There was darkness, deep darkness. Then there was light. Light was streaming from nowhere over a small area, it wasn't enough to bright the darkness. Yet it was enough that Ender was laying unconscious in it. His messy hairs scattered over his face. Ender who was in slumber where as light was shrouded over him.
THUNK! THUNK!
The heavy thud of someone walking, it was as if the person was in hurry. Echoing everywhere in the darkness. Due to immense darkness, the person wasn't quite visible but it was sure that it was walking towards the light where Ender was sleeping.
The person came close to the light, still not visible but to due the reflection. It was a shadow of a girl, she stood there for a moment. Starring at Ender who was dozing.
She sighs then came to the light. The dark brown hairs and amber eyes glazed upon Ender as she sat down to him.
She had an unreadable expression on her face as she placed her palm over Ender's forehead, who was still unconscious.
A yellow bright light flickered on her palm as Misha was trying to go to his deepest depth. As the place began to shifted, slowly and steady. It changed.
Now Misha was standing on a werid place. Confused look on her face, as if she didn't understand what is happening or what is about to happen?.
It was a big room, more like experiment room. White bricks, marbles titles on the floor. She turned behind to saw a huge glass frame. Beyond the glass frame, many people were sitting in luxury seats. There were researchers, politicians even Ender's father. Adler was there. It was a control room of this experiment. Everyone had stiff expressions as if something is about to happen, some had curious expressions too as well.
~ Huh?.
Misha, whose things were still going above her head. Heard an alarm ringing.
"Let's begin."
One of the scientist declared with a mic. Then a huge metal gate automatically opens then gradually a series of kids, wearing white patient dresses were coming in lines. Each one have an expressionless face. There were so many kids, maybe only 10 11 years old. Two guards guided them them while other two were at back. All of them had gear and guns, maybe so that the kids can't run away.
Then after every kid was lined in rows and columns. Misha still curious yet befilled, found one kid familiar on the back. The black hair with black eyes, only difference was the expressionless face.
~ Ender?.
She wondered as the guards went out safety, but for the kids they were just standing there. Then one of the scientist, turned on a lever which results in a specific frequency. This frequency doesn't affect them nor Misha who was seeing the memories.
Then the kids expression became terrified, blood lust expression. Then they all started attacking each other. So badly as if they weren't humans, more like monsters.
They were scratching, biting; tearing flesh of themselves. Misha jaws dropped, she couldn't believe her eyes what was happening here.
Some kids weren't using brute force, instead they were swiftly, using precise movements to punch so hard. Misha gaze witnessed upon Ender who had an expressionless face. Yet he was fighting like if he was more than a professional martial artist or a boxing champion.
So beautiful yet so scary. His fists red, in blood as a kid sprints towards him. The kid tried to punch him but Ender swiftly didage and revolve around his shoulder and tear it apart. Blood spread yet the kid who had his arm trared still try to but Ender, yet Ender grabbed his jaw then with insane brute force. Tear his head apart. Still wearing an expressionless face.
Misha was stunned as she grabbed her cheeks, her head down. She couldn't believe that Ender who had act so perfect that no one. No one could see the darkness ever inside him.
The kids continue to fight, bite and die in the most brutal way. A girl try to attack Ender from behind with a kick, yet Ender was able to grabbed her leg and slammed her so hard on the ground that she died there, her bones cracking sound echoed everywhere. The marble floor break apart too.
"Damn, who gonna pay for this?."
One of the politican said with a smirked.
"Your kid is going so well. Adler."
One of the scientist said to him with a smile as his father said.
"Indeed. He is the peak of creation."
He said with a chuckle. Misha who was listening to them. Her face in rage. She didn't expect that Ender's own father gonna make this fate for his own son.
Now there were 3 kids remaining, Ender even though he had scars too had the same expressionless face. As the two kids charged at him, even with this, it wasn't a big deal for him.
As one of them tried to punch but Ender was able to dodge then the second one at the same time try to kick. Ender manged to tuck his shoulder around the leg and twisted it so hard that it teared apart.
