breath, and, after seeing Lin Qingrou's pretty, smiling face, promptly blushed even deeper. Usually so quick and carefree, now he looked like a complete fool making her nearly double over with laughter.
After lunch, they headed home together. All the way, Chen Yi kept glancing at her feet, then trying to look away. Lin Qingrou, uncertain exactly why, but picking up on his mood, started to sense something instinctively…
When they reached her building, just as they were about to part, Lin Qingrou suddenly raised her head, tiptoed, and kissed him gently soft lips pressed to his. The sudden "attack" left Chen Yi frozen, standing dumbly as Lin Qingrou, cheeks deep pink, hurried into her building.
He just stood there, stunned, lips still tingling. Only after a long moment did he recover, his face contorted from the strain of holding it together. "Aaaaahhhh !"
(Of course, he didn't shout aloud, only in his head.)
Heart pounding, Chen Yi turned away, Lin Qingrou's cheek and the memory of those blushing features replaying in his mind's eye. Though he wanted to pretend nothing had happened, his pace grew faster and faster until he was almost running back home.
Hurriedly, he raced up to his room, replayed the kiss over and over, recalling not just the softness of the lips, but the scent close at hand, and her fluttering, closed eyes. At his desk, he remembered the gift from today a deep blue pen they had both picked out. He put it away in its own compartment, realizing it now meant much more to him than any mere writing tool.
Though he'd sat down at his desk, supposedly to do homework, a first date, a first close look at his childhood friend, a first real kiss how could he possibly concentrate? An hour passed, and he had barely written a line.
"Ah, forget it…"
He stood up and leapt onto the bed, rolling over and wrapping himself in the covers, unable to suppress his grin, even giggling a little from excitement. Anyone watching would have thought him ridiculous laughing himself silly under a blanket like that. But for Chen Yi, the world at that moment was utterly, unbelievably wonderful.
When at last the giddiness slowly faded, he stuck his head out, staring at the ceiling and replaying every moment of the day. As the heat faded and his mind regained calm, the memory of his silly behaviors through the date began to embarrass him spacing out, staring, all those dumb moments… Just thinking of them left him cringing so much he wanted to disappear into a hole.
"How ahhhh, why am I like this!"
He kept replaying every detail of their date, cringing at each awkward move, yet couldn't stop the obsessive cycle of memory, muttering, sighing, regretting…
Abruptly, the stream of muttered embarrassment was cut off and his face froze. His heart instantly sped up and his cheeks flushed hot he remembered, in vivid detail, his view beneath the table at the fast food place: Lin Qingrou's legs drifting, her delicate feet in fancy sandals.
The things that had just happened today, he replayed in his mind as clear as day. His pulse quickened, his breathing grew rough; those idle, beautiful feet, almost glowing like translucent jelly, smooth and delicate, popped up in his mind like… strawberry milk pudding.
Just that mental picture left him paralyzed on the bed, chest heaving, hot breath pouring from his lips.
That beautiful skin, those elegant lines, the spotless, neatly trimmed nails, the slight curve of her arch, even her delicate ankles every detail made Chen Yi burn with desire and he imagined, unbidden, what it would feel like to taste them, to have them pressed to his face, even stepping on his body, her pretty toes teasing his hardness… The images compounded until he couldn't help himself. Hands trembling, he undid his belt and slipped off his pants, picturing those feet his childhood sweetheart's feet on him, using his hand to stroke himself…
He imagined holding those tiny feet, bringing them to his face, breathing in their scent, then putting her soft toes into his mouth, tasting them. The fantasy pushed him to the limit; combined with the thought that she was his girlfriend, it overwhelmed him. The pleasure was raw, more intense than anything he'd ever felt from porn or novels.
"Ngghh… ah, ah, ah…"
At last, unable to control himself a second longer, spurts of white sticky liquid shot from his tip, soiling his hand and the bedsheets.
He breathed heavily, heart still pounding. Looking at the sticky mess, a faint sense of guilt filled him. Compared to watching strangers' feet in videos, to have just used his own beloved's feet as stroke material felt wrong, even if she was now his lover it was a secret, dirty pleasure, and he felt uneasy.
Quickly, he cleaned himself up, washed his hands, and tried to calm down. But underneath, the surge of desire had only been hidden, not truly erased.
Returning to his desk, maybe because of guilt, Chen Yi sat down and tried to focus on homework again. But his brain, post-release, was still not fit for heavy work, and the difficult assignments left him stumped, flipping, scratching his head, sighing, resorting in the end to searching for answers online a cycle that continued for quite some time.
Even after this, his productivity was low. Suddenly his phone rang, and seeing it was Lin Qingrou calling, his face flushed; he'd just been thinking of her feet. His responses on the call were a bit unnatural.
"H-hello? W-what's up?" he answered, his voice uncertain.
Lin Qingrou's gentle voice came through: "Um… nothing, just wanted to ask if you're really working on your homework?"
In the past, Chen Yi would have found this question annoying and ended the chat quickly, but now, as a couple, he realized the content wasn't important just hearing her voice made him happy and satisfied.
"Yeah~ I'm working on homework right now… just going slowly… and… thinking about you…" (the last part getting quieter).
Even though it was his first relationship, from dramas and descriptions, he knew how couples would have long talks late at night. He'd never done this before, but now that his feelings were clear, he too wanted to experience it. Thank goodness she called; it was the perfect excuse to just talk for a long time.
On the other side, Lin Qingrou was surprised to hear that kind of sweet talk from Chen Yi, especially since she'd been with so many men in secret, but had never dated someone she liked for real. It made even her cheeks go red.
"Hehe… even though we were together all day, I… I miss you too~"
So the two enjoyed the sweetness of first love, like all ordinary couples.
The next morning, Chen Yi went straight to the library. The night before, while chatting, they'd agreed to go there together to do homework. Chen Yi arrived sleepy, but Lin Qingrou looked energetic, the same as always. He wondered how she managed to look so lively, even with the same amount of sleep.
The library was quiet, plenty of space, easy to find a good spot. Chen Yi rarely came here, but Lin Qingrou seemed at home, immediately opening her books and starting to study. Chen Yi took out his homework and pretended to work, but his thoughts were wholly absorbed by the girl across from him yesterday's clothes, upright posture, her head bent over studying, the light in her eyes and those trembling strands of hair… he quickly forgot his homework.
