Chapter 219 Bai Yue: Jealous? So angry…
"Tell me, what's going on between you and Lin Ze?"
Seeing Xidi sit down and pour herself a cup of tea, it was clear Xidi wasn't going to let Bai Yue off easily and intended to have a long talk.
At this moment, Bai Yue was wide awake, her heart pounding in her chest.
Her relationship with Lin Ze was a basement affair, known only to Ye Weiyang, who was physically weak and sometimes needed her help…
If Xidi found out about this, how could she face her best friend…
Bai Yue was currently wearing only a thin nightgown.
Bai Yue forced herself to sit down next to Xidi, picked up the tea Xidi had poured for her, took a sip, and said, "What kind of relationship could I have with that silly boy Lin Ze? He might call me Sister Yue at most..."
As Bai Yue finished speaking, seeing that Xidi didn't react and was just staring at her, Bai Yue felt a little guilty and said, "Why are you looking at me like that..."
"Aren't you hot?" Xidi asked, seeing Bai Yue drink the hot water.
Bai Yue suddenly snapped out of her daze, looked at the still steaming tea, took another sip, and said, "Since my strength reached the ninth level, this temperature doesn't affect me. Don't keep asking me how you've been lately, why you suddenly came to see me, and why you didn't go to see Lin Ze after you came out of seclusion?"
Seeing Bai Yue's somewhat flustered expression since she appeared, Xidi already knew the answer.
Moreover, the "rage" that had dissipated from Bai Yue's body had obviously been devoured by Lin Ze.
Xidi's cold voice rang out: "Your Highness Bai Yue, you're really something. I asked you to comfort Lin Ze for me, and the way you've done it is truly unexpected..."
Bai Yue avoided Xidi's gaze, subconsciously looking away, and continued to evade the question, "Xidi, you know, from the first moment I saw Lin Ze, I liked him quite a bit. It's only right that I comfort him when he's upset..."
"Alright, I don't want to know what your relationship is with him. Do whatever you want..." After saying this, Xidi took a sip of her tea.
Hearing Xidi's tone, Bai Yue understood that Xidi had obviously guessed about her relationship with Lin Ze.
Watching Xidi drink the hot water alone, Bai Yue moved closer to Xidi and said, "Are you jealous..."
"Jealous of what?" Xidi replied directly to Bai Yue's question.
"I'm not jealous, why are you so angry..."
"Am I angry?"
"Yes!"
"No!"
"If you're not angry, why are you drinking hot water all by yourself?"
Xidi: "..."
Xidi was speechless for a moment, looking at the cup in her hand, not knowing how to refute Bai Yue.
After understanding the relationship between Bai Yue and Lin Ze, her heart was indeed a little chaotic. She couldn't calm down.
Or rather, her heart had never been at peace since she left Lin Ze.
But her stubbornness prevented her from expressing her true feelings.
Seeing Xidi's silence, Bai Yue, who had been in a bad mood since she came in, guessed what was going on.
"Have you already gone to see Lin Ze?"
Xidi hummed in agreement after a moment of silence.
Hearing Xidi's response, Bai Yue said, "Xidi, I'm not trying to criticize you, but if you love him, just say so. Why hide it? You've already become a god, does becoming a god affect your love for someone?" Seeing that Xidi still wanted to refute, Bai Yue interrupted her directly.
"Don't tell me you've never liked Lin Ze, that you don't like him, and that you would come to me after a fight?"
"Aren't you just feeling down and want to talk to someone?"
"If you don't want to tell the truth, you might as well go back to your Demon Palace to cultivate. You're disturbing my rest."
After saying that, Bai Yue got up and walked towards the bed.
"Thump!"
Xidi placed the teacup on the wooden table.
"I haven't become a god yet..."
Bai Yue's raised foot suddenly landed, and she looked at Xidi and said, "What's wrong? Ye Xiaolei and Father Emperor both said that you have already gained the recognition of the continent's laws, and becoming a god is a sure thing, so..."
At this point, Bai Yue remembered something and slowly sat down next to Xidi and said, "Because of Lin Ze?"
Xidi was silent for a long time, and Bai Yue didn't urge her until Xidi hummed in agreement.
With this hum, Xidi seemed to have opened a floodgate and slowly began to speak.
"To condense my divine essence and become a god who controls desires, I must abandon my seven emotions and six desires. I thought I had already done it, but every time I made up my mind to give up these feelings that I shouldn't have, I couldn't bring myself to do it… I originally thought that everything was superfluous in the face of the power I was pursuing, but just when I was about to give up everything for him for the power I had pursued for thousands of years, I backed down. I found that I couldn't do it no matter what!"
"In the past year, I have tried many ways to convince myself, but I have failed…"
"Whenever I try to erase love and desire, the memories of him will surface like a tide…"
Xidi chuckled self-deprecatingly and said, "It's ridiculous. I just wanted to use him to achieve my own goals. He was deceived by me for more than ten years and used by me for more than ten years. Why could he forgive me back then? Why couldn't he be harsh with me? I was already prepared back then…"
"Because only those who are loved can be fearless…" Seeing that Xidi was a little agitated, Bai Yue suddenly interrupted.
As someone with experience, Bai Yue had a clear understanding of relationships.
Looking at Xidi, whose eyes were misty with tears, Bai Yue gently patted Xidi's head.
"It's not wrong to pursue ultimate power, but sometimes you have to listen to your heart. Why don't you try expressing your true feelings? There's still a chance, isn't there?"
"Perhaps without realizing it, your goal is no longer to become a god."
"Like now, I think you already have the answer."
Hearing Bai Yue's words, Xidi remained silent for a long time.
After a while, Xidi said in a somber voice, "But he doesn't need me anymore… Actually, if Lin Ze had just asked me to stay, I could have given up becoming a god…"
Xidi recalled Lin Ze's relieved expression earlier, and her heart ached.
At this moment, she understood how harsh her words to Lin Ze had been a year ago.
This feeling suffocated her!
Hearing the sobs in Xidi's voice, Bai Yue smiled, hugged Xidi like an older sister, and patted her back.
She understood that Xidi already had the answer in her heart before coming to her.
It was just that Lin Ze's behavior made her unsure how to express it. When you truly like someone, you can't fully show your true self.
Because you care too much about the other person's joys and sorrows…
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