Then the other kid tried to attack but used the leg which blood was still dripping and strucked him to his face. The kid fell down then Ender sat on him and punch him, punch him, until his whole face became unable to recognize. The other kid jumps on Ender and tears his neck yet Ender still wasn't showing a single sign.
Grabbed his neck and with all his might. He slammed him down on each other. Then he opened his fist. And with all his might, strucked to the back, penetrating it in a instant then ripping the heart out. Then throwed it on the floor. The floor was covered in blood, mass and mess of lifeless bodies of kids. Yet in the middle, Ender was the only one standing.
"Wow!. Bingo!."
Everyone on the control started celebrating, hugging Adler.
"Your kid is indeed a tragedy."
One of the politican said with a smile.
"He would be a great leader."
Another one spoke as they cheer up. Misha who was listening to them, wasn't expecting, she collapsed to her knees. Tears streaming from her eyes.
~ Why?.
She wondered.
~ Why didn't you tell us?.
As she looked at the kid who was sitting on bloody floor. This time the kid had a unique expression. A frowned expression as he looked towards Misha even though Misha wasn't there.
Then suddenly the dream started collapsing. The walls crumbled apart yet the kid was still watching her with a startled face, as if he could see her in memories. Then darkness shrouded them once again.
Misha found herself sitting beside Ender as he started to wake up where as Misha looked at him with an unreadable face.
"Where am I?."
He mumbled, eyes still closed. As he gradually started to open them. Startled; surprised to saw Misha sitting beside him.
"The hell?. Did you trapped me here?."
Ender intrigued as Misha does a lazy nod as if she was lost in her thoughts. As Ender gets up and sat, the light beaming straight into his eyes made him titled his head down for a moment. Before it became normal.
"What we to do now then?."
He asked as he adjusted his messy hair. Strangely, he was also wearing his black coat as well. As he sighs and looked around his surroundings. Only to darkness everywhere except the small area where they were sitting.
"Damn. What we need to do?."
He asked again while scratching his chin. Unserious look on his face.
"Truth."
Misha mumbled, her hair scattered over her eyes. Her head titled down. Hearing this, Ender was quite surprised but didn't get what she meant. Then in an instant, the small light stopped beaming and there was darkness. Full darkness once again.
Ender wasn't scared instead he had a curious look on his face. Seeing Misha's amber eyes dazzling in the dark, even though it was quite dim. It was like as if it was a flickering star. As he felt she started getting closer to him. Placed her palms over his cheeks.
"What are you doing?."
He finally said with a serious face.
"Tell me. Why?."
Misha muttered gradually in bits.
"Why do you hide your darkness from us?."
"What darkness?. You know my darkness. She's no more.."
His expression frowned. As Misha who still had a unreadable face murmured.
"No.. That's the shell you use every time. You are so good in using it that no one can see through that shell.. Until now."
She gets little away from him, just beside now. Ender who was lost in his thoughts. He still couldn't get what she is trying to mean.
Suddenly the whole darkness streamed with bright light everywhere. Surprising both of them for a moment. Misha said with a sigh while not looking at him, her hair scattered over her eyes,breaking the silence between them.
"I used to think that I don't exist. I don't know why but no one in my life. Never... Ever had seen me as a human. Everyone see me as a wall they need to get through, my parents never congratulate me, always insult me that I wasn't enough. I worked hard in everything with all my might. Yet still it wasn't enough. Why?."
She continues with a pause.
"Then after 17 years of my life. In which I just exist, I meet you and others by accident. Maybe some one was right. Accident never happen."
Ender who was carefully examining her words, glanced on her to saw tears shredding over her cheeks. Startled, he wondered.
~ What should I do now?.
Misha could hear his thoughts, she had maybe expected for him to think like that, she knew that he can precisely understand emotions.. But he can't feel them. For Zack it was opposite. He can feel them but can't understand them. Now finally Misha had understand the very nature of both of them.
