The next morning Sirius made his way to his own suite. He'd spent the night curled up with Harry and the pair of them had had a good talk about the need for open and honest communication in a relationship. He may be Harry's father on paper but their relationship was a bit more complicated than that. For starters he had missed out on so much of Harry's early life with him stuck in Azkaban for so long plus, Sirius was quickly realising that his time spent in that hell hole had stunted his growth somewhat.
He had only been 20 when he had been incarcerated, barely an adult, and he had always been a bit immature before that so, while he was now in his mid 30's, he didn't always act like it. It meant that he now had to learn quickly how to actually act which meant he was bound to make some mistakes along the way. The trickiest part for him, though, was learning to accept his limitations.
One of the reasons he had been putting on a brave front through this whole ordeal was that he was worried about seeming weak, having always been looked down on for that in the past. Speaking with Harry though had shown him that there was no shame in accepting his limitations. Harry had pointed out that, if things had been the other way round, if it had been him who had been suffering as Sirius had, then Sirius would have been most upset that he hadn't spoken to him about it and Sirius would have told him to stop hurting himself like that and talk to people. Which is exactly what Sirius was planning on doing now.
It was still hard. The only thing Sirius had had even resembling a relationship had been with Remus and communication had hardly been their strong point. If he truly wanted this triad to work though, which he did, then he knew that he would have to bite the proverbial bullet and try because the alternative was honestly unthinkable. As much as it had hurt to feel like he was on the outside of things he had stayed because, at the end of the day, he was still there. Walking away and being on his own had never been an option in Sirius's mind, just the thought of it hurt too much, which meant that he now had to do the lesser of two evils and show his partners his weaknesses and hope that they still accepted him. Greyback had seemed to and Harry was sure that Remus would as well.
Sirius knocked on the door to the bedroom lightly and entered with a fair amount of trepidation. Remus was awake and alert, looking at the door as he entered. Greyback, who had been curled up around him, moved slowly away.
"I've come to talk," Sirius said, his voice sounding small even to him.
Greyback nodded. "I have business to attend to in the colony so I'll leave you to it." He gave Remus a kiss on the forehead and left without even looking at Sirius. Sirius almost said something but he noticed the alpha's eyes were wet and red and didn't want to push the man. Remus didn't need that sort of stress with everything that he'd been through recently and Sirius could always talk to the man later.
Sirius looked over at the pregnant werewolf who smiled at him and patted the space beside him that Greyback had just vacated. Sirius moved slowly over but kept a little distance between them, not wanting to take any liberties until they had cleared the air a bit.
"I feel like I owe you an apology," Remus said and Sirius frowned.
"Why?"
"Because I've been selfish and my actions have hurt you. I want you to know that that was never my intention."
"How have you been selfish?" Sirius asked, still very confused.
"By purposely getting myself pregnant. I know you and Greyback thought it was an accident and I didn't have the heart to tell you before. I always felt like I was an extra in this relationship."
"That's not true!" Sirius exclaimed. "You were always my mate first. If anything Greyback was the bonus."
"I may have been your mate by design but we both know that you were never happy with just the two of us and I certainly would have never made you as happy as you were with Greyback. It's why I had initially intended to walk away at first but you offered me a place with you and I took it, not for you but myself. Things were fine at first but then Matthew arrived and it made me worry that you might decide that he would make a better third than me, especially as he would happily bear you children."
"That was never something that I cared about and I don't think Greyback did either, at least not until you were pregnant and I never would have just tossed you aside like that."
"I know that now," Remus sighed. "Greyback and I had a good talk about it last night. I didn't think it at the time though and I worried that other people would put pressure on the two of you to take Matthew instead, or at least as an extra, and that I wouldn't have a place in the relationship anymore. I can't give Greyback the things that you can and I thought the surest way to keep my place would be to have his baby so I purposely put myself in a position to get pregnant. It was great at first and I'll admit that I loved the extra attention, especially when the pregnancy was harder on my body than I anticipated, but it ended up pushing you away and for that I'm sorry. I had noticed, I know you too well to have not to, although apparently I don't know you as well as I thought. I was sure you would say something if things got too bad and I forgot what a stubborn old dog you really are."
"I'm learning," Sirius huffed.
"We all are," Remus smiled, laying his hand on top of Sirius's. "I learned myself yesterday. I had felt how tenuous the pregnancy was these last couple of months and I will admit I became a little self involved and that probably only made things worse for you. I'm sorry for being so blind."
"You were worried about the baby," Sirius reassured him. "It was only natural."
Remus shook his head. "That doesn't make it right though. I saw it, when I almost collapsed. I saw your hesitation and I realised. You have always loved children and you had told me how much not being a part of Harry's life had hurt you but you hesitated to save my child and in that split second I realised just how much this pregnancy had hurt you and a part of me wanted you to actually say no, to take my baby away because I don't deserve it."
Remus sobbed the last words and Sirius turned to him in shock, grasping the hand that held his.
