I slammed the door behind me and just… stood there.
My heart started racing. My face was still hot.
"June. June, June, June," I muttered to myself, pacing around the room. "Are you this stupid? Are you actually….this stupid?"
I groaned into my hands.
"You were really gonna let Ian take advantage of you last night."
Then I paused, whispering, "Except he didn't. He literally stopped. And somehow still gave me one of the best nights of my life. Ughhh!"
I threw myself on the bed, face first into the pillow.
"He said all those soft, perfect words that made my heart do that thing. Ugh. like…why is he like that?"
I rolled over, staring at the ceiling.
"I still hate myself though. For moaning so loud. Why couldn't I shut up? Everyone heard me. Oh my God, Ren definitely heard.."
My voice cracked halfway.
"He's never gonna look at me again. He's gonna think I'm just one of Ian's… ugh. No no no."
I sat up, clutching my blanket.
