His question wasn't surprising, i believe that he already see through my barely holding into calm mood and already expected that i really might rampage and kill most of not all the Demons that my eyes fall upon in a fit of rage for what they did to us people from another world and to the people of this world, i believe that he knew just like i do that if i were to do that, it would be completely justified .
I wasn't surprise by the fact he asked that question, but i was surprised about why he asked that question .
What kind of plan did that guy believe that will be able to quench the raging flames of wrath inside my heart, i didn't respond to his question, but ironically that in itself was an answer to his question .
He sighed and the stern expression on his face didn't change as he began to say :
Just from the look in your eyes, i can tell that you didn't even have to think deep to find your answer, you would still call it justified and choose to massacre everyone linked to the Demon race and i too can't see any problem in your logic .
But that because of how i was raised that i see no problem with your logic .
But you weren't raised in the world that we were raised in, so even though i completely understand where your logic come from, i can't help but be surprised when i finally understood that you are just like me, a demon, ... .
He was about to continue talking but i held him from his neck, the binding contract effect didn't come in effect this time, using loopholes can allow you to hurt who you wanted to hurt without actually intending to hurt them, so i was able to inflict huge amount of pain to him, but the line will be drawn if i were to beat him close to death .
Seeing him yapping like they were the good guys and i was the evil one due to my intention to seek revenge for all those who have lost their lives without even knowing what was going on, normal people from all races were massacred just for the sake of that Demon Emperor selfish goals, but what enraged me was the fact that he actually had the nerve to say that i was similar to them .
So i held him by the throat and looked him in the eyes wanting to see the expression of fearing for his life on his face, but this time he actually wasn't reacting as i thought he would, he just looked me dead in the eye without much of agony, he was staring at me with a blank face, due to how close we were to each other i saw my reflection through the lenses of his eyes .
How to put this, i was different, even though nothing much had changed with me physically, my hair, my face, my body was still the same, it felt different seeing myself through the eyes of someone else, what antagonized me the most was the fact that i saw myself through his eyes smiling, i had not yet realized that i was actually smiling .
At first, i thought that he might have put me under an illusion or something, but with my free hand, i began to feel my face with it, i was stunned to feel the curve on my mouth and wondered when did it exactly appear, what was i exactly smiling about, was i rejoicing the fact that i was inflicting pain upon him, was that really it .
Did my smile really changed that much in such a short period of time, the unique smile that i had so much confidence in, one that was said to give people a refreshing and a very welcoming feeling, it was now turned to be an epitomy of savageness and cruelty, what was going on here .
Was i beginning to enjoy seeing him suffering like this, was the smile i had also justified, was that even the reason to why was i smiling, if this wasn't the reason to why was i smiling, what was ?
As if my brain was waiting for the right question to provide an answer, the scene around me began to shift, the new scene that was in front was like me watching someone from a far, as if watching the television or seeing an actor in a movie .
i saw a creature that can't be described as a human, even though he had humanoid features, he was Different, his whole body was dyed in red,his head, torso, legs, his body was completely red, but that wasn't his body actual skin tone .
No it was Blood, his or his enemies won't matter much, the creature eyes were purple, no pupils, just purple and that was all to it, he was holding a head in his hand, one that i was very familiar with to whom it belonged .
It was Ludo head, the creature was beginning to take a seat atop of what i first presumed to be a small mountain, but my brain helped me with processing the picture as if wanting me to have a great experience witnessing the scene ahead of me .
The mountain was small, but it was actually huge, the mountains normally are made of rocks, but not the one in front of me, the one in front of me was built on an immeasurable number of dead bodies, the whole scene looked like it came out of a horror movie .
Blood, body parts, shredded corpses of both humans and pretty much all of the other races at least how i thought they looked that is .
As i was beginning to try identifying some of the bodies that were stacked on each other to build that mountain of corpses, i suddenly felt a shift in atmosphere as if it suddenly got increasingly heavy and i turned my gaze back to where i felt the shift coming from, the moment i turned around, i saw the creature appearing in front of of me as if teleporting, he came so close to me that we were now standing opposite to each other, he looked at me and i looked at him .
" Did you do this " .
I asked trying to see if he understood me and he actually did in a way that i didn't expect or anticipate .
He first pointed at his chest and actually shook his head and before i ask about who did it, he pointed his finger at me and nodded his head .
I was momentarily stunned at what he was implying, but i still decided to confirm and asked the creature in front of me :
" Who did this " .
He was still pointing his fingers towards me, implying that it was me who did this, it made no sense at first but when i looked at the creature facial features i saw that it was actually a bit similar to mine, even the height between both of us were the same, unable to stay patient any more, i asked him one more question, saying :
" Who Are you " .
Without even missing a beat, he pointed at me then pointed at himself, at this point i completely lost control of my anger and directly attacked the creature in front of me, weird enough he didn't try to stop me, i began hitting him with my full strength, but he was completely unresponsive .
He didn't even raise a hand in try of blocking the punches, after i hit him with a bit over a hundred punches, i was finally able to regain my composure and control my anger once more, but the creature was completely shredded to pieces, the only thing that remained of him was actually his head .
