> ⚠️ Trigger Warning: This chapter contains dark themes involving mind cvontrol, loss of agency, and intense emotional/sexual content. Proceed with caution.
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The classes resumed. The shadows lingered. The watchers returned, though this time, they weren't hiding.
The school halls were filled with new tech. New doors. New cameras.
New students.
And that's when I saw her—Lira.
Black ink eyes, pale skin like frost glass, and a mouth that curled like she already knew my secrets. She walked into our literature class like she owned the air, sat down beside me without asking, and leaned close enough for her perfume—metallic vanilla—to cut through my spine.
> "You're the one they couldn't erase," she whispered.
> "Excuse me?"
> "They call you the core variable. The one who remembers wrong. The one who breaks the loop."
I stared at her. She smiled wider.
> "I'm here to see if you can be replaced."
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Later that night, I found Rhea in the greenhouse.
She was alone, standing beneath the broken glass skylight where vines curled like veins. She didn't turn when I approached. Didn't flinch.
But she spoke.
> "She's not new. Lira. She was in Protocol Room 9 with me."
I froze.
> "You knew her?"
> "She knew me," Rhea said. "But I was sedated for most of it."
She turned then—slowly—and looked at me.
> "She was a handler, Adrian. Not a subject. She chose this."
The implications hit like a train.
> "They're watching us again, aren't they?"
> "No," she said. "They never stopped."
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Midnight.
My room was colder than usual. A file had been slid under my door. No name. Just one label:
> "PROJECT: ASHEN LOOP – Subject A03 Log #44."
I opened it with shaking fingers.
Inside: Photographs. Graphs. Excerpts from a psychiatric report.
> "Subject's emotional tether to V-05 remains unbroken despite 17 resets. Conditioning methods failed. Obsession persists. Proposed resolution: reassignment or permanent deletion."
Below that—typed faintly:
> "She was never yours. You only believed she was."
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I found Rhea again.
This time in the south wing—an abandoned lab, door barely hanging on its hinges. Inside, blue light pulsed from old servers.
She was digging through them like she'd done this a hundred times.
> "They tried to delete us again," she said without turning. "But the system corrupted."
She turned the monitor toward me.
On screen: a looping video.
Me and Rhea. Different uniforms. Different haircuts. Same eyes.
She was crying.
I was holding her face in my hands.
> "Don't let them wipe me again," her digital echo whispered. "Don't let me forget you."
And I said:
> "Even if they kill me, I'll find you. Always."
The screen fuzzed. Froze.
> [END FILE ACCESS – MEMORY CORRUPTED]
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She turned to me.
> "They moved the system into us, Adrian. When the labs collapsed, the data found new hosts."
My stomach turned.
> "You mean… we're the backups?"
> "No. We're the system now."
Her hand found mine.
> "And Lira's here to overwrite us."
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Three nights later.
I woke to static. Loud. Shrieking. My nose bled. My vision blurred.
Rhea was at my door, mouth pressed into a line.
> "They're initiating the Protocol again," she said. "One final loop."
I followed her without asking.
Back to the greenhouse. To the core.
She knelt beside the roots of the ancient tree they'd planted at the center of the campus—a tree that bled silver when cut.
She dug through the soil with bare hands.
And pulled out a small capsule.
Inside: a key. And a note.
> "If found, do not trust the girl in white. She is the reset."
I stared.
> "Girl in white?"
> "Lira," Rhea whispered. "They made her from the best parts of us. She's not here to test you. She's here to replace me."
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That night, I dreamt of a room I'd never seen.
White walls. IV drips. Screams muffled by water.
Rhea strapped down.
Me in a suit.
Watching.
Smiling.
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I woke up with the key still in my hand.
It hadn't been a dream.
It was a memory.
And I was starting to remember everything.
The silence after the fire wasn't real.
It was too clean.
Too... scripted.
St. Augustine's still stood, charred in parts, entire hallways sealed off by caution tape and authority that never asked questions aloud. The flames had taken the east wing. The dorm records. A chunk of the surveillance hub.
But not the heart of it.
Not the system.
Not us.
I watched them clean up the damage with surgical detachment. Like this had happened before. Like they had rehearsed it.
I stood in the ashes of what was supposed to be our escape and knew: we hadn't escaped.
We had activated something deeper.
Rhea hadn't spoken in days.
She sat at the window of my room like it was hers, knees drawn up, her hair tangled from lack of sleep. She watched the courtyard like a ghost might. Not waiting. Just watching.
As if she was trying to find proof that she still existed.
I didn't push her.
I sat on the bed, reading the files we had stolen, burned, half-recovered from the old faculty archive. Most were fragments. Some were in code. Some were in her handwriting—but she didn't remember writing them.
> "Subject A-03 has developed autonomous aggression when V-05 is threatened." "Loop 14: Seduction protocol failure. Subject emotionally attached. Reset initiated." "Loop 15: Subject V-05 alters behavior independent of handler control."
Loop. Loop. Loop.
Seventeen loops. Seventeen versions of us.
I should've felt broken. Erased.
Instead, I felt dangerous.
"I saw Caleb again," I said quietly.
Rhea's gaze flickered.
"He's not who he says he is."
"None of us are."
I stood.
"No," I said. "I mean he doesn't know who he is. I watched him glitch."
That got her attention. She turned from the window.
"You think he's from a loop?"
"Or a prototype."
The silence between us now wasn't empty. It was coiled.
"They wouldn't bring in a broken subject unless—"
"Unless they wanted to test a new control variable," I finished.
Rhea closed her eyes.
"They're not just watching us anymore. They're testing us again."
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We didn't wait. We searched.
Lira was the first new variable.
She arrived three days after the fire.
Blonde, soft-voiced, always smiling in a way that didn't reach her eyes. She was placed directly in my Literature class, sat beside me without asking.