Eliza's POV
"Claire, let me go" i shouted and shoved his hand. He pulled me towards him and cupped my face. "Eliza, calm down please" he was already begging. Why am i so kind? I hate this. I am not angry. I wasn't showing anger. I am tired. Don't i have right to know who i am? I don't want to cry but what the hell is this? I am going crazy. Everything that's happening now is too much. I am cooperating but what is it again and again? I am a human too. Rain check. It was thunder and the rain started.It wasn't heavy just a starting. A thunder followed by another. We are already near his car. "Get in the car " i told him. He opened the passenger seat and told me to get in. I shook my head. "I will drop you." He said. "No need" that's all i could say. I started cough. Hell. These breathing issues again."Eliza, i will let you drive. Drive to pour all your anger. Please, you are struggling " I pushed him to the car. He was protesting."Eliza" he called out my name. "Go home " i said and started running. The rain was heavy now. I heard him calling my name but i didn't stop. I want to cry right now. Alone. It is raining so no one can see my tears. I was walking in the rain, all drenched. Crying in silence, hugging myself and sobbing. I can feel the warm of my tears. I don't know why i burst out but i wanted to cry. I heard a car horn. It's Claire's. He rushed to block my path. I stopped but didn't give up.I chose another path to walk. I don't want him near me. I don't want anyone beside me. I was about to walk away. He slammed his car's door.I just heard it. He ran towards me. He drenched too because the rain was too heavy.There was lightening and thunder. He grabbed my hand "What do you want?" I shouted. "Leave me alone". He didn't dare to say anything but hugged me."Eliza, i will tell you everything. I promise. Please don't suffer alone" he whispered. I pushed him away while shouting "That's not your deal". I don't know if i am audible enough."It is... It is my deal." He shouted back. "Leave me alone please " i said. "No.. I am not gonna leave you alone in any phases of life. It's a swear. Swear on my life" he said. I fell silent and froze. Swear on his life. I am nothing. I don't worth his life. "Stop making swears which are impossible " i scolded him. "I will prove it. I will show you" he said and pulled me into his. Both of us are wet and now his car too. He buckled his seatbelt but i didn't. I am having breathing difficulties so i didn't. "You owe me 2 explanations now, Claire. Stop chasing me if you don't want to explain." I said in frustration. Didn't he deserve my anger now? I walked away. Who is messing up now?. He stepped on the gas. We both were silent. I was looking out through the window and he was driving. The rain still didn't stop. "Where are we going? I need to go home or drop me here." I said when he changed his direction.The road was small. Maybe it can be filled only with 2 cars. He didn't say anything."Claire " i shouted "Stop the car." He didn't. Door is locked so i can't jump out. He looked at me. "Don't you wanna know the truth? " he asked calmly. A deafening horn blast pierced the air. Out of nowhere, a massive truck hurtled towards us, its headlights blazing like angry eyes. Claire's hands moved with lightning speed, wrenching the steering wheel to safety. We narrowly cheated death, our tires screeching in protest as we veered away from disaster.The car screeched to a halt, throwing me forward. My head crashed against the window with a sickening crunch. Meanwhile, he sat rigidly in his seat, his seatbelt holding him firm like a lifeline. We'd narrowly escaped the jaws of disaster, but my world was already spinning out of control. I held my head. It hurts but not as much as my heart ache. He immediately unbuckled his seatbelt and held me but i pushed his hands. "Eliza, are you okay?" He asked. "Yes" i said and took my hands from my head. I looked away so he won't see my tears.I pretended i am okay eventhough,i am not. "Let's go to the hospital " he said in a hurry.I wiped my tears and looked at him. "No, can you tell me what's going on?" I asked him calmly suppressing my anger. " I will. I promise. But tell me if you're not feeling well. Please. " he said. "I am okay" i said. He nodded and started his car. He was glancing at me frequently. "Eliza, what if you get to know your parents abandoned you? What if the answer you're searching hurts you?" He asked. "Stupid questions,Claire.I know they abandoned me.What else should i think except that? Ending up in a orphanage after a day of birth, they threw me away. And your second question, answer is simple. No" i said then he looked at me. "Eyes in front. " i said. He looked at the road again. I blinked a few times i felt something blocking my vision. Eyes are blurry right now. "Where are we going?" I asked him weakly. "To your..." He stopped his words and his car. "Eliza, what's going on?" He asked. I pretended i am okay. "Nothing just a ache. I am fine" i said. But he sensed what's going on. He patted my cheeks. "Drink this" he handed me a bottle of water. My hands were shaky as i held the bottle. I couldn't drink. It slipped from my hands and my vision went black.
I wasn't in the car anymore when i opened my eyes. I looked around. It looks like an hospitals. I saw Claire sitting on the floor and was sleeping. His head was resting on the side of my bed. Why is he making efforts for me? Am i worth it? I yells at him, ignores him, mistreats him and somehow i am a reason for his sisters death. He made promises. But... I can't be with him as he wants. I can love him but can't be his partner. Maybe, i can hurt him. A tear fell from my eye. My lips were trembling in my sobs. I barely shed tears and it is for you, Claire. I can't give him hope. I gently stroked his hair and whispered " i am sorry. "