I went to where his head was and the moment i went near it, i found that it was actually my head, the creature wasn't lying, he was really me, i was about to toss the head aside, but then i noticed that my skin tone was beginning to turn red exactly like the creature that i just killed .
A second later i found that i was actually now on top of the mountain, the head that i wanted to toss just now also changed to become the head of Ludo, instead of the creature from before .
So what was going exactly here, as i thought of this a normal me appeared once more and did what i did, he looked around and came in contact with the creature who was currently me, he asked me the same set of questions, i tried to talk, but no voice came out of my mouth, not even a few normal noises, seeing that he was the one asking the questions, i tried to answer in the same way the creature did by using signs .
Then the normal looking me attacked me, i felt every punch he threw at me, never have i ever thought that my punches hurt this much, i tried to defend myself, but just like with the voice, i was completely unable to muster enough strength to even parry the attacks on me .
Luckily it didn't take long before i was dead, i woke up as a normal human, i looked at the top of the mountain to see where were the creature in a hurry, but no one was there, i heard footsteps behind me and saw that a normal me was coming my way, i was wondering why there were two normal me .
But as soon as he came close to me, my body returned to being red like the creature from before, my voice was once again restricted and my almost all of my movements as well .
The normal me came in my direction and began asking the same question as before, this time i tried to answer differently than the previous times, when he asked who did this i tried to point at myself wondering whether will it work, it did and i was really able to point at myself .
But this time the conversation was a lot more shorter than before, he attacked me directly and killed me without any mercy .
After i opened my eyes once more, i saw that i went back to start of this scene to when i was nothing but a spectator, the creature was holding the head of Ludo, i believing that everything was now back to normal kept checking every part of my body, i was back to normal .
I began trying to find a way out of this weird situation that i have put myself in, i searched where i was for anything that could be of help in escaping here .
But without any warning of any kind, i was once again thrown into the scene from before, i began to search through tons of bodies thinking that they might hold any kind of clue to how to get out of this place .
As i was searching the corpses in front of me, i noticed that the creature didn't come to interact with me no more, he simply stayed a bit far away from me and looked to be surveiling me, his lack of attention raised the possibility that i might be right and that there was indeed a way out of this place .
How wrong i was, as i kept digging and searching a corpse after corpse, a familiar school skirt came into my view, one that forced me to completely neglect everything else but it, i pulled the said corpse and was so stunned and angry to find out that it actually belonged to none other than Hana my childhood friend .
The moment that i found out whom corpse was this, the creature began to laugh so hard while pointing at me and Hana, i took action directly discarding of all the pain i felt for seeing Hana like this and turning it into strength and used it to completely blast the laughing creature head open .
Restarting the cycle once more, but this time i went to search for Hana body as the creature, but in its place i found the body of old man Regard, then i was slain by the normal me the moment he saw me holding Regard's cold corpse .
So once again i was back to normal, i too some extent understood what was going on here .
This was a trial, one that was completely made for me by me, for some reason that i can't yet understand .
I kept killing myself and dying from myself in endless loop, every time i go to search the mountain of corpses, i saw the body of someone either i hold dear or someone that i was very familiar with .
If i tried to keep calm and composed and didn't attack the creature, he will explode and his death by either my hand or by self-destruct will once again start this endless cycle over and over and over .
I had already lost count of how many times this went on for, but i can guess that it had been going on for a long time, my body have become numb to the pain, my heart became so cold and detached to the point that i was beginning to feel as if what i had in my chest was nothing other than a lumb of ice, my spirit was long broken and my will to continue be tormented like this was what remained .
I have tried everything that came to my mind, i tried stopping him from self-destruct but to no avail, i was beginning to forget what was i even here for, did i even knew what was i here for or did i already forgot the reason and was now just trying to recall it .
Those were the questions that kept circling on my mind and were driving me crazy, the creature existence on top of the corpses mountain, his appearance before me, him telling me that i was actually the one who caused all of this, all these things i considered clues related to how to get out of here, that was the only reason that i had left and kept moving based on .
I was desperate for anything that could help me get out of here, i was even beginning to talk to the corpses and even tried to talk to the severed head of Ludo, but even those crazy drastic measures were to no avail .
I began to browse through my memories for different and irrelevant kind of things, i remembered playing with my parents in the amusing park, us enjoying our time at the beach, us helping an injured stray cat .
Those memories even though were useless in finding out a solution to my current predicament, they were my last line of defense somehow, they were warming my heart and soul, their effects were quite minimal, but their effect brought a half-hearted kind of balance to me in this hellish situation and place .
Reminiscing about the time where my parents were alive, i couldn't help but ask myself whether would they have liked the person i become, whether will they they recognized the boy they raised, whether my dad will be able to see that i was doing what he advised me to do, following my heart .
At these thoughts, i couldn't help but recall the words that were said to me by Ludo, before i found myself here, about the difference between me and him, is how we were raised differently .
All my thoughts and goals came gushing like the flood, as if i had gained a sudden enlightenment, i couldn't help but laugh at myself bitterly, while wondering when had i become so self-centered .