"When you save me.. Stabbing that knife to your arm, without a thought, just for some one you just meet, even if it was for humanity. Tell me do you have humanity?.. Perfection.."
The words enraged Ender so hard that his face became expressionless again in a moment. His blood lust eyes were glaring her as he tried to punch her. When he was going to hit, something inside him. Strangely. His whole body, his whole existence, was screaming to kill her yet it stopped.. Stop when it was about to hit her face. Ender takes some deep breaths, his whole body temperature rise insanely high for a moment. Maybe because it was preparing him for his blood lust state.
Misha put her palm over his fist and pulled it down. Murmuring.
"Why do you stop?."
"I– I don't know. Maybe I don't wanna hurt anyone."
The word perfect was hell for Ender, because everytime someone calls him that, he remembered the tragedy he had gone through.
"Tell me.. What do you think about existence?. I also wonder that I was alone traveling in the void. And everything even you were my imagination."
She said with a smile as Ender was stunned hearing those words coming from her lips as he looked towards her with amazement.
"But if you were my imagination. Then it would be the best thing I would come with."
She chuckled. As Ender titled his head down. As she continues speaking.
"But if we're together. All of us drifting alone in the void. Then there would be a star. A star so bright that it would guid us to light.. The burning knight.."
She lay down as Ender doesn't seem to care about it, maybe she was tired or anything.
"Zack. D. Roy. You're indeed our star."
He looked at above with faint smile on his cheek. Light was streaming everywhere. Shrouding over the place where darkness was lingering moments ago. In his existence, the only being he has trusted the most was the burning knight.
"I used to think the same too.."
Ender said with a smile. As Misha looked at him with her curious eyes.
"Maybe I don't exist. Then.. There was someone who made me believe that I wasn't alone traveling in void."
"She was also one of them.. That knight and.. You."
Hearing those words came from his lips gets Misha eyes widened as she sat infront of him.
"..Me?."
She couldn't say it properly as her jaw drops, with that Ender twitches his lips.
"Yeah.. Maybe I thought you were the light I had to achieve."
He gave a warm smile.
"But you will only find darkness here.."
Her expression frowned. As Ender sighs and put his palms over her cheeks, lifting her face to his eye. They were facing each other face to face.
"You're wrong. Because I only see light in you. Even here in darkness or in light.. You're my brightest light."
The moment was quite werid and cozy between them as Misha had a blush on her cheek. She titled her head down as Ender who understand she was getting unconformable try to removed his hands from her cheek. But as he was about to do it. She placed her hands over his ones. Their faces became red at the same time like a cherry. They both can feel their unreal scents coming from their lips. The sweet orange scent of Misha streaming from her lips made Ender a little closer, her pleaded eyes were saying something beautiful. It was just about to happen..
"Ender Levin."
A voice echoed everywhere. It was a deep voice which came from somewhere. Coming to senses, Misha pushed Ender back, her cheeks still red. As she started to look around her surroundings. Ender gets up as well, taking deep breaths. He still was puzzled by what the hell was happening to him?. As he examined the surroundings around as well. A blush on his cheek as well.
Ender turned behind to saw darkness lingering. It was immense darkness, Misha noticed as well as she also starred at the void. They both were stunned, terrified looking at the unknown.
On the darkness of deep void. There was a tall man standing. It had same facial features as Ender even the same hair. The black shirt and pants. The only difference was that he was wearing a white coat.
"W– Who are you?."
Ender asked in awe, startled face.
"I told you.. Ender Levin. I'm you.. Yet I'm me."
He said with a smile. An undreadable smile.
"The hell does that even mean!."
Ender roared but then the darkness and the man was gradually disappearing to light dust.
"We will meet again in real world. Ender Levin. Yet you won't be able to tell?. Who's me and who's you?."
A macilious smile appeared on his cheeks as Ender rushed towards him.
"Wait!."
Ender came very close to him and try to grab his shirt. Yet it turned to dust. And the man face started to disappeared with a smile.
"Live on.."
He said before completely turning to dust.