The weather was going bad as dried leaves rustled through the unknown graves, some of them got stuck in Ender's head so he brushed it off subconsciously. Still glaring expressionlessly over his sister's grave. The other one wasn't here now..
THUD!
THUD!
"Endy!."
It was a familiar voice, his body doing a slight jerk by itself as he couldn't explain it. Turning around his side to see his parents standing, startled.. As if he didn't call them..
His mother came closer to him before embracing him in her hands.
"What are you doing here huh?."
She said, scrubbing his neck while his father was looking around because the weather was going bad.
"Nothing.. Just remember her.. With you.."
He murmured before embracing her too, closing his eyes. Then silence shrouded them but it wasn't awkward or anything just.. Peace..
As soon as he closed his eyes, his mind recalled something, distorted and fragmented.. Voices.. Echoed him..
"R– Remember.. Wh– At.. Are w– he– for.."
They get intense in just a moment. He felt like his body then something happened, it was as if he was watching a movie in a close cinema with rays of reality glittering from the screen and suddenly from behind something pulled him towards the darkness and at the same moment he saw a silhouette of someone similar to him.. Go through the screen..
Ender sighed, pushing her back gently.
"Mother.. Can I ask something?."
His tone darkened, as if this wasn't him now. Nevertheless, she nodded off without a thought. He stayed silent, just eyes down with a dead expression.
Then gradually his lips twitched as he muttered.
"Why?... Why?.. Why did you leave me?.. That day.."
Those words.. Those words made her stunned.. Even his father was astonished.
This Ender wasn't Ender anymore.. It was someone else wearing his flesh and face..
"W– What day are you talking about honey?."
She uttered with terror on each word, her face flooded with horror. He stayed quiet, just staring without expressing anything. Then his lips twitched as he said.
"I remember it all, mother.. That day.. That day when you leave me rotting in that place.. What was the name of it?.."
He said with a pause.
"Aentbury.."
His mother takes a step back, her breath hitching.
"You can't remember it.. It can't be.. You can't!."
At this moment, he recalled something.. His distorted fragmented memories..
It was a lab, cables, titles, cameras. In the center were a series of children in patient dresses playing violin. Those who didn't play it correctly were brutally torture with either rods or sticks. Amidst them was a familiar one.
It was Ender playing violin so elegantly that he played it best out of all, a test group of 50 children. Not just this, he went through every single thing on Earth, mastering every concept to perfection. Witnessing every harsh truth of the world, every layer and the cursed acts of the elites. He bore it all..
"I do remember it all, mother.. I remembered every single day of my life.. How they treated me every single moment.. How I wish to die every single day but can't.."
He stated, at this moment droplets of rain started to fall.
DRIP - DROP!
"I was always taught that mothers can sacrifice themselves for their children.. Then why you?. No.. All of you.."
He paused, before saying.
"In the end.. It's the truth.. We all are monsters.."
The rain now started lashing heavily, so much that in a few moments Ender was soaked in water and so did his parents.
His mother was in awe staring at him who had his head down.
"Why mother?.. Why do you leave me alone?.."
She swallowed, looking at him as he turned his head towards the sky.
"I declared.. I'll hunt these monsters.. And everybody is a monster.. And will be a monster.."
THUMP!
THUMP!
Sounds of heavy footsteps started approaching, as his mother turned aside. Only to be flabbergasted, seeing another Ender standing behind her.
As Ender shoved his arm in his pocket, then pulled out something, aiming at another Ender..
BANG!
The other one fell down, the shot had hit straight to his heart. Both parents froze from the shock, as his mother subconsciously went towards Ender who was lying on the ground but he had already passed out.
"W– Who are you really?."
The uncanny words pierced the air, Ender stayed silent, his head down to the ground. Her lips twitched as she inquired.
"Are you no one or some one?."
After a long minute pause, he stated.
"I'm no one but I can be everyone. Then am I really someone?."
She sighed, as he continued, saying.
"Everyone is a monster in this world. We need to kill these monsters."
His father gradually started to walk behind, as if they knew at any moment he'd cross the line..
Ender turned his head towards his parents, both had fear struck over their faces, as he did it without hesitation.. Because he had to kill these monsters..
His father seemed like he got something as he shoved his arm to his pockets, taking out something but unfortunately.. He wasn't fast enough..
BANG!
The bullet grained to his father's chest, to his heart as he fell down.
"AGHH!."
She screamed seeing her husband, his mouth pouring blood. Ender had no expression, just nothing. Her mother looked at him, in despair, in every word which conveyed fear.
"Y– You.. What are you?."
He stayed silent, just tired eyes that convey acceptance. In this moment, he felt something, it was as if his body was trying to remember something. It was weird feeling, as if he was drowned in rotten bodies. How werid?..
His eyes slightly widened, it was an emotion, something he never felt his entire life.. What was this emotion?.. His mind flooded, asking for answers.. After a moment.. He sighed.. He understood what this emotion was..
"I.."
He mumbled, still unsure. But not now..
"I hate you.."
He understood this feeling, the very first time he had felt something in his life.. It was.. Hate..
She knows now that she can't do anything just watch yet still a desire for her to live, made her ask.
"C– Can you forgive me?.. After all I'm the one who gave birth to you and your sister.."
He turned his gaze towards her gaze, fixed.