Seeing Lin Qingrou like this, dressed in girlish, lively clothes, she looked even more attractive. She was always cute in uniform, but now she was undeniably alluring. Chen Yi fell into a daze, lost in everything about her.
Sitting across from her in the silent library, watching, he suddenly remembered his musings from the night before he was just starting to fall in love, yet already fantasizing about her. His heart fluttered with guilt and yearning. Without even realizing it, he began to slowly pull his chair back, his gaze traveling lower and lower until, finally, her feet appeared in his line of sight.
Those elegant feet, so smooth-skinned and perfectly shaped, held his gaze entirely. Now, with the sun streaming through the window, her toes seemed to glow like polished jade. Chen Yi felt his face heat with excitement, his breathing growing heavier. He couldn't help but imagine what it would feel like to touch them, to hold them, to love them…
"Hey! What are you staring at~?"
Lin Qingrou snapped the book down on his desk, her sweet voice half-playful, half-scolding. Chen Yi snapped back to himself and quickly pretended to focus on his homework, but his mind was clearly elsewhere.
Lin Qingrou, perplexed, glanced toward where Chen Yi had been looking, but saw nothing strange only her own feet.
"…?"
She moved her feet, her toes wiggling delicately; Chen Yi caught it from the corner of his eye and hurriedly looked away, forcing himself to act unconcerned.
Lin Qingrou's eyes suddenly widened as if she'd realized something, darting repeatedly between her own feet and Chen Yi's face, finally narrowing her eyes and giving him a meaningful smile.
She leaned in, her face close, and Chen Yi, nervous, leaned back avoiding her gaze. Softly, in his ear: "Were you looking at my feet?"
He didn't answer, staring out the window.
"Do you like them~?"
Still no reply, but Chen Yi's shifting gaze and red face spoke for him.
"If you like them so much, why not just tell me? I already am your girlfriend, right~?" She finished in a sing-song voice.
Just then, Chen Yi felt something strange at his feet. Looking down, he was amazed at some point, Lin Qingrou had slipped off her sandals, and her cute, clean bare foot was now resting on his shoe. Even separated by the shoe, he could feel their warmth and softness, and his heart leapt.
"So my feet are that attractive to you~?"
Even though Chen Yi didn't say a word, his body's reaction was honest: he couldn't look away. Lin Qingrou, with a teasing smile, lifted one delicate white leg, her adorable toes stroking up Chen Yi's calf and all the way to his knee. The touch was light, but electrifying, and Chen Yi sat stiffly, staring at her lovely feet.
In the end, Lin Qingrou's pale, pinkish feet rested lightly on Chen Yi's thigh; the faint pressure and subtle scent made him feel like he was dreaming.
"Hey~ Don't forget, we came to the library to study~"
"Uh? Oh! Right…" Lin Qingrou's voice jolted him back, and realizing his state, he blushed deeply, wishing he could hide somewhere. Forcing himself to calm down, he looked at his homework again, and Lin Qingrou enjoyed the scene immensely. Seeing his never-before-seen embarrassed expression, she almost felt bad teasing him, so she pretended not to notice and continued studying.
But it was clear: though he stared at the page, his mind was wholly distracted. The soft weight of those toes on his thigh, their heat his heart pounded wildly.
Every so often, he stole a glance at her face those serious eyes, those quivering lashes. He knew she wanted him to study seriously, but it was perfectly impossible now. After a while, she even began to hum a tune, her soft voice and swaying legs adding to the playful, charming scene. But all the while, her feet rested on his thigh, slowly rocking back and forth, making his heart tremble and his desire well up even further.
Unable to help himself, Chen Yi, with his right hand pretending to write, slowly moved his left toward her foot…
The instant his fingers touched her, she reflexively jerked away, and Chen Yi looked up quickly, pretending nothing had happened, eyes skittish.
But she didn't look angry; in fact, if anything, she was blushing. Chen Yi, understanding that she wasn't upset, calmed down and pretended to keep working, feeling a little regretful for being reckless but then, soon enough, he felt that soft touch again on his thigh. Lin Qingrou had placed her foot there once more.
Surprised, he looked up at her, and she was still looking down though, after a brief, embarrassed glance, she blushed and glanced away quickly, resuming her façade of serious study. Her shy, girl-like manner made his heart flip. He looked down at her feet again did this mean she didn't dislike him touching them? Was she giving him permission?
His thoughts tangled; as soon as the chance presented itself again, he couldn't suppress his urge. Carefully, tentatively, he reached out once more…
This time, when his fingers touched her, her foot flinched a little then quickly settled back. Her toes curled, betraying a bit of tension, but she made no move to stop him. Slowly, Chen Yi spread his fingers, taking hold of Lin Qingrou's beautiful foot. Its soft smoothness was intoxicating. Delicate, springy, almost like he was holding a warm, water-filled balloon. He ran his fingers along the arch, around the toes, savoring every contour and line, with a faint scent wafting up that left him dazed.
"You're already allowed to touch me~ Now do your homework too…"
Her voice snapped him from his reverie, and suddenly he realized he'd been smiling like an idiot, jaw slack, lost in pleasure which was, frankly, not a great look. Chen Yi, usually so carefree, actually cared a lot about how he appeared, so he quickly let go and rubbed his cheek, trying to regain his composure.
"Ah! So fragrant…" (his true feelings).
But unable to resist, he grabbed her foot again, replying, "Okay, okay, all right!" Though, truthfully, there was no way he could focus now, immersed as he was in the touch of her feet, but he tried to maintain his act for her sake.
When he'd absentmindedly rubbed his cheek with the hand that had touched her foot, the faint scent lingered, sending a thrill through him. The smell wasn't strong or sweaty, just a hint of natural body scent and, perhaps, floral-scented detergent he actually liked the faint aroma, finding it intoxicating.
When they left the library, Chen Yi was still in a reverie, and Lin Qingrou noticed, smiling shyly at how much he'd been affected by her feet. Even if his homework progress was woeful, she found she couldn't get angry… in fact, his enthrallment made her feel an innocent, girlish delight.
Back home, Lin Qingrou found herself thinking about what had happened at the library her face burning, but with a happiness she hadn't expected. Why was it feet? Did he really like them that much?
