Magic Mushrooms

So where do I begin, I was 17 and in high school. It was late December at the time and the end up of my local football teams (which i had been apart of) season. We had a very popular thanksgiving day rivalry game in our town which we had won so we were overall in high spirits. We didn't end up winning the states but we did pretty well finishing in the semi-finals. It was my senior year but i didn't have much to show for it besides juggling a fresh relationship with my then girlfriend but she's not important so I wont name names. Anyways fast forward a bit to around march of the following year I wanted to do something to celebrate myself as I would soon be graduating. I was working a small under the table job and saving to buy myself a treat. Now the circle of people around me every day had drastically shifted I was no longer hanging with the football players and was hanging with the crew that I met in middle school. We had drifted apart when I start football but we were all still cool. After school one day we all decided to hang out and smoke weed. This would be my first time since I(besides party's) kept my intake clean for football. So we walked to a friends house and we sit down and relax and we smoke. I gotta say I should've known what was to come in the future just off of some of the experiences I had while smoking. Our overall vibe was good like for my other three friends it was probably a blast and for me it was too….at first, my boys weren't stingy so we were hitting bongs and smoking fresh rolled blunts it was a blessing for a first timer but I also couldn't keep up. I would inhale and then proceed to cough a lot, only really taking in a little bit but that little bit was enough to punch. I would feel a warmth spread around my stomach mid cough and then it would spread along my body working its way to the rest of my limbs and even to my head which felt pretty good it was relaxing and smooth I could definitely see why people liked it.(side note I noticed that I play video games better when I smoke weed) Now on the walk home from school earlier we had discussed buying shrooms from one of our other friends who wasn't in the group but he was a good friend so I remembered to keep that in my pocket for later, at the moment though I was enjoying the feeling of the weed hitting me. After we smoked and played some video games I decided to walk home and it was an alright walk nothing to extraordinary happened. Fast forward to a couple nights later, I'm home alone and it's a friday and I've got nothing to do I'm home alone having just woken up from taking a nap it's around 10 pm so I call my plug to see what he can hook me up with. Next thing you know I'm briskly making my way to our meeting spot. Now as I'm with him I get in the car we drive around for a bit and we're talking and he's telling me to use them safely I'm like "you know me man I'll be aight" and so we're off he drops me off near home and I walk back. This is where the situation takes its turn, so I head inside I setup for this incoming event I grab some jolly ranchers cause I heard that they(shrooms) taste bad and I'm in my older brothers room with his LED lights on the rainbow setting and his gaming computer on browsing YouTube for shroom videos (videos to watch while on shrooms) I noticed the shrooms start to kick in maybe after 45 minutes I'm suddenly more smiley and I'm snapping people on Snapchat with confidence the led lights look amazing and just all in general having fun. Probably like 20 minutes later I feel this buzzing sense in my body it was different and more prominent than weed but it also felt better. I was listening to music but I wanted to go look in the mirror because I loved the way I looked and mind you I couldn't see myself this was just pure body positivity till I got to the mirror. Once I'm there I look deeply into my eyes and I'm checking out my body and just overall being happy to be me I felt light I felt love I was the happiest thing there could be then I went back into my brothers room and laid down on the bed and closed my eyes it was a blissful feeling somehow closing my eyes felt like I was opening up my body and so I laid with those feelings saw some flashing lights and colors….and then that's when the psychosis began I reached out my hand at a blue ball of light and I touched it and I was shocked somehow I thought that what I had done in that moment was touch the conscious of the universe. I had it deep in my mind. Like I'm not sure how or why I knew but I just knew and I could feel lit with all my soul. From that day forward I started to hear voices in my mind sometimes sounding like my family sometimes sounding like my friends and sometimes sounding like a completely unidentifiable person. Telling me various things sometimes good sometimes bad but although it was annoying and gave me severe anxiety I kept it cool. I explained what I was going through to my mom first obviously she found it hard to understand but I was also not fully grasping what I had going on at the time so I was probably just explaining it bad. The shrooms changed my character multiple times, I even considered the idea of me having either multiple personalities or just dissociative identity disorder as a whole because man I was fuckeddd up in the head at the time( and mind you I was still only 17 and in high school going through that ) had a couple significant events happened because of the shrooms I "fell in love" with someone but feelings weren't mutual, I got into a fight with my older brother because of my psychosis and I even ended up going to the hospital three times over the course of the rest of that year in fact a year later and I'm still managing the effects I have nightly pills I'm supposed to take but don't and get a shot monthly to help with my mood. I know this isn't your average adventure but it's real if anyone made it this far than thank you for reading I hope my experience can serve as a lesson to make wise choices. I haven't taken shrooms since these events happened and don't plan too but I may smoke weed in the future I'm debating it idk thanks though hope you enjoyed.