If someone else is reading this, besides me, that means I must be trying to prove to you that I am indeed a regressor and that I'm not lying. If I had to assume, the thing you're most curious about is, if I am indeed a regressor that regresses as different people, what happens to my past self.
I was curious about that myself at the start, so, in my third life, as the son of the Emberlyn, I used my family connections to try and find traces of my past selves. As you might guess, I found nothing, it was like I never existed in the first place, I had doubts of my past memories as well, but some events remained the same no matter the times I died, so I decided to believe that I was, indeed, a multiple regressor, suffering from multiple regressions.
As for the other question you probably have, when I die as Alexandre Zarenthal, I still keep being the youngest son of the Empire's royal family. And yes, there was never an Alexandre Zarenthal in my previous lives.
Now that I am always the son of the Empire's royal family, I'm trying my best to convince talented people, like you, that I am someone worthy of your time and that the future I told you about will indeed happen.
It is the reason why I keep dying, the reason why even after I die so many times I don't give up. There is something I must do, something we must do, otherwise that will happen.
I still remember how I died every single time... I always died the same way. Even when I was a normal merchant.
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Alex was traveling to the Empire's capital with his family to negotiate with another merchant family, it was a night like any other, the only difference was that there was a full moon in the sky, and the stars were shining brighter. It was a beautiful night.
"Alex, honey, look outside, it's so beautiful" - said his wife
Alex looked outside and, sadly, what he saw wasn't beautiful at all. From out of nowhere, monsters falling came out of the sky, as if they were coming from the moon itself. Monsters of different kinds and shapes, some monstrous and others frighteningly beautiful, with human features, but not with humane actions.
They started killing everyone and Alex tried to run out of the capital with his family, but it was too late, the monsters had already entered his cart. Alex was forced to watch his family die in front of him, powerless.
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I decided to call them demons, monsters from another world that came to invade our Empire. I don't know if this is hell, but I'll use every means to kill these demons.
After becoming the third prince of the Empire, I was called "the Savior", not because of my achievements, but because there is a prophecy of the clergy. You may know about it.
"In the age of crumbling crowns and hollow thrones,
When the last light flickers upon the walls of the world
From the line of flame-wrought emperors, the third flame shall rise.
One foot in shadow, the other in storm,
Wielding both blade and spell as twin tongues of war.
His soul forged of contradiction, his purpose hidden beneath silence.
He shall walk backward through time's unraveling thread,
Stealing moments from the mouth of death.
The veil shall shatter, and demons shall pour like rot from a wound,_
And all shall fall save the one unlooked for —
The blade unclaimed, the heir unspoken.
The one people wouldn't give a chance before
Not crowned, yet chosen.
Not foretold, yet fated.
The savior shall not arrive —
He shall return."
Sometimes I wonder if this prophecy existed even in my past lives, since there wasn't a third prince before I was reborn as him. Maybe I was meant to be the third prince from the start. It's something we'll have to find out along the way, because it is something even I don't know.
For you, who are reading my Diary and aren't me, I hope this Diary will make you trust me and see things from my point of view.