Perhaps losing the support of loved ones truly made the path of growth exceptionally difficult.I genuinely feel the importance of family; it is a crucial piece of the puzzle in my life,filling in the bittersweet experiences of human existence.
In the blink of an eye, I have lived in New York for ten years,experiencing marriage and divorce,moving and renting,job loss, and finally, a mental breakdown that led to auditory hallucinations that threatened suicide or harming others,ultimately resulting in me running naked in winter and ending up in a mental hospital.If it weren't for the North Star constantly guiding me,perhaps something terrible would have happened long ago.
After a period of treatment,the auditory hallucinations subsided, and I gradually recovered. The Bid Dipper kept guiding my way,constantly urging me to trust the doctors and nurses, and encouraging me to trust the support of my family.It truly was the Big Dipper protecting me.
New York winters are indeed bleak and long, but I was incredibly fortunate to survive that long winter and wait for the new spring.
Spring,with its revival of all things, was bright and beautiful.Willow branches swayed in the wind,flowers smiled in the grass, and little bits of green gradually painted the forest.Swallows chirped,sparrows chatted,cats ran happily among the flowers chasing butterflies, and dogs barked and ran joyfully towards the bees.The bees diligently collected honey;truly, the early bird catches the worm, and only through hard work can one reap sweet rewards.
In this spring,I plan to return home,to see the place where I was born and raised, and to find out about my relatives.So,let's go home,like the swallows of the south who,after enduring blizzards,yearn to fly back to the warm south.Go home,little swallow,it's time to wear your new clothes and return home in spring.Little swallow,wearing your flowery clothes,where do you go every spring?
Every important choice in life shouldn't be hindered by others,even your lover.New York is a place with a strong energy field; it is not the land that nurtures people, but people who nurture the land.Countless ambitions people rush into this arena,hoping for a successful and prosperous future.
Vanity and ambition flourish. I shouldn't fall to the bottom; I should strive to climb upwards,stretch my branches upwards,like the banyan tree in Fuzhou,striving towards the sunlight.
After my six-month trip, I will return to New York City to continue striving for the future I desire.Worldly success brings freedom;once I have made up my mind, I will do it.Many things succeed amidst change.
Like the petrel in Gorky's story,charging into the storm,come on,world,wait for me to recover, and we will fight again.
True strength is not about relying on others.What you can do is fully utilize your own talents and strengths,constantly hone your skills,refuse to become powerful through dependence, and build your own reliable safety net.You can draw on the strength of others, but it should never be your primary source of power.
So-called growth is about gradually learning to always be true to yourself,never betray yourself,always prioritize your own feelings,strive forward, and finally,with a mix of excitement and trepidation,overcome one challenge after another until you become your own pillar of support.
I believe that mountains and seas will eventually return to their source, and storms will eventually meet again.Unresolved grievances will eventually be resolved, and all things will eventually turn out as desired.There is no incurable pain, no relationship that cannot be ended.All things lost will return in another form.Those things we care about,those things that trouble us,those people we can't let go of,will all return in another way.Waiting for others to love you is not as good as striving to love yourself.Waiting for others to save you time and time again is not as good as striving to save yourself.Only by being the best version of yourself can you meet the best version of yourself and have the life you desire.