Since my mother meet with my dad, she has been so lost in her thought and I really didn't Know what to do because I don't even know what's going on in her mind. On this fateful day, when I got back from running errands I meet her, I saw her arranging her things I greeted her but she didn't respond "lets leave" she said, "ma, I don't understand what are you talking about?" I asked amidst my confusion "I don't want to stay here again, let's move to Jos get a decent job and do life beautifully" I was literally shedding tears "what happened, what changed mummy?" I asked and she replied "am not waiting any longer, am not going to watch my life slip away right in front of my eyes and I'll definitely not wait for your father to come and meet me here, so ill choose to leave and live.
With a heavy heart and a determined spirit. She decided to move to the city and find work to do. It was not an easy decision but staying back and waiting had begun to looked like a waste of precious time that she didn't have at hand at the moment, truthfully speaking I loved this new spirit and I was super excited about her decision but as a child that was hopeful that my parents were going to reconcile this wasn't too good but I was willing to work with what was available for now. That evening she sat quietly starring the few things she had left, it was at this point we realized that Niri's illness had taken so much from us than we even knew, waiting had taken too much from us already from our time to strength to even our hope.
With fear of the unknown she made the decision to leave, she just hoped that life was going to be kinder to us than it has in the past, we had numerous conversation about our leaving because I just wanted to be sure that she wasn't running from our dad but all I figured was her meeting him spark something new in her and all she wanted was to chase a fragile dream of greener pasture and praying that this time, hope will not betray us again. And i was in no position to stop her from having that so we started making plans to move, we contacted my friend Mimi from school and asked er to help us get an apartment on a very low budget, my uncle who wanted to throw us out of the house was more than happy to help because he was so sure our leaving was a blessing to him so he helped us with some money and so we added to what we had been saving from menial jobs and gifts from friends and family, so we were able to get and accommodation even though its not in somewhere so cool but we had a roof over our head and we were so excited about it.
I don't know if its the excitement from moving or what but my mother has been her cheerful self, i was so scared of how her first meeting with my dad was going to turn out to be but i must say its the total restoration she needed, she is more happier now, she wants to talk more, gist and laugh more, i can boldly say my Mother Mrs. Lami Zakka is back and nothing made me more happier than that at the moment.
We had told some very few of our neighbors that we were moving, somewhere surprised because honestly they didn't see that coming, while some were saying its not true that where were we going to see that kind of money from but everybody just played along to see it come to pass first. One thing i learnt from my mother is her resilience, daddy said its one of those things that attracted him to her in the first place but she almost lost it because i haven't seen this in her since the attack and so its beautiful watching my mother become the best version of herself and i know for a fact that we were going to survive it out there with or with out my father, we packed our things in to one big bag; we didn't have so much by the way and in no distant time we were done and almost ready to leave, it was at this point that emotions began to speak but it wasn't that we didn't want to go but most of our memories were here as a family "i remembered the day we moved in here, i was so sick from the cuts i sustain from the attack, Niri was sick too and almost traumatized from the whole thing, we had nothing but your father 'takes a deep breath' he fought for us all" "mummy please today is a good day and we are not ready for all this emotional talks, besides we have a journey ahead of us so lets goo!" we all laughed and prayed and headed to the park.