"How can you say that, Remmy!"
"How can you not!" Remus cried. "I was selfish in my decision and didn't talk to anyone about it and it has only ended up hurting the two people I love. I'll be a horrible parent!"
"You won't, Remmy, I know that. You have done everything you can for that baby. You say it was selfish but it wasn't, even I knew that. You weren't staying close to Greyback to purposely push me out, you were doing it because that's what you needed, that's what the baby needed. Even I could see that. That's why I didn't say anything because I knew that I was the one being selfish and jealous because you could give Greyback something he wanted that I couldn't. I thought that he wouldn't want me anymore."
"Rubbish!" Remus half roared. "You are the one he needs, you give him so much more than just a child Sirius. Have more faith in yourself."
"Apparently we both need to do that," Sirius smiled sheepishly.
"I suppose you're right," Remus sniffed. "It makes a change right. And anyway, Severus said that he is trying to create a potion that will allow any male to have a baby so, knowing him, you may be able to have one sooner than you think."
Sirius shook his head. "Not too soon. You are carrying Greyback's first, I don't want to detract from that. We have time right? We have a safe home here together, there's no need to rush anything. You have your baby and then, after a while, if Snape is already done with the potion, I'll ask if I can try."
"Thank you," Remus sobbed and Sirius pulled him in for a tight hug, only to jump back with a shout when he suddenly felt something poke him in the stomach.
"Oh!" exclaimed Remus, "I think that's the hardest its ever kicked before. Severus potion must really be working." Sirius was still staring at his distended stomach in awe. "You've never actually felt the baby have you?"
Sirius shook his head and Remus lifted his top in invitation. With wonderment and just a hint of fear Sirius gingerly placed his hands on Remus's stomach and almost instantly felt something brush against his palm.
"I think it likes you," Remus smiled, rubbing his stomach near to Sirius's hand. "That's your other papa little one and he's going love you just as much as me and your alpha will and probably spoil you just as much as well."
Sirius felt tears welling up in his eyes. "I'll teach you all the best pranks cub. You're going to drive everyone crazy."
"It'll be even worse when you have their brother or sister," Remus chuckled then let out a big yawn.
Sirius frowned. "You're still recovering aren't you."
Remus nodded sleepily. "It's been an emotionally draining night which didn't help. Hopefully that will be better now though."
"Yes," Sirius smiled, stroking Remus's face. "Sleep now love. You have a lot of work growing that baby still."
"Does that mean that I'm forgiven?" Remus asked, nestling under the covers, already half asleep.
"Always," Sirius replied, leaning over to give his mate a kiss on the forehead as Greyback had done. He went to move off the bed but Remus's hand shot out to stop him, although the werewolf's eyes remained shut. "Relax love, I'm just going to go find our alpha then we can all cuddle up together as we should."
Remus smiled and let go, showing Sirius he'd been heard and Sirius gave him another kiss of reassurance before heading out to the colony.
Greyback wasn't hard to find, hunched over a desk in the back office of the village hall that had used to be used for the classroom. There was a large stack of paper work in front of him and Sirius felt a little bad. As much as Greyback may have been neglecting him, he'd also apparently been neglecting the colony.
"How much more stuff do you have to do?" Sirius asked, cautiously walking into the room.
"Nothing that I can't wait a bit," Greyback huffed, pushing the papers to the side. "I take it you've sorted things out with Remus then."
"Yes, he was tired though so I left him sleeping saying I'd come to get you and we could all cuddle, if that's alright with you."
Greyback gaped at him. "You want me there as well?"
"Of course we want you there, your our alpha aren't you?"
"But you said you needed space."
"I needed a bit of time yes, to sort my head out, but I'm fine now and I'd like to get things back to the way they were."
"But you turned me down last night, I thought that meant that you didn't want me anymore. I had assumed that meant that you just wanted to be with Remus."
"Then you're a bigger idiot than I thought!" Sirius yelled. "Yes I turned you down last night when I was emotionally wrought but I still want you you dolt."
Greyback's eyes flashed dangerously. "Is that any way to talk to your alpha Puppy?"
Sirius gulped but felt his cock twitch. "I don't know, it seems quite appropriate at the moment."
Greyback growled and literally lept over the desk, pinning Sirius against the wall. "I hope you realise what you're doing Puppy. You can't tempt me like this and walk away, it has been too long since I've been able to have you and I need you Sirius."
"I need you too," Sirius whimpered and Greyback let out a half whine, half growl before clashing their lips together. It was hard and rough and oh so glorious, like coming home after a long time away. Sirius felt like crying in relief as he wound his fingers into Greyback's thick locks, meeting the werewolf's tongue stroke for stroke.
Greyback pulled back and traced a line of little nips to Sirius's ear. "Tell me how far you want to go Puppy."
"Make me yours again Alpha!" Sirius gasped and Greyback bit down on his neck, hard enough to mark but not break the skin, and Sirius keened in delight.
