She was the only girl that I have ever told that I would either stay single or be with her. In this modern world, it's a challenge to build a family. It's a lot of pressure. You will need to risk a lot for love and survival.
In practical ways, couples can work together to form their plans; either way, being in a relationship or not, you will encounter obstacles, which is why communication is the key in a relationship. We must choose our partners wisely. We must say to ourselves that despite the challenges, as long as I am with her, we are glad to have each other's arms.
Once you have reached the same mutual mindset, things will follow through. Be warned that you will have to argue with each other. It's a good thing since both of you share thoughts and feelings, although we may say something we never mean, we usually regret later. In this part, either things may fall apart or make the relationship stronger.
Every night I look forward to seeing her in my dreams. Waking up, I look forward to seeing her in real life. Every day I wished I had the power to control everything just to be with her. She does not need to give me anything to make me happy. Her mere presence is enough to make my day complete. Whenever I am tired, I will be recharged by simply holding her hand and embracing her, which is why even though life is hell, I am willing to be with her.
We had a lot left unexplored from each other. Too bad, something put out the fire of the candle of our love for each other. We tried to move on by putting the candle into the water. It will make the candle difficult to light up. But then, in time, it will be dry. When the time comes, can we still bring the fire back to the candle? I do not know the answer.
I always thought that we will love each other forever. We will reach the point where even if the wax of the candle runs out, the fire will still continue to be lit up, and no amount of water can shut it down. But I do not know the future.
The best thing I can do now is move on. I have nothing to offer to you but my love. But I doubt it is not enough to survive. I guess we were both not ready. We may have loved each other, but surviving together is another problem.
I am amazed by the couples out there who manage to survive with their loved ones. I know we can do the same thing, but it's too much for us to take in. Right now, I am stuck with you in my dreams.
In the alternate reality, we are having night walks together while we talk about things. There was this one time when I followed your voice everywhere, and you were nowhere to be found. I hope the moment you find the destined guy for you; I have already moved on. Time will heal us, they say.
There are a lot of things I wanted to talk about you that I can only share with you in my dreams. We planned to stay friends. Meaning we have to set boundaries and hold back our feelings for each other, hoping they will fade away.
I replay the memories we made in dreams. The moment of our first kiss in the gas station. The first time we held hands during the prayer circle. The first time that we hugged each other. There are plenty more I looked forward to seeing in my dreams with you. I wish we do it in our reality.
I doubt we can ever do it again. I thought having the deja vu while we were together was a sign that we were for each other. Now, I am confused; I have been thinking about how things could have worked out for both of us. I guess we will never know.
I hope once we meet again, we will be comfortable talking to each other as friends. I am looking forward to bond and making memories with you as friends. I have slowly began to accept the fact that we can't be together as a couple. But my heart takes time to move on from you.
Deep inside, I wish we are more than just friends, but being friends with you is not too bad. It's good since we can still have fun together. It leads to another chapter of our lives. Right now, what we do in the present matters. One day the future will come for both of us, and we will witness the end point of our story. See you soon.