Though she'd known about foot fetishes for some time (having encountered more than a few guys with such preferences), she'd never cared until the boy she liked confessed that he was a foot lover. Now, knowing it was him, her heart fluttered with a strange, wonderful feeling.
"Hehehe~"
She giggled, remembering Chen Yi's silly open-mouthed stare, how he'd nearly drooled all over her feet. Both of them were, really, a pair of fools lost in the throes of first love.
But very quickly, the smile on Lin Qingrou's face faded. After all, she alone knew exactly what had happened in her life…
It had been this way recently: The happier she was with Chen Yi, the more frequently memories rose in her mind about that period she wished she could forget most of all…
About a year ago, soon after entering high school, Lin Qingrou had gone with some classmates to a party. Having always been the "model child," she'd never set foot in a place like a KTV. She wasn't used to those environments or used to socializing, so she stayed alone in a corner the whole night, but the atmosphere didn't actually bother her she enjoyed people-watching. Coincidentally, her childhood friend Chen Yi, with whom she'd grown up and even entered high school together, was also there, but he'd gotten carried away and was drunk and already passed out on the couch with the other boys.
As the guys dropped off one by one and the girls started leaving, Lin Qingrou stayed, waiting for Chen Yi to wake up. Sitting prim and proper, out of place, she looked very conspicuous. At this point, a tall boy came over; he wasn't from her class, probably a friend of a classmate. There were plenty of people at the gathering who'd come along with friends, so she didn't know him, but he acted very friendly, striking up conversation with her.
Looking at the passed-out Chen Yi, the boy guessed that Qingrou and Chen Yi couldn't be ordinary friends if a withdrawn girl like her always gravitated toward him. He asked if they were dating. At the time, Lin Qingrou had begun developing some feelings, but nothing clear or official; of course, they weren't boyfriend-girlfriend yet. She answered honestly, and the boy's face showed no reaction; he simply chatted idly, like he was bored.
After a while, the boy got up and left, returning shortly with two drinks that looked like juice. Everything about his words and behavior seemed natural as he set one in front of her, talking in that worldly-wise way about "making friends." At the time, Lin Qingrou was so naïve that she didn't even suspect anything, thanked him, and accepted his "kindness." Even now, she couldn't help but cringe at her own stupidity. Looking back, that drink must have tasted different from any fruit juice she'd ever had of course, it was alcohol, but it wasn't strong, not pungent, actually pretty easy to swallow, so she didn't mind the flavor at all.
She hadn't finished a whole glass before, never having drunk before as a "good girl," Lin Qingrou simply got legitimately drunk…
After she lost consciousness, she felt as if she were dreaming a jumble of ungraspable images, pain, and strange sensations she'd never felt before.
When Lin Qingrou woke up, she found herself in a hotel room, naked. Shocked, vision foggy, she didn't react immediately; after a long time she regained her senses. Looking down: her naked body, red streaks between her legs, a mess of unfamiliar, sticky white fluid around her pussy Lin Qingrou suddenly realized she had lost her virginity…
There was still thick semen inside her. Apparently, her rapist hadn't even worn a condom. Unbelievably, the part of herself she'd unconsciously saved for the boy she cared for was just… gone. She'd been drugged by a stranger at a party, taken to a hotel, raped, and on her very first time… creampied.
Realizing what had happened, Lin Qingrou didn't rush to leave. She simply couldn't accept it, and broke down sobbing, crying through the entire night. The next morning, when sunlight broke through her window, she dressed and left the hotel in a daze, remembering she hadn't gone home all night.
Back home, unable to lie, she worried her parents would suspect something. She tried to think of a plausible excuse but her mind was blank; even now she can't remember what she blurted out. Apparently, her parents didn't notice anything just asked hurriedly about homework and school.
For the next two days, Lin Qingrou locked herself in her room not even crying anymore after sobbing herself dry all night long. She simply slipped into a low mood, absentmindedly writing homework as usual. Her parents came to check on her, but seeing their usual "good" daughter, they relaxed, and so, until this day, no one knows about what happened… This incident has haunted Lin Qingrou ever since.
The first person she thought of after realizing she'd been raped was her childhood friend. She didn't know why thinking of him just broke her heart all over again. Near the start of school, her spirit broken, close to a breakdown, she wasn't sure what she might do but Chen Yi came to her house, dragged her out, babbling with that "clear-eyed stupidity" of his, "School's about to start! If you don't come out and play soon, you won't get another chance!" That remains vivid in her memories to this day…
Even though her heartbreak nearly destroyed her, some time after the incident, Lin Qingrou found her body starting to change in ways she didn't understand. One day, she absentmindedly slipped her hand between her legs and touched herself there for the first time…
She didn't understand why: even though she hated sex, her body just couldn't help craving it. She thought she'd have to bottle it up and bear it forever, but when she met the same boy who'd gotten her drunk at the KTV, her body suddenly tingled with desire before she knew it, she was lured off with just a few words.
From then on, Lin Qingrou simply accepted that she was born lewd, little by little addicted to carnal pleasure, addicted to "socializing." As long as her grades remained high… nobody would ever suspect. She started meeting all kinds of people, all sorts of men, going to hotels with them; taking off her clothes for strangers, spreading her legs and letting them invade her. That portion of feeling she'd never revealed the piece she'd buried deepest she just covered over and went on.
Now, Lin Qingrou never imagined she'd ever end up together with the childhood friend who looked out for her; never imagined she'd become his girlfriend and experience the fluttering of an ordinary girl's first love. But as soon as things quieted down, these memories returned, making her feel undeserving…
Buzzzzz…
Just as Lin Qingrou was lost in her depressed thoughts, her phone suddenly vibrated on the table. Quickly, she grabbed it; seeing that Chen Yi was calling, despite feeling so low inside, she couldn't help her lips curling into a smile.
"Hello?"
"Xiao Rou! You, you… did you do your homework?" The moment she answered, she heard Chen Yi's anxious, flustered voice on the other end.
"Hm? Me? Yeah, it's done~ Why… uh…"
As Lin Qingrou was about to ask what happened, she suddenly realized the problem. They'd spent the whole day together she'd seen everything Chen Yi did, and as for his homework… he hadn't done even a single word!
"I'm doomed… what am I gonna doooo?"
