"Ruined by a Straight Boy" is a raw, emotionally charged journey through the wreckage of unspoken feelings, misread signals, and the heartbreak of queer longing tangled in heteronormative illusions. This album-poem hybrid unravels the aftermath of falling for someone who could never fully reciprocate—not because they were cruel, but because they were never meant to be yours.

Told through a mix of biting sarcasm, melancholic reflection, and cathartic vulnerability, the project captures the turbulence of queer heartbreak—the kind that doesn't just hurt, but also humiliates, heals, and ultimately empowers. Each song-poem is a confession, a confrontation, or a quiet mourning, forming a lyrical diary of disillusionment, grief, emotional codependency, and the slow rebirth of self-worth.

Set against atmospheric, often minimalist soundscapes, Ruined by a Straight Boy is both a middle finger and a love letter—to the boy who never saw you, and the version of you that kept waiting to be seen.

It’s not just about him.
It’s about reclaiming the pieces of yourself he didn’t understand.
It’s about being ruined, then rebuilt.
It’s about being queer, emotional, and unapologetically loud in your softest pain.

or "Thank God he left this town behind"


Chapter 12 - If i die , would you cry or smile? (From the vault)