It's not him.
The guy I thought he looked familiar but it's not him, it was a stranger. It feels like I'm seeing things or seeing him everywhere.
I'm exhausted, I don't remember why I want to see him so much or is it just so I'm sure he's alright. When I first wrote him, as the exceptional detective, I never let him bleed, I built him in shadows, but sheltered his soul from storms. So how could he bleed, why was Adam there, I didn't have to confirm to know who it was. As all my creation I know them by heart, but this character he was supposed to be jiang xi's demise, but I changed my mind in middle and stopped him, he was supposed to die in his cell. So how could he be alive?. Is the story not following me anymore, but so I've already written his fate, how could he get out. Also I don't remember writing him escaping, it's like this story is taking an entirely different shape, moulding into something else. Something that isn't mine.
And what I fear the most is that I might see his death, the death I wrote about euphorically, so I could end this story with a perfect and meaningful ending but it was still in my diary. I hadn't written it anywhere else, not even sierra knew about the ending. But I see that ending now, like it's mocking me that I wanted this, so why am I running. It's cause I didn't knew he was a person, breathing, alive, with no emotions. He must know by now that I'm not ordinary. I hope he never knows my real identity, that's why I am using a fake name here.
I'll go back to my world after I make sure that he's alright. I should check another hospital. I'm tired, my legs hurt, it seems they're bleeding too. But I can't stop. Not until I find him.
Meanwhile at the hospital
(Jiang xi's pov)
The hospital window was smudged with the faint remains of the evening rain, but that didn't blur her out.
She stood beyond the main gate, tired, pale, clinging to a slip of hope like it could anchor her, I didn't move, not for a while. I watched her through the blurry window, crazy how I can still make out that appearance. I watched her look up at the building I had just been wheeled into two nights ago, watched her mouth tremble as if she was whispering something.
My breath caught before I could stop it.
"Why the hell is she here? "My voice cracked the silence.
The Junior officer beside me startled" Sir? "
I turned on them, cold and sharp" How long has she been outside?, why didn't any of you report it? "
They stammered, I didn't stayed to listen to them. I pushed past them, ignoring the sting in my abdomen. The bandages pulling at fresh wounds. But when I reached the ground floor, she was gone.
Only her shadow remained, and the ache she left behind.
I came back to my room, asked the Junior officer, "where's the chief? Ask him to visit me as soon as possible "
"Okay sir! " They said in unison.
I locked the door sat beside the window from where I saw her earlier, I don't even know this girl, but the moment I saw her in that place with Adam, I knew I had to keep her safe. Part of it was my duty but one part was my desire to keep her away. The strange girl who had an unusual views of things. I still don't think she's ordinary and I should ask her, who is she, why is she here and all but the way she came in that building, located in that abandoned area, why was she passing by an abandoned area, or is she a runaway from some place.
There are cases of runways sightings here and there they come this way to find employment and food but she didn't looked like someone who ever worried about such things, also the way she handled everything in market and fixed things for people says that she's well versed in magic. There are not many people who actually has a knack for magic of these kinds. Although magic artifacts are no rare things but someone who understand magic is rare.
I'm a detective, one which many firms and parties wants dead, so naturally keeping her close is a bad idea, I was eagerly searching for her as I was enticed by her but in front of Adam I realized, she'll be in danger if I go near her, so I should keep myself away from her, the words might've gone out till now that I saved a girl, or a girl came to save me, they won't believe if I say that I don't really know her and will target her. Well I can't let an innocent be strangled just because she was entangled with me. I should make sure she's safe and sound and sent back to where she came from.
I was just thinking about that strange girl when my eyes faltered upon that diary. Even though I've read it many times now I still can't process what's real Or not. Cause in this diary is written my story. Like someone was stalking me so intently that they wrote a story about it. At first I thought it was a joke, a prank someone might be pulling, but everytime I open this diary my head hurts.
"The man who never fails", it's my story written by someone else, or maybe it's my entirety that's written. I flipped the pages.
Case:The locked room corpse
What if a man dies in a locked room? No doors touched, no windows open, everyone thinks it's a suicide, but what if it isn't?
Maybe the killer's inside the room..... Too cliche, or maybe.... Killer was a ghost(crossed out)... Too absurd,
What if the floorboards were hollow and he came from below, jiang xi would totally notice that, wouldn't he? He always looks down when others looks up.
The tea, cold, he never liked warm endings anyways.
Another entry
The bride in the river
Rain so much rain today. Feels like someone drowned in my head. Okay a bride!, her wedding dress red with blood.
The groom, what if he never show up? Interesting. Or maybe..... (Smudged ink)
The key should be a music box, only playes when held upside down...That's how jiang xi will know she's trying to say something. That her love was inverted. Murder or suicide total mystery.