Hearing his despair and misery, Lin Qingrou, barely recovered from her melancholy, couldn't help but giggle softly. "Well who told you to… you know… ehehe~ Anyway, not my fault~ Oh, and don't even think about copying from me~ No way~" After hearing this, Chen Yi let out another wail on the other end, and Lin Qingrou, listening to him, couldn't hide the smile from her face. "But if there are questions you can't do, just read them out loud and I'll explain them to you~"
"Thank you, fair maiden! I'll never forget this debt! Lady of great beauty and kind heart! In my next life I'll be your ox or your…." Chen Yi babbled excitedly, then suddenly stopped, reconsidered, and said, "Um… or, uh… how about I pay with my body, then?"
"Hahahahahaha !"
Chen Yi's oddball train of thought made Lin Qingrou laugh herself completely out of her earlier gloom, and even covering her mouth with her delicate hands couldn't stifle her laughter.
The next morning, as expected, Chen Yi, who'd stayed up late catching up with homework, looked exhausted. The two went to school together; despite his fatigue, at least the homework was finally done. After handing in his work, Chen Yi immediately slumped over his desk, eyes barely open. Lin Qingrou, seeing him like this, couldn't decide if it was funny or exasperating.
Just before class started, as Chen Yi was dozing, Lin Qingrou suddenly noticed something outside the classroom that startled her a familiar boy was waving her over. She went red, looking conflicted, but in the end, got up and left the classroom.
Outside was the same school bully who'd once had sex with her in the gym's supply room. He was the only one in the school who knew her real face, and ever since he'd gotten this dirt on Lin Qingrou, had used it to coerce her over and over. Back then, Lin Qingrou didn't care; it was just sex, so whatever. But now, after getting together with Chen Yi, she felt extremely awkward and guilty every time she saw this guy. Even so, after holding back her desires for so long, her patience was almost exhausted. Though wracked with guilt and shame, she still followed him out…
Ring ring ring… When the annoyingly shrill school bell went off, Chen Yi struggled to wake, raised his head, and turned to see Lin Qingrou at her seat, completely unaware she'd ever left…
In math class, Chen Yi listened as the teacher droned on about formulas and jargon no regular person would ever use in real life a lecture he simply couldn't get into. His attention drifted; despite promising himself to focus and not let his girlfriend outpace him, he quickly grew drowsy.
Just before nodding off, a glance at Lin Qingrou made him notice something strange she, usually so upright and attentive, was now beet red, her body hunched, clutching her soft lips with trembling fingers, her eyes glossed over, seeming frail and pitiful as if struggling to endure something. Chen Yi, having never seen her like this, immediately sensed something wrong and gently tapped her slim shoulder. "Hey? What's wrong? Are you okay? Not feeling well?"
Startled, Lin Qingrou's whole body trembled, and she looked up at Chen Yi, her face even redder from the concern. "Is it your stomach? Or is it… period pain? Don't be embarrassed about that! Teacher !"
Convinced she was embarrassed about something girly, Chen Yi immediately stood up and asked for the teacher's permission to take Lin Qingrou to the infirmary. Surprised by his sudden action, she tried to grab him to stop, but too late. With the teacher's nod, Chen Yi took her out…
Lin Qingrou had no choice but to go with him. Actually, what Chen Yi didn't know was that hidden inside his beloved's little pussy was a remotely-controlled vibrating egg, currently buzzing crazily…
Sitting quietly was already intensely stimulating, but walking down the hallway made it even worse the friction of her thighs pressed the vibrator even tighter inside her. Every step brought a jolt like electricity through her. "Don't rush no worries I'll help you walk slowly…"
Hearing Chen Yi's unexpectedly gentle and patient voice, Lin Qingrou was moved, yet wracked with guilt. Normally so careless, he could also be attentive at just the right moment, and that only made her self-blame more intense. The more she suffered inside, the more sensitive her body became. She barely managed to walk; even if she wanted to take the vibrator out, with the chastity belt locking it in, she couldn't do it herself.
Leaning on Chen Yi, her sensitive body ever more tortured by the constant vibrations, Lin Qingrou felt both moved and helpless. "Why so attentive now, of all times!" She simply followed his lead to the infirmary, panicking over what excuse she could use if the nurse found out she was hiding a vibrating egg inside her. Lying was not her forte, and her mind scrambled with worry.
The moment Chen Yi pushed open the infirmary door, Lin Qingrou's heart leapt into her throat. A thousand scenarios flashed through her mind discovery, shame, parent calls, expulsion, the truth revealed… But to her relief, the school nurse's office, as everyone knew, was pretty much for show a couple of beds and shelves of old medicine, but no staff. In her despair, Lin Qingrou realized the place was empty, and the relief made her want to cry.
"Where does it hurt? Stomach? Period cramps? Just a cold? Uh… Fine, I'll get the nurse!" Chen Yi hurriedly helped her onto a bed, doting over her as she absentmindedly clutched her stomach. Remembering he couldn't actually help with her pain, he started to rush out to get help, but Lin Qingrou quickly grabbed his wrist, stopping him in time.
"I… I'm fine… much better now…"
Still seeing her flushed, weak face and squinted eyes, Chen Yi remained concerned. As he was about to scold her for playing tough, Lin Qingrou interrupted, "Really, I'm much better… I… I just want you to stay with me for a while~"
Given that, Chen Yi couldn't refuse. He gently held her small, smooth hand, threading his fingers with hers as he sat beside her, speaking softly, "Alright… but if you really feel bad, please, tell me, don't be embarrassed~"
"Mhm~ heehee~"
With Chen Yi there, Lin Qingrou finally relaxed. To keep him from suddenly running out for a nurse, she squeezed his hand tighter. Feeling the soft, delicate warmth, even with Lin Qingrou still pale, Chen Yi couldn't help getting flustered, especially seeing her sweaty, blushing forehead. Just then, Lin Qingrou quietly pulled up the tidy blanket and covered herself, partly to muffle the now-obvious humming of the vibrator, which was much more noticeable in the quiet infirmary than in the bustling halls.
Clatter, thud. The sound of Lin Qingrou taking off her shoes echoed in the quiet room. She figured: since I'm here anyway, I'll just lie down and wait for class to end. All she wanted was to get the vibrating egg switched off.