"I know its been a while for you as well Puppy but I don't know how gentle I can be."
"I don't want gentle," Sirius admitted. "I need to feel you, to know that I am still yours."
Greyback paused to hold Sirius's head and look him dead in the eyes. "You will always be mine Sirius. Even if you should choose to walk away in the future you will do so with my heart."
"Never! I couldn't do that because you have mine. You and Remus keep it save."
Greyback dived in for another hard kiss only this one was sweeter and Sirius found himself chasing those lips, opening his eyes to see Greyback smiling at him before he gently brushed Sirius's cheekbone with his rough, calloused thumb.
"I love you Sirius Black."
"And I love you Fenrir Greyback."
"So you do know my name," Greyback smirked. Sirius raised his hand to give the man a swat only to have Greyback catch his hand and pinned it above Sirius's head. "Ah, ah, ah, Puppy, none of that. It seems I have left you too long. I think you need a reminder of how to treat your alpha."
Sirius gulped and nodded causing Greyback to growl low in his throat as his eyes got that dangerous glint in them that never failed to send a thrill running through Sirius's veins.
"Over the desk Puppy," Greyback ordered and Sirius hurried to comply, throwing his robes up as he did to expose his backside.
Greyback groaned. "So you do remember some things then. That is good. Unfortunately I don't really have anywhere to tie those naughty hands to so you'll just have to hold on to the other edge. I'm not going to tell you how many smacks you're getting but if you move I will stop and we will go back to the castle to our Cub, whatever state you're in. Do you understand Puppy."
"Yes alpha," Sirius rasped, barely managing to grip the desk before the first smack fell, so hard it almost dislodged him from the sheer force. Sirius howled but held on tight bracing himself for the next blow that landed so softly he barely felt it and whimpered at the loss. Greyback continued to pepper his backside with blows, alternating the strength and speed so that Sirius never quite knew what was coming, causing his mind to essentially dissolve into a puddle so it was quite a shock when he suddenly felt something wet and cold dribbling between his arse cheeks before his hole was roughly probed by thick fingers.
"How much preparation do you want?" Greyback asked, working his finger in as quickly as he could.
"None!" Sirius sobbed. He could feel his cock throbbing, trapped between his stomach and the desk. It had been too long and he was too close already for any sort of tenderness.
"I do like to acquiesce to your requests Puppy but I'm afraid I'll have to say no to this one, if only because I expect to get more use out of your arse later tonight. It has been too long for me as well you see and one hard fuck is not going to be enough to satisfy me I'm afraid."
Sirius whimpered. It was almost more than he could have hoped for and he felt his heart sing. Greyback stayed true to his word, quickly and roughly working up to three fingers, although it was still a tight fit and the alpha had made sure to steer clear of Sirius's prostate the whole time so as not to get him over stimulated. Then, before he knew it, his hole was getting breech and Sirius screamed as the sudden stretch caused pain and pleasure to war inside him. He was panting, desperate to hold off his release as Greyback seemed to waste no time, instantly beginning to pound into Sirius's waiting hole.
Sirius could do no more than whimper as Greyback used him, still keeping clear of Sirius's prostate as he worked out his own frustrations but it didn't matter; the burn and the feeling of being filled was enough to keep pushing Sirius closer to the edge. After his long drought the burning stretch and the wonderful feeling of fullness was driving Sirius mad all on their own but when he felt the scratch of Greyback's nails on his hips. Greyback had apparently adjusted his grip to get a better hold as he pistoned even harder into Sirius and it was just too much for Sirius and he shot his load, sobbing his release without ever being touched.
Greyback continued to pound into Sirius' slack and quivering hole for a little while longer before he too could hold back the tide any longer and slammed home hard, spilling a larger than usual load down his waiting channel before half collapsing over him.
"You have no idea how much I needed that Puppy," Greyback panted.
"I think I might have an idea," Sirius smirked, squeezing his arse muscle around Greyback's cock.
They tiredly cleaned themselves up with plenty of touching and kissing as they reaffirmed their bond to each other before packing up Greyback's papers and going back to the castle and Remus. The younger werewolf seemed to be sleeping soundly when Greyback and Sirius climbed into the bed but he soon cuddled up to Greyback's side.
"I'm glad you got that out of your system, I was getting sick of getting poked in the back."
"I wouldn't say that it's out of my system yet," Greyback chuckled.
"Give me a few minutes of sleep and I'll be ready to go again," Sirius assured him, earning him a kiss on the head from the alpha.
"So long as you don't expect me to perform the same way when Sirius gets pregnant," Remus chuckled but Greyback gaped at his words.
"Who knows, maybe getting pregnant will cause my sex drive to increase," Sirius laughed, happily cuddling into Greyback's other side. "I might even prove too much for our great alpha."
Greyback blinked a few times as he processed the information before leaning down to give Sirius a kiss. "That, Puppy, is a challenge I will gladly accept."