I flipped pages again this time landed on another mystery I solved by luck.
The prisoner coop
How can a killer murder three people from inside a jail cell?
Sounds impossible but what if it's not him and someone helping him from the inside..... ...
... The food, that's it... The cook serves death... The prisoner watches.... Jiang xi will catch on cause he always skips lunch and don't usually eat food made by others.... My baby has been poisoned many times. It'll make sense later. Perfect...
The girl who died twice
A murder, simple..... Wake up again..... Dies A day later... Jiang xi will notice the bruises the second time . . .... The timeline... Doesn't match.... He's angry..... Maybe he....
(Crossed out: maybe he fails this time)
No, no, he always saves them, except I make exceptions.
Key: ... No clue,... His books... Magic... Will solve.....
I read them again, even though I already remember every entry as it's literally my life written on these pages. But I still can't process it.
I can hear 'you are written' echoing in my head again and again. It's not written but the whole diary seems to scream these words to me. "That you are written".
'Was my life a lie' I thought or has it always been a lie. Then why do I feel human? Why do I breathe?, why do I bleed?
All the cases replayed in my mind, the moments that once felt like instinct driven brilliance, seems like a mockery. Like I was no better than a puppet. Every deduction, every step, every outcome, all predetermined by someone's hand?
I don't own my mind, my heart they're all fake. Why would someone create me for their amusement. It looks like author had planned a ending for me but hastily tried to erase or cross out that page, I can't read what's written in the end. Probably nothing good.
My only clue, my only lifeline now is someone named "rhea". This name appeared only once in the middle of all scribbles like they didn't think it was necessary to write their name. A peculiar name truly, I never heard such name all my life or is it because this world I live in is totally different from that in which the author resides in. If so why would their diary be at my place. Did she write a copy and hide it inside my cabin so I can see it. No that's not possible nobody would do that. But what if....
"Hey there! Jiang xi! I heard you wanted to meet me as soon as possible, did you finally missed your friend? "Chief of our department, my self declared friend came, interrupting my thoughts.
" Ahh! Yess, I did said that but not because I missed you, it's because I wanted to ask you about the girl from that night", i said to him.
"Oh key, what is it you want to know about her?, by the way may I ask what's your relationship with her that you strictly ordered to keep her out of this? "He said.
" First, answer my questions, then I'll think about yours, who is she? , her name, address, where is she from? "I asked.
" Well, I also don't know who is she, she just gave her name which is anya bevesta and address- it's the outskirts of the elem city. "He said.i felt relieved. I don't know why but I did.
"Pretty common name for such unusual person, anything else? " I enquired.
"You yourself told us to stay away, to not make any contacts for any regards, so how can we go and ask her anything".he said, clearly annoyed.
" I had my reasons but you should've asked her on the spot. Don't you think? And it's better if she's not involved in this after all. ", I said.
" What, why is it better, you're saying that you don't find her suspicious at all, she might've been with that adam, do you understand me!?... "He said, now furious.
" First, keep your voice down, I know what I'm doing, and I know she was not with him or else she wouldn't have tried to help me. "
"So you're saying she's just a passerby? " He asked.
"Yess, " I said.
"And we should just forget about her, not enquire her on this matter? Right? ".he asked.
" I'm not saying that, we can question her now, that's why I asked for you, I have a work for you. "I said to him.
" And what's that? "His brows up.
" You should send someone to take her statement on what happened and if she asks about me tell her that I'm doing fine. "I said.
" Why would she ask about you? "
"I don't know about that either, I just know that I saw her outside the hospital an hour ago, like she was looking for someone".i said..
" And you think that someone is you? Seriously. "He asked.
" I'm not in mood of jokes, if she's wandering around find me then it's dangerous. "I said firm...
" Well now that you say it, I remember her asking about which hospital we were taking you, so I said I can't give that information unless she's a family, so maybe, she might be.... You know".. He said, his eyes darting.
"And you're telling me this now? It's been two days already and only now you're telling me that she was asking about me, oh god what if she's been looking for me, seriously if that's the case then you're dead!.. " I said, my voice furious.
"Buddy, buddy, don't be angry I would've told you if I could you woke up only today, you remember that right? " He said..
"Then you should've told me sooner! "..... " Now you go yourself and ask if she's back home or not, if not then you're gonna find her personally.! " I said, my voice clear.
"Okay okay I'll go this instant, don't act up, you have a wound on your stomach, it's dangerous! ".. He said
" Jeez just go!!!! "
"Okay I'm going", " But you better answer my questions when I come back "
With that he left the room leaving me alone with my thoughts again. If this girl really was looking for me then it's not good.
She shouldn't....