As she lay there wracked with guilt, Chen Yi watched as Lin Qingrou's slender fingers untied her shoes and revealed those dainty feet. Once her perfect little feet were out of her sneakers, Chen Yi stared in awe at his girlfriend's feet. They were wrapped in pure white, adorable socks trimmed with a cute bear near the hem. He couldn't see her skin, but even covered, their flawless curves showed through. Wrapped up in those innocent socks, her feet were almost a living embodiment of the sweet next-door-girl fantasy. Chen Yi, entranced, regretted not appreciating her feet sooner.
On the bed, Lin Qingrou kept her legs pressed together, trying to relieve the torture of the vibrator. But with the chastity belt, it was impossible to get enough stimulation; on the other hand, she couldn't ignore it either, which only made her feel more wound up…
Noticing Chen Yi blankly staring, Lin Qingrou followed his gaze and, sure enough, at the end of his line of sight her feet.
"Chen Yi~"
Her milky sweet voice startled Chen Yi back to himself. Looking at Lin Qingrou, realizing she was sick and he'd been lost in lewd thoughts, he flushed with guilt. "Ah! Sorry…"
His embarrassed apology and proper posture made Lin Qingrou feel a pang. She truly liked Chen Yi and was so glad he was her boyfriend, yet at this very moment, inside her was another man's toy, and she'd spread her legs for other men, taking them into her most secret place. Yet this boy, whom she liked most, apologized just for looking at her feet. Of course, mature as she was, she understood fetishes. When she found out Chen Yi liked her feet, she was surprised but not at all disgusted and seeing his reaction now only made her feel even more guilty.
"It's fine~ Look all you want~ You can touch if you like, I'm not that uncomfortable~" Lin Qingrou lifted her head and put on the gentlest smile she could muster. The vibrator made it a little forced, and maybe she realized it herself so as not to worry Chen Yi, she quickly added, "It actually feels pretty good when you touch my feet~"
After saying this, a wave of embarrassment and the stimulation between her legs made her face blush even redder. She bowed her head, unable to meet his gaze, not quite able to understand why she was so flustered, especially since she'd had her feet played with by plenty of other men without a hint of shyness, yet in front of this boy she cared for, she practically wanted to flee…
"R-really?!"
"Mhm~"
Given permission, Chen Yi couldn't hold back, reaching with excitement for her cute white-socked feet. The softness of cotton against delicate skin, combined with the warmth inside those sneakers, made Chen Yi's heart flutter. Even without direct contact, just the light barrier made his fingers tingle.
Lin Qingrou felt his big hands kneading her feet, and, looking over, saw Chen Yi leaning closer and closer. This made her a little nervous. "Umm… it's hot in the shoes… they might be a little stinky…"
Hearing this and seeing her bashful face, Chen Yi was stirred to the core. He blurted, "No! I love it like this it smells so good!"
Such an honest answer made Lin Qingrou's heart beat faster, even though she'd experienced so much. In a tiny voice, she whispered, "If you like it… then do as you want~"
A bit later, Chen Yi leaned even closer, so that she could actually feel his breath on her soles. Unlike the floral scent after a bath in the library, her feet now had a light sweatiness from the sneakers. But for Chen Yi, that only made them more special; he actually found the scent too faint, wishing he could, someday, experience an even stronger aroma…
Just having those feet to hold, smell, and play with overwhelmed him with desire; soon, he couldn't hold it in and asked, "Xiao Rou… can I lick them?"
"Um? What "
His voice was quiet, and since Lin Qingrou was distracted by the toy in her, she didn't catch it, so she asked again in confusion. This gave Chen Yi cold feet, but after seeing her innocent, questioning look and feeling the warmth of her feet in his hands, he clenched his teeth and asked, "I want to lick… your feet… can I…?"
Again, his confidence trailed off, but this time Lin Qingrou picked up on it. "Huh? Uh… sure~ Of course, you're my boyfriend after all~"
Truthfully, she found it odd guys with a foot fetish would lick her feet during sex, but always as part of foreplay. Having Chen Yi make such a request on its own caught her completely off-guard. Yet seeing his eager face, she instantly agreed.
"R-really?!"
Chen Yi's face lit up with joy, his excitement overcoming all shyness. To Lin Qingrou, it seemed a little strange that something so ordinary made him so happy.
"Mmm… as long as you don't mind…"
"Don't mind I love it! How could I mind?"
Chen Yi was giddy, forgetting all embarrassment as he grabbed her soft, pretty socked feet, pressing his face into them.
"Sss… ha~"
Chen Yi pressed his face into the soles, nose wedged in the arch, inhaling deeply, utterly intoxicated. Seeing him so enraptured made Lin Qingrou shy even though she'd had her feet licked during sex, she'd never seen someone so lost, so obsessed, like Chen Yi was at that moment.
"Can… can I take the socks off?"
"Hehe~ Sure~ However you like~"
Watching Chen Yi's delighted sniffing and his hopeful question, Lin Qingrou felt genuinely happy. He quickly peeled off her socks, savoring how her pinkish, smooth skin was gradually revealed like undressing his beloved bit by bit.
"I… can really lick them?"
"Mhm~ Please enjoy~" Lin Qingrou, blushing, said "please enjoy" in a way that made Chen Yi's whole body tingle. At last, consumed by excitement, he lowered his head and started licking Lin Qingrou's delicate bare feet…
Chen Yi buried his face in her milky white feet, tongue slowly gliding over her smooth soles. In the summer heat, even without much walking, a light sheen of sweat covered them. Pressing his face in, rubbing and nuzzling, Chen Yi felt only thrill and yearning, wishing every pore could be soaked with the sweat of the girl he loved.
His lips and tongue caressed and kissed her feet with excitement and care. To Chen Yi, Lin Qingrou was a pure, precious girl. Afraid of seeming too eager, he tried to rein it in, unaware that contrary to his image of her she had already been used by much cruder men, who violated her white, slender body again and again…
"Mmm!"
Feeling his tongue, Lin Qingrou gasped involuntarily, her feet trembling a sensation she never expected. Other men had licked her feet, but always while their cocks pounded her pussy, making her climax so much she hardly noticed her feet. But now, for the first time, as she watched Chen Yi intently licking her, she felt every touch, every movement, with surprising pleasure.