"I don't know what forgiveness is.. If I were Zack then maybe I could.. But I'm not him.."
He extended his arm towards her. She got flabbergasted as her jaw dropped.
"Please!. I'm begging you!. I'll never show you my face again in your life and your matters."
"Why mother?.. Why do you always leave me?.."
He said, as if he remembered something.. A memory from the past..
[ Past Memories ]
"Mother, where are we going?."
It was kid Ender, sitting in a car, with his parents in front. He was only 5 years old as Marine who was only 1 and a half years younger than him sitting beside him.
"A playhouse."
She snorted as Ender brushed it off as he was playing with his sister on a phone.
Moments Later...
They reached a weird facility away from the local areas. It was a garage as they all got off from their car, with some man in suits welcoming them. Their eyes didn't linger much on Marine but on Ender they're just staring at him.
As they go into another room, looking like a dining one, Ender and his sister go into a room led by a maid to a room which was full of children.
They played with each other, until the maid came again and this time she only took Marine with her. When Ender asked, she just brushed it off that their parents were preparing a surprise.
After a few hours, when no one Ender himself tried to open the door, but couldn't, because it was locked from outside.
Then a weird gas filled the room as all of the kids who were anxious got unconscious.
Then after they wake up, it was a lab type room with all of them wearing a patient's dress and lying on bed side by side in a series.
The metal door opened as some people wearing a scientist type suit with some guards with arms, they ordered them one by one to go in a line and when some of the kids resisted, they just shot them dead.
In a room after injecting many injections on every kid, they made them play every act, everything possible a human has perceived in their lives.
As Ender had to face this –
It was a room, Ender was sitting on bed, his arms wrapped around his legs. It looked like some time had passed, and now he was amidst his puberty.
CREAK!
The door opened as someone entered the room, Ender didn't even care to move his eyes towards it. As he was so drowned in himself, as then he felt someone's palm over his arm.
Gently turning to see Marine patting him.
"Wanna eat something.."
She asked, concerned yet scared about him. He nodded in no so she removed her hand while sitting beside him. For a moment silence shrouded them.
"You know.."
She sighed. Calling him as he didn't respond.
"In the end.. Even if everybody calls you a monster.. You're still my Ağebey.."
Hearing her words, he looked at her. Surprised, she got the chance and embraced herself in his arms. Murmuring..
"Whatever happens.. I'm with you and always will be.."
[ Present scene ]
"She left me.."
A drop of water dropped from Ender's wet head to the ground. He turned his arm down. His mother, startled.
"I swore to protect her from the world.. But I was the first to get drowned in it.."
He looked at his mother, with acceptance.
"Who am I mother?."
She turned her head down, sitting on her knees. As he extended his arm towards her.
"Mother.."
He called her just enough so she turned her head to him.
"Why always me?.. Why not anyone else?.. Why?... Me..."
He muttered, then pause before saying.
"Can you.. Tell me.."
She made a curious face. Thinking what'll he say.. He wanted to ask such a question which every child has asked their mother once in their lives.
His lips twitched as he said.
"Was... Was I a good boy... mama.."
That word was said in such an angelic voice. She remembered when for the first time she held him in his arms.
The reason she sold his son to them was because of power and fame. The greed.. She understood it now but it was so late.. She understood she did a sin but the gates of forgiveness had been closed.
At this moment, many thoughts engulfed Ender's mind. His whole existence was conflicting what to do, a part of him wants to do it yet a part of him resisted. Not because of emotion but because of instinct.
In the end, he lost control over himself again. His hand clenched, bending the metal grip slightly. It felt like someone was taking him away from reality as he saw a silhouette similar to him taking the role. For a moment he felt that someone else beside them was watching all of this like a scene.
Nevertheless, he pulled it.. The trigger..
BANG!
The shot hit straight to her heart, she fell down. Bleeding intensely in pain as her vision starts to blur.
"Who am I?. Can you tell me who I am?."
He asked, looking at her with his eyes showing something.. It was pious..
"Y– You are –y.."
As her consciousness fades away with those words.
Ender stands there for a moment, not moving a single muscle.
CLATTER!
The gun fell to the ground, then Ender to his knees. He bent slightly on his back before punching with full force on the ground. Creating a small crater.
"AGHHH!."
He did it again and again. Until mud swallowed his hands up.
"AGHHH!."
Now he started taking deep breaths, it was raining so his whole coat was wet along with his face and hair. So it was quite hard to know if he was actually weeping or not.. In the end, it's a monster who doesn't weep.
He stayed silent just there for a few moments, before getting up and turning behind, slowly strolling before engulfing in the white fog.
As a man appears out of nowhere in thin air, looking like him. Who knows if he was real or just an illusion or delusion as he didn't get wet from the rain?.
Watching him go merging with the fog. The man was wearing a white coat. Glaring at him intensely as he turned to his side where both parents were lying.
"He didn't do it.."
He snorted, a smile curved over his face.
"Neither did I.."
He walked some steps before bending on his knee to his mother.
"In the end you were successful in creating perfection. Weren't you?."
As his face turned in self doubt, so he asked again.
"He did his job despite how much he held.. He really is that thing.. And you created this thing.. Mother.."
As he gets up, before disappearing to the white fog.
It really was a day for someone.. If not for no one..