7:30 start.
I turned off my alarm, sat up, and got out of bed.
My alarm was only loud enough to wake me up because I don't want to wake up Milo too early and him be in a bad mood.
Because if that freak ass kid is in a bad mood, the whole house is in a bad mood.
But he is usually good, so we are usually good.
I got up and put on some sweatpants and lugged myself to our living room.
Our apartment was small, but big enough for the three of us.
I used to go to the gym every day after work. But that got skewed when Milo was born and now I'm on babysitting duty.
So now I just try to do some at home work outs and go to the gym when I can.
I am not a huge fan of waking up early in the morning, so I don't go to the gym at 4 or 5 in the morning.
Instead I wake up less early to work out in the living room.
We have weights so I train with those.
And then I do a random training videos on youtube.
40 pushups is insane.
10.
Break.
10.
Break.
10.
Break.
2
"Cai!" Hey, I tried.
Milo quickly runs over to me and sits down on my back, giggling.
Too damn early.
"Hi buddy, you are up early, where's your momma?" This kid insists on calling Luca mommy or momma instead of dad, weird ass kid if you ask me.
All Milo did was giggle.
Okay, brat, don't answer my question then.
"Milo, get off of him and come here," Luca said. He was dragging himself down the hall, putting a hoodie over his head.
"No, Momma, I wanna stay here."
I sat up gently, and Milo quickly scrambled to sit on my lap.
Luca looked like death as he put something in the microwave for Milo.
"Baby, I'm not going to ask you again. Please come here. You need to eat and let Uncle Cai go get ready for work."
I agree.
"But mama.."
I lifted Milo up and carried him off to the kitchen. "Listen."
"And suddenly he wants to listen, of course," Luca said, and he sounded very defeated.
"I'm gonna go get ready," I said.
"Do you want me to make you lunch or bring you lunch?"
"You can bring me lunch." It makes me feel normal, but I won't tell him that.
"Okay."
I shuffled back to my room and threw on the same thing I wore to work every day, but Tuesday's version.
It's all the same; I just have 5 of them.
I grab whatever I need to work and I head to the kitchen.
Luca drove me to work because we only have one car and he's with Milo all day, so he needs it more.
I live about a 10-minute drive away from the office, so it feels really quick with whatever crazy shit Milo has us listening to.
I waved them both goodbye, and I went up the elevator.
I walked into the office and sat down in my cubicle.
I halfway like this job, because I can do it without being bothered most days, but the stares are a lot.
I am dressed just like everyone else; I just happen to be tall and big.
Like, fight the allegations.
I log into my computer like normal and clock in, and get everything started for the day.
They have us doing the most random things that take about 30 minutes max, but make us stay here for 8 hours and even longer than that some days.
Pay is decent, social interaction is low, unless it's a meeting day, then none of it's worth it.
I looked down at my phone.
Luca: Milo's missing you already.
I smiled. It's almost like I do this every day.
They make me feel normal.
I've hated kids my whole life.
I think it's because of my fear of relationships.
But my love for Milo is so great, I can't.
I love that kid as if he was my own, no matter how much he annoys me in the morning or when I am watching him while Luca's working at the bar.
He makes me want one.
Which is downright gross and I am not going to be a single father like this bitch.
Me: Tell him I will see him at lunch.
I smiled at the picture of the three of us on my desk and then one of Milo.
They are the only things of myself I have here.
I don't know, the thought of putting so much on this dumb desk is physically revolting.
23 minutes had gone by.
I sent my report to the printer and turned the brightness all the way down on my desktop.
I walked over and stapled everything, making sure everything was perfect.
"Hi Cairo, how are you?" leave me alone I swear to god.
Please, I'm begging you. I turned with a small smile. Alpha bitch. "I'm fine, how are you?"
I can't even remember this bitches name but he literally bothers me every single time I stand up, without fail.
"Better!" He's slightly taller than me and all I know about him is that he is an alpha.
It's because he fucking reaks like a mother bitch.
"You okay? You smell…a little…off." okay so now we are saying I stink, wow?
"Are you saying I smell?" he started laughing.
I fear that wasn't a joke.
"No, no, it's like a good smell, a really good one, new perfume?"
I shook my head.
"Maybe my nose is off, have a good day then!" he waved me off and I sighed a sigh of relief.
He makes me so uncomfortable and I can't fucking explain it.
I think he knows I'm an omega and he's for real just trying to test the waters to see if he had a chance.
Zero chance.
He has zero chance.
Whatever.
I clicked the elevator button.
And clicked the top floor and immediately clicked the close button.
I walked out of the elevator door and over to the boss's office.
Don't tell me I have to talk to this alpha bitch?
Usually I drop all my reports off at his very nice secretaries office and then I leave.
But of course she's out right now.
QUEEN WHERE ARE YOU?????
I knocked on the door and slowly pushed the door open.
"Uh hi Mr. Ashford, here is my report?"
He looked up at me.
God damn I don't remember him being this fucking hot.