Watching her beloved boyfriend lick her, every trace of his tongue on her sensitive soles turned into a thrill, and with the vibrator buzzing between her legs, her arousal only grew…
"Nnnn… mmmnn…" Unknowingly, a small moan escaped her lips.
"What's wrong? Is it uncomfortable?" Chen Yi quickly raised his head, worried.
Lin Qingrou, blushing, shook her head. "No… it feels… really good~"
Her voice was tiny, her feet trembling faintly. Chen Yi just thought it was because it was her first time being treated this way, or maybe, as she said, because it simply felt good.
In any case, he had no suspicions, so he lowered his head and continued licking, but Lin Qingrou was increasingly unable to stand the strain. As she enjoyed her boyfriend's licking, she slipped a hand beneath the blanket and into her pants, desperately trying to reach past the chastity belt to touch herself hoping for even a little more stimulation.
Suddenly, Chen Yi felt something press against his crotch. Looking down, he saw Lin Qingrou's dainty white hand, through his pants, resting on his now-obvious bulge!
"You're all hard… isn't it uncomfortable?"
Chen Yi's mind went blank. Though they'd known each other forever, they had never done anything like this. Now Lin Qingrou was taking the initiative and touching his cock?! He watched her cheeks turn red, eyes downcast, sneaking little glances at him the cuteness was overwhelming, making his heart pound out of his chest.
"When guys get hard like this, it must feel bad, right? You like licking feet… so keep going~ I'll… I'll help you…"
As she spoke, Lin Qingrou undid his belt and slid her hand into his pants, her touch both ice-cool and delicate. Chen Yi, stunned, couldn't believe they'd gone from dating to this in just a few days. Was it because they'd been close for so long? Or had he done something he wasn't aware of that made Lin Qingrou agree so quickly?
His mind spun with theories, none satisfying, but he didn't care anymore if this was a dream, he would savor every second of it.
He gave up thinking, letting himself feel Lin Qingrou's slender hand stroking his heated cock, each stroke filling him with electric excitement, while he buried his face again into her beloved feet, licking and kissing hungrily.
The feeling of his tongue on her feet made Lin Qingrou's soles curl, then relax again. She'd never realized her feet were so sensitive. Sitting up against the headboard, she looked down at him, licking her feet, while her hand in his pants gently stroked up and down. She could feel his inexperienced cock twitching in her hand; this side of him a shy, trembling novice, not a cruel "punisher" made her smile as she stroked him, savoring the innocent pleasure.
"Darling~ does that feel good~?" Lin Qingrou bent forward, her face close to his, whispering. In the haze of first love, she didn't realize she'd started calling him "darling" out loud.
"Ssslurp… ahh~ Mmm… it's great!" Of course, with his mouth full of toes and his cock in her hand, Chen Yi was in heaven. "Are your feet tasty, too?"
"Mhm! I love them~"
"Hehe~ as long as you're happy~"
Every reply from Chen Yi was subconscious now; he had no energy left to think only to kiss and tongue her beautiful bare feet. His tongue trailed from the arch down to her delicate toes.
He sucked each one into his mouth, tonguing and tickling between the toes, licking every crevice, savoring the faint salty sweetness of her skin, filling himself with her every taste.
"Darling~ I love you~" Lin Qingrou gently stroked Chen Yi's hard, inexperienced cock with one hand and whispered into his ear. She meant it from the endless days together, she'd fallen hard for this goofy boy. If it weren't for him barging into her room and dragging her back to life, she wouldn't even be in this world anymore…
But the more she loved this careless boy, the more her body responded, the more clearly she felt the vibrator buzzing in her pussy, the more she was ashamed she could only give him her feet and hand, while letting other men use her body…
Regret, guilt, resentment, shame, betrayal these feelings twisted in her chest, but her body only grew more sensitive, the forbidden pleasure rising with her shame.
"Nnnnnnnnghhhh!"
Ring ring ring…
Just as Lin Qingrou was about to climax, the class bell startled her out of the haze. Only then did it hit her: just a few days into their relationship and she was already jerking off her boyfriend at school. If it were anyone else, she wouldn't have cared being called dirty, being used, meant nothing to her; but Chen Yi was different. She truly cared how he saw her.
Fumbling, she pulled her cool hand from his pants as the bell rang. Chen Yi, also panicked, realized he'd lost control and been too greedy with her feet. The sudden stop left his cock throbbing painfully, just shy of climax.
"Uhh! N-no… that's not… I…"
Flustered, Lin Qingrou tried to explain, but upon meeting Chen Yi's confused gaze, her mind went blank. "I-I'm much better now! I'm ok, really, thank you…" In the end, unable to handle it, she jumped off the bed, face covered, and fled the room, while Chen Yi sat staring after her, still lost in their dreamlike scene…
[After Class, In the Restroom…]
When Chen Yi left, he couldn't find any sign of Lin Qingrou and had no idea where she'd gone, so he headed for the restroom. The passing of the class bell coincided perfectly. Lin Qingrou's panicked withdrawal of her hand had left Chen Yi right at the edge, unable to climax, which was practically torture that feeling of nearly finishing, only to be cut off. It was more than he could bear. Even though he felt a bit guilty about fantasizing about his beloved girlfriend and masturbating, he couldn't hold back any longer and, burning with apology in his heart, snuck into a stall to take care of it alone.
"Ahhh ah, mmm... ooooh oooh..."
"Woc?!"
Suddenly, Chen Yi heard a set of obviously stifled, indistinct moans, and if you listened closely, there was also the very faint, rhythmic slapping sound. If you paid close attention, it really seemed to come from the neighboring stall!
"Woc, are you serious? Someone's really doing this kind of thing at school, broad daylight!"
As wild as his adventures had been with his childhood sweetheart in the medical office, sex in the school bathroom was on another level of transgression. "That's insane, what balls, what if someone hears them! This girl is wild, agreeing to something like this during class break!"
At this point, Chen Yi still had no idea that the lascivious woman being thrust into in the adjacent stall was actually his own beloved childhood sweetheart…
In the next stall, Lin Qingrou was standing with her back to the door, both hands braced against the wall, her body shaking from the thrusts of the man behind her. Behind her, a tall boy in a school uniform pants around his knees was fiercely pumping his stiff cock in and out of her already soaking-wet, pink pussy.
