Eliza's POV
We reached at the hotel by 9 pm. I asked him go sleep but he is still messaging me. It's already 10.I need to work but there's only one hour left. I worked as i can and already made it one hour.
Claire:Why don't we go for a date yesterday?
Eliza :Not now.
Claire :Why?
Eliza :After i tell you everything.
Claire :I don't care about the things you gonna tell about you. You always blame yourself even if it is other's fault.
Eliza :Listen first, then judge
Claire :I don't wanna judge.
Eliza :Go sleep.
Claire :Eliza, you're my girlfriend now? I can't believe it. Am i dreaming?
I fell silent when he said that. What are you doing Eliza? You give him hope eventhough you're not ready for it. Is that just teenage hormones? No i can't love anyone just because of hormones. Is this love or empathy? If it was empathy, i wouldn't have feel anything. I am not like before. I want to cry it out.
Claire:Why aren't you replying?
Eliza :Listen first then we can decide tomorrow.
Claire : Okay.
I am sorry Claire. I took my secret diary and wrote what's going on with me.
Eliza :Claire, i wanna tell you something.
Claire :Tell me.
Eliza :I have a diary where all my feelings and traumatic events are written. No one know about it except you.
Claire :Can i read it?
Eliza :Not now.. I will give you one day . Good night.
Claire : A little more, please.
Then we chatted alot.
When i woke up i heard a knock at my door. It was breakfast. I took it and started to work while eating.I already worked for 5 hours straight. Claire called and said his mom called him. Then he came to my room just to see me and to say goodbye. 20000 per hour isn't that a lot? Why did they offered such a huge money? I sent 2 lakhs to Happy homes. They accepted it and started work. I worked again for almost 4 hours for extra money.
Someone knocked at my door. I opened it. It was Claire.I smiled at him. He is so obsessed with where i usually sit. He sat at my chair and me at the bed. "Eliza your mom is here. I went to pick her up" he said. My face fell and was staring at the floor. "Hmm" i said. "She wants to see you. Let's go to your home" he said. "My home is under construction " i replied. "Huh? Oh! No. Your real home" he said. "That's my real home. My real home is under construction " i said. Isn't that my home? "The home where you born" -him
"I died at birth " i replied. "Eliza, please. Don't you feel sorry for her? She has been waiting for you all along " he said softly. "Waiting for me. I don't worth it. Tell her to forget she have a daughter. She is ruining her life. It's not worth it" i said"I am an orphan. I am always alone. It's better "."What are you saying?" He asked then came near me. I was still bowing down. A tear fell from my eye. Fortunately, he didn't see it."can't you hear what i said just now." I asked "Eliza, don't be so hard on yourself" he said"Claire, Do you know why i don't want anyone? Do you know why i always rejected everyone? Do you know why i always wanted to be alone? You never knew. No one know. No one know what i went through. No one know what i am going through. "I stopped when i realized i may cry or say everything
"What is it?" He asked no he whispered controlling his sobs. Why is he always crying for me? I don't want it. .My whole body started to shiver and i felt like the whole world scattering around me when i thought about what had happened in my whole life. How pathetic i was.Claire held me tightly.
"Eliza what's wrong " he asked.
He turned on the AC when i started to sweating profusely. I couldn't breath. However, i managed to whisper "Go to your room, please leave me alone"."No i won't leave you " he cried. "Please go, Claire" i begged.I can't control my body anymore. I was shivering uncontrollably. He hugged me tightly. "Please don't drive me away. Please, Eliza. What's happening?" He cried. I mustered all the strength that was left in my body eventhough i felt numb to pull away from the hug. I pushed him out of my room. He didn't fight back but kept begging. I quickly closed my door and fell to the ground holding the door's knob. I crumpled on the floor and started to shiver again,knees on my chest. I covered my ears when i started hearing some voices."you destroyed everything " "you don't worth having anything " "You can't be with us" "We don't need a daughter like you" "look at her, how ugly" "Get out" "You little rat".I crawled to a corner of the room.I heard banging on my door. I covered my ears again. They were blaming me of something what i am not even aware about. That incident changed what i was. The door wasn't locked. Claire stormed to the room and looked around just to see me only to witness my shivers"Not me, please " i was murmuring something like that. "Eliza " i only heard his desperate plea then darkness dominated my vision.