"Why are you saying that like it's a question? Are you giving me the report or not?" nasty attitude though, hello.
"Oh sorry sir, yes. You assigned us this yesterday evening and then I finished it today with everything you asked. It has my name on it and if you have questions let me know," I said trying to be polite because this bitch WRITES MY CHECKKKSSSS.
He raised his eyebrow. "Okay." He took the report from my hands and stared at me.
Okay now I am feeling uncomfortable.
"You smell funny."
"You are the second person to mention that maybe I should go home and shower during my lunch break."
"Are you being smart with me?" yes bitch.
"No, I just think it's weird you are the second person to mention it in the span of like 10 minutes."
"Maybe you are starting your rut. Once it starts you can take a couple of days off to be with your omega if needed, just clock them and finish what you need once you come back." I forgot he thinks I'm alpha.
I mean most people do.
And the kid and luca, yeah they definitely think I'm an alpha.
I mean if he checks my files or literally anything he'd know the truth but I think it's better this way.
So much better this way.
"It's not for a week or two, but thank you for your concern," I said bowing and he looked me up and down.
I felt my neck start to tingle.
And my body gets all weird.
Fuck .
I signed.
"Anything else sir?" His expression was stiff and unreadable.
"No, you are free to go. Just send me the other stuff you have been working on so I can have a look." unreadable.
I nodded and I quickly made my way to the door.
I don't know my heart is fucking racing.
What the fuck.
I got back to my desk and started texting luca.
Me: bitch, you will never guess who I just met again.
Luca: OH MY GOD, YOUR BOSS??? Or wait was it that weird alpha again.
Me: my boss. His secretary wasn't there so I had to go straight to him. And wait, I will tell you when you get here.
Luca: oooo someone's in loveeeeee
Me: girl bye
About 13 more minutes went by with me taping away at my computer and starting the new document that Mr. Ashford had given me.
Q4 market restructure picture
This bitch actually is writing comments.
Your phrasing here is strong. Add specific companies.
Why don't I add my hand up your ass bitch?
"CAI!" I turned around with a smile, turning off my computer.
"Hi baby," I said and grabbed him and put him on my lap.
I want one so bad.
Why?
Like actually why I hate kids.
Why?
One thing that my dead end office job did to "keep office morale high" or some hickory shit was allow you to bring family in for lunch.
A lot of people did it and it was cheaper this way.
The three of us started to eat our lunch.
I got kicked out of my chair so I had my heavy ass on the desk and Luca sitting on my chair with Milo in his lap.
This made me feel so normal.
"So, do tell about your future alpha."
Luca is one of the most delusional people I know I swear.
"Girl bye. Okay so first off, my home girl was not… wait run it back. I ran into that alpha freak I keep talking to you about who gives me weird vibes. He said I smelled weird or some crap and whatever. I just went to the boss's room and didn't mind him. Anyway his secretary wasn't there so I walked in. Immediately being nasty to me but rent is due, so I was nice and all. He also mentioned that I smell funny, which is weird as hell… wait do smell funny?" Luca brings out this side of me that just wants to talk.
All I want to do is talk so much and that's what friends are for I guess.
"No, you smell normal."
"Baby, do I smell weird?"
Milo made a funny face. "You smell like… like honey bread." kid what does that even fucking mean?
"Yeah I don't smell it, I don't know what Milo is on, anyway what else happened."
"Anyway I started to get all weird and tingly and I couldn't explain some of the feelings, but I know the other feelings are because of my heat, which shouldn't be happening because it's in 2 weeks. I think."
"You think?"
"That's what my app says." yeah.
Maybe it's coming early, and that's why I am really wanting kids.
"I think it might come early."
"Why do you say that?"
"Well, Milo has been giving me baby fever all day," I said and Luca smiled.
I quickly interjected. "But I do not want kids. It's just my body."
"Your body wants kids?"
"Yes, every time I am close to heat, it wants to have children and I don't know but it does. Does that make sense?"
Luca shook his head slowly as he continued to eat. "But I'll go with it."
"So… what's your tea? You have been blankly listening to my story, so I know you have something to say."
Luca started to laugh shyly.
"Nothing, mines about work too. You know that regular I keep telling you about?"
"The one that comes once a week that I am convinced is married, yeah," I said and Luca hit me lightly.
"Yes, well he's been coming every day, instead of once a week. He was there yesterday and the day before and."
"God he's so hot. He's some boss of a firm and oo he is fine. He tips so well and he always asks about Milo. What else? Do you know he's been spending my shifts with me and walking me to my car?"
"Someone's fucking desperate for some action."
"Ugh don't say that, I just wanna be in dreamland for a second and forget that he's an alpha," Luca said mumbling and went back to eating.
"Momma, can I go over there?"
"No."
"Uncle Cai will go with you," I said, finishing my lunch and jumping off the desk.
"Will you stop undermining my authority?" Luca said kicking me as me and Milo walked over to wherever he was pointing.
"What's this?"
"Water cooler, we get water from there."