Each time, the boy's thick cock would nearly pull all the way out, then ram home until the base smashed into Lin Qingrou's body, battering her deepest spot. Every impact made her shudder, stretching her snowy white neck as she threw her head back, emitting a stifled, trembling moan that, despite being suppressed, sounded incredibly seductive…
Why, why, why I can't believe I'm doing this. I only came so he could take off my chastity belt and remove the vibrator so how did I end up here, doing this? I already have a boyfriend, someone I really like and love, I just fled from his side, and yet here I am… getting fucked by another guy in the school restroom… I shouldn't! I shouldn't be so easily coaxed in, so quick to pull down my pants, spread my legs, part my pussy, let a cock inside. I have a boyfriend. I love him. But… it feels so good!
It feels so good!
Why does it feel so good?
Even though my boyfriend's not even around, and I'm having sex with a guy I don't care about at all… why does it feel so good!
I hate… I hate myself!
I hate this filthy, slutty body like a whore… I don't deserve Chen Yi at all… I hate myself so much!
I don't deserve to be saved by him. Women like me ought to have just died back then!
But… it still feels good…
Lin Qingrou felt like she was going mad, her mind endlessly scolding herself, consumed by guilt and self-loathing at her own lack of self-control. The thought that even her beloved Chen Yi had never experienced her body, while she was here letting someone else inside, made her want to murder this perverse version of herself. But the more she hated herself, the more sensitive her body became since the moment she followed the boy into the restroom, undressed, presented her pussy, and let his cock enter her, her body had been climaxing non-stop. No one would ever believe it: the proper, elegant Lin Qingrou, always poised like a model daughter, was now arching her body, violently trembling, lost in an "ahegao" face as she was pounded in the restroom…
"Ah… oh oh oh! Damn! I'm cumming! Ohhh so good!"
It wasn't long before the boy behind her thrusted hard one last time, shoving his cock all the way in, like he was trying to jam his balls inside too, and then unleashed a wave of cum into her pussy…
He pulled out, whipped off the cum-filled condom, tossed it into the trash, and zipped up, leaving Lin Qingrou alone her legs weak, unable to stand, slumped over the toilet seat on her knees, gasping for breath. "Haah… haah… so good… haah… I'm sorry… but it felt so good… ooh ooh ooh…"
After he left, the stall was silent except for Lin Qingrou's tear-streaked face, her slender shoulders trembling as she sobbed, consumed by self-loathing…
When the next class bell went off, Lin Qingrou wiped her face determinedly, telling herself she still needed to go to class, needed to see Chen Yi just seeing him erased all her troubles. Gripping the toilet for support, her legs trembling, she slowly got to her feet, crying as she tugged her pants up, only daring to leave the boys' restroom once it sounded like everybody else had left…
Meanwhile, Chen Yi sat at his desk in the classroom. In the restroom, he'd been so startled by the sounds from next door that he'd forgotten any urgency in his own lower half. Only once the bell rang did he snap out of it, noticing how tense his crotch felt, regretting missing his chance but class was starting, so he hurried back to his seat…
When he returned to class, he found that Lin Qingrou wasn't at her seat a rare event indeed. Normally, once class resumed, Lin Qingrou would be early, having everything ready. Maybe she was feeling unwell, using the bathroom, or had some other issue?
Chen Yi wasn't particularly worried after all, what trouble could there possibly be at school?
As expected, it wasn't long before Lin Qingrou returned. Seeing her take her seat beside him, Chen Yi remembered what he'd heard in the restroom and turned in excitement to say:
"Hey! Xiao Rou! I have to tell you something! Just now during break, after you left the infirmary, I went to the restroom, and you'll never guess what happened! I was in the boys' bathroom, but I heard a girl's voice coming from the next stall! I'm sure she didn't go in the wrong door, but the sounds coming from next door… wow! I can't believe people are actually doing that kind of thing at school in broad daylight…"
At this point Chen Yi suddenly stopped. It dawned on him that maybe, after just a few days of being boyfriend and girlfriend, talking about things like this was a little inappropriate. They'd discussed such topics before, but something about being in a relationship made him more self-conscious, embarrassed, and unsure, so he cut himself off and looked awkwardly at Lin Qingrou. Sure enough, her face was beet red, so cute and embarrassed that it seemed she could cry at any second…
"Oh… w-wow~ To think… someone would do that at school… it's… it's really unbelievable!"
Lin Qingrou bowed her head, her gaze flitting over the coursework in front of her, not daring to meet Chen Yi's eyes. Deep down, she knew very well that the "unbelievable" girl being pounded in the next stall was none other than herself… Chen Yi, interpreting her reaction as normal embarrassment at something so indecent, thought nothing of it. He'd never imagine that while he'd barely managed a handjob, his girlfriend was in the next stall, being pounded from behind by another student…
The morning finally passed; the cafeteria provided lunch, and most students either went home for lunch and a nap or, if they lived farther away, napped at their desks. Though Chen Yi and Lin Qingrou lived nearby, they had always chosen to stay and nap at school, just for convenience.
But today, after lunch, instead of going back to the classroom, they wordlessly strolled around the school grounds.
During high school, relationships were strictly regulated, and a boy and girl being alone together in broad daylight could easily get them caught for "early romance," but during lunch, most everyone left, teachers included, so the campus was nearly empty. The landscaping was beautiful; after a little wandering, they found a marble bench along a little-used path in a grove.
After sitting down together, Chen Yi noticed that Lin Qingrou seemed gloomy and preoccupied, spacing out, unhappy. He figured she must be thinking about what had happened in the infirmary, or maybe was annoyed that he was so overzealous about her feet, so he admitted shyly:
"Um… sorry, I kinda lost control earlier! It's just… your feet are so pretty… I couldn't help myself…"
Lin Qingrou was startled by how suddenly he spoke; after a pause, she realized what he meant and quickly gave a gentle, sweet smile:
"Huh? Oh! No, no! Don't apologize! Actually… I'm really happy that you like me…" In truth, it wasn't these things that troubled her; she liked, even enjoyed, him fixating on her feet. What was really upsetting her was how she'd ditched her beloved boyfriend after class, gone off to another man, followed him to a restroom, bent over, spread open, and let herself be used all while her boyfriend was only one stall away…
Of course, Lin Qingrou knew Chen Yi would never suspect, and in fact, he trusted her completely. But it was exactly that trust that made her guilt unbearable, that made her hate herself for betraying him so utterly.
Suddenly, as her mood began to lift slightly, Lin Qingrou had an idea. "Um! Do you want… do you want to try lying down on my lap?" Chen Yi, still worried he'd annoyed her, instantly perked up. "Knee pillow! Really?"
"Puhaha~ Why would I lie! Of course~"
"Th-then… I'll lie down now…"
"Hehe~ Mhm~"
With her clear reply, Chen Yi felt like the luckiest guy alive, to rest his head on the lap of such a cute girlfriend. As he shifted his body to get comfortable, anticipation filled him.
"Mmm~ Well?"
"So…so soft~ So comfy~"
Chen Yi's cheek lightly rested on Lin Qingrou's soft, springy thigh, feeling like he'd found heaven. Through her slim but firm uniform pants, he could clearly sense the warmth and softness of her body, and even catch the faint scent of her shampoo so intimate, so dreamy, his heart banged like a drum with excitement. From above, Lin Qingrou's voice sounded again:
"Um… earlier, when it got hard… and nothing happened in the end, doesn't that feel uncomfortable?"
Hearing her mention his nearly finished erection in the infirmary, Chen Yi's face instantly flushed red, especially as he turned and saw Lin Qingrou looking down, blush coloring her lovely cheeks, her brilliant eyes flickering shyly. The sight stirred Chen Yi even more.
"N-not really… I mean… it's fine, maybe… j-just a little uncomfortable…"
Chen Yi stumbled over his words, but thinking back to what happened earlier the sensual scene, the taste of Lin Qingrou's cute, soft feet, the feeling of her cool, gentle hand on his cock he found himself hardening again, a distinct bulge in his pants.
"Ah! It's… it's getting hard again…" Chen Yi was so lost in his memories he didn't notice until Lin Qingrou pointed it out, and he quickly tried to cover himself, stammering, "Uh! Sorry! I "
But before he could say more, Lin Qingrou interjected, "Um… if you don't finish, won't it be uncomfortable? Do you… do you want me to use my hand to help you again…?"
Her voice grew softer and softer, until she barely managed to get the last word out she wanted to throttle herself. Why was it so easy to scream for other men, but saying even a word to Chen Yi was so difficult!
Lin Qingrou's mind was fraught with self-reproach. The contrast was tearing her apart…
"R-really? Y-you wouldn't mind…?"
"No! Of course not! I really like you! There's no way I'd mind at all!"
Panicked yet tender, Lin Qingrou slowly reached her hand down to Chen Yi's pants, undid his belt, and gently slipped her hand inside. The feel of her cool, delicate, soft hand on his throbbing hot cock sent a shudder through Chen Yi, gave him goosebumps all over. When he looked up, he saw Lin Qingrou's face blushing bright red as she turned away, unable to meet his eye; he too looked away, embarrassed nearly to death.
(I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry! I betrayed you this morning, my pussy's already been filled by another man… but I can only use my hand for you… why only my hand? There's no one else here… right now! Just undress and give myself to him! If he'd have me… of course I should let him use my pussy as much as he wants! But… I don't dare… why! Why can't I! With other men, yelling for orgasm is easy but now I can't say or do anything! Lin Qingrou you depraved bitch! He's the one you love most! Why can you only use your hand on him!)
As her slender jade fingers slid up and down Chen Yi's cock her heart full of regret, frustration, punishment, confusion Chen Yi, clueless, was just brimming with excitement, realizing his girlfriend didn't mind, would even help with her own hand. They'd barely started dating, but maybe it was because they'd always been so close before…?
Whatever the reason, Chen Yi was just overjoyed to hear her say she liked him, to be able to feel the skilled stroking of her beautiful slim hand. Her fingers were confident, wrapping snugly but gently around his firm, burning shaft, moving up and down with perfect rhythm. Now and then, her fingers massaged his balls or tickled his tip, and even though she used only one hand (the other gently stroking his head), she never missed a beat; it was so smooth, experienced, that pleasure surged through Chen Yi's body.
Lin Qingrou still looked away, emotionally conflicted, but when she glanced at Chen Yi's face, she saw he was frowning like he was in pain.
"Eh? What's wrong? Is it uncomfortable?"
"N-no, it's just… your hand… feels so good! I can't… I'm gonna !"
The pleasure, more intense than anything he'd ever felt, combined with her soft, lovely voice, pushed Chen Yi over the edge. He couldn't help it his cock spurted a flood of cum right into Lin Qingrou's delicate hand.
"Ahh! Ahhh~ So… does it feel good?"
It was so sudden that even Lin Qingrou wasn't ready, jolting with surprise at the hot, sticky fluid. At first, she panicked, but quickly adjusted though her face was still blushing furiously, deep inside she was actually happy that her hand had given such pleasure to Chen Yi…
"I-I'm sorry! I didn't mean to… i-it just felt so good…" Chen Yi's whole body trembled, but after a moment, he looked up to see Lin Qingrou looking at him with a gentle, loving smile. Her hand, just withdrawn from his pants, was smeared all over with his sticky semen, and Chen Yi realized he'd finished all over her hand. Flustered, he sat up and hurriedly apologized, but Lin Qingrou didn't seem to mind at all; in fact, after his orgasm, any gloom from before seemed to have lifted. "Hehe~ It's okay~ You came so much… must've felt great~"
Lin Qingrou looked at Chen Yi, her smile turning her eyes into thin crescents, and as she cocked her head her hair spilled down, the sunlight filtering through the trees making it all look like some sugar-sweet scene from a romance drama. "Uh… yeah… it felt really good… but your hand…"
Chen Yi stared, still in a daze, but instinctively worried that she'd be annoyed by the mess. "Hehe~ It's fine~ Making you feel that good, even if my hand is covered… it makes me happy~ Hehe~" Lin Qingrou said, as she used a tissue to gently wipe her cum-drenched, delicate hand, then suddenly leaned close and planted a soft kiss on Chen Yi's lips. Chen Yi froze on the spot, feeling as if his heart might explode, the girl before him more angelic and precious than he'd ever dreamed…