"What's this?" I hate this fucking game.
"That's a printer."
"But Uncle Cai said the printer was over there?"
"We have multiple," I said, picking him up as he continued to point at different things.
"Hi sir!" Milo said, waving at whoever was behind me.
I turned around.
HE SENSES WHEN I GET UP I SWEAR.
"It's mister Bryan." How can the kid remember your name but not me?
"Hi Milo," The weird man I know remembered as Bryan waved.
Milo waved back because he's a kid he hasn't developed his sense of fear yet.
"Why were you following me and Uncle Cai?" He's still very observant which is good.
"I just wanted to say hi to your Uncle."
"But you saw him earlier." stop this kid knows too much and this is why you shouldn't shit talk near kids.
"I just wanted to see him again. Your Uncle looks really good in his work clothes, right? I wanted to know the brand." Getting too close to comfort and shameless flirty in front of my Nephew is crazy.
"Okay!"
"Besides…" he got close to me. "Omega's look good with kids." GET BACK I SWEAR TO GOD.
LITERALLY FUCK OFF. I HOPE YOU DIE.
He gave me a nasty smile that had me worried about staying home alone with Milo tonight.
"Milo, go to momma, okay?"
I smiled as he walked around the corner and to my cubicle.
Bryan smiled at me.
"Do not ever speak to me that way again," I said calmly and his smile grew bigger.
Fear.
Fear is such a real thing.
It doesn't matter how tall, how big I can get, I'm still an omega and alphas make me fucking scared.
"What? I'm just telling the truth? What's getting you all worked up?" your tone.
Your words.
That's what is getting me worked up.
The fact he knows that I'm an omega.
My lunch routine is getting squashed.
"Oh or was it the omega comment? It's what you are, isn't you?" fucking bitch, I swear to god.
"I asked you not to speak to me that way. Do you hear me? Or are you deaf? DO NOT SPEAK TO ME LIKE THAT!"
Now you wanna back away.
Right because now people are looking right.
Right.
Now who do you think they will believe, the guy who has a fucking record of harrasing people or the guy who just comes to do his work and mind his business?
The guy with a record of harassment because money makes the world go round.
I pushed past him and felt him grab on to my arm.
"I won't tell anyone," he said with a smile.
I pushed him off and kept walking.
I feel his eyes on me.
I quickly went to go get Luca and Milo the fuck out of here.
"Uh.. um."
"Are you okay?" Luca asked, standing up looking at me concerned.
"Go home," I said sternly and he nodded.
"Okay, I'll come get you in a couple of hours."
I nodded.
I sat back down and went to type on my computer.
Who told him?
Who has access to stuff like that?
Managers, and Mr. Ashfuck.
Whatever.
Whatever.
I typed at my computer responding to emails and finishing almost everything that Mr. Ashford had given me.
A pitch for tomorrow?
I sighed.
Why would you send me that half way through the fucking day?
I itched the back of my neck, whatever I will figure something out.
I shut off my computer and grabbed everything.
I waited long enough. He should be gone.
I quickly made a run for the elevator and shut it quickly.
I wish our policies were better.
I smile at Milo standing up and waving to me.
"Shouldn't you be in your carseat?" I called out with a smile.
Oh shit, it's boss man.
Gonna pretend like I didn't see him.
I slumped down on the couch as Milo played with his toys on the floor in front of me.
Lucas was doing his makeup in the living room and yapping about something.
"Tommrow my schedule is all up in the air, so I will go to the pharmacy after I drop you off. I'll pick both our refills, since you mentioned your symptoms. Even though I think that's dangerous as hell."
"You do the same."
"At least I let my heats happen once a month, when was your last one?"
"2 years ago."
"Rightt and how bad was that… I will answer that for you, you were out of commission for almost 3 weeks."
"But that's not going to happen."
"And why do you think that?"
"Becasue I am not going to miss taking my medicine," I said with a smile.
"And if you do?"
"I'm gonna rough it out."
"You aren't going to get help?"
"No."
"Right." Luca finished up his makeup and was looking at me.
"Do I look like I'd get tips?"
"Some em that big bootyyyyy," I said and started to laugh.
The tattoos usually put people off, but I guess he was showing them today.
"Okay whatever, Milo come give me a kiss," Luca said and he picked Milo up and Milo gave him a kiss.
"Okay bye."
Luca leaves and I'm on Milo duty for the rest of the night.
We got our bath done and we were in our pajamas, sitting on the bed watching television.
Kids cartoons will knock you all out.
"Uncle Cai?"
"Yes?"
"Will you ever have kids?"
What's a 3 year old doing asking me that question?
"The dream is now, but who knows?" Talking to kids about adult things leaves you with a 3 year old who can speak fluent sentences but can't read or write, or brush his own teeth.
Dying.
I feel my phone vibrate.
Roman: team meeting tomorrow at 9 am.
Fuck.
Team meetings always fucking lead to some team dinner after and those always fucking suck.
I heard light snoring and I slowly rubbed Milo.